oxidation and dream monsters

Teto SynthV, An Xiao / SCAPEG♾AT [Cover?? Original Song??? Both??????]

music / kian https://twitter.com/kiandoesnt
vocals / tsuina-chan, saros
MV / https://youtu.be/yQLpOQxyF2Y
inst, svp / https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1gfmlooi9x7G6kDQYSp1DPfhCtkR5UxBh?usp=drive_link

[lyrics]
I couldn't take it
Had to break it
For the twentieth last time
Tried to fake it
Tried to make it
But it's poisoning my mind

Is it me what you wanted

I've been forgotten
Body rotten
By the choices I made
Tears are caught in
Bloody cotton
Fearful, shocked and in dismay

Tell me what you wanted

In the name of God, I'm here to give you what you want

Call out in the dark
It echoes but I'm not alone
I feel a presence waiting
Waving
And it's deathly stare is tearing me apart
And testing what I thought I knew
Of whispers from the devil
Telling what to do

I'm scared of lying
Scared of trying
Not to be out of the loop
Scared of crying
Scared of dying
Scared of finding out the truth

I have all the answers

For what I'm seeking,
What's the meaning
If I'm running out of time?
Pointless grieving
Mindless seething
For a future that's not mine

I have all the answers

Call out in the dark
It echoes but I'm not alone
I feel a presence waiting
Waving
And it's deathly stare is tearing me apart
And testing what I thought I knew
Of whispers from the devil
Telling what to do

What's been concealed
By the people
With the power to cut the chord?
See no evil
Hear no evil
Speak no evil anymore

Maybe they've forgotten

My head's on fire
I've been tired
It's been dire for way too long
I'm a liar
Even prior to the things that did me wrong

Is it what you wanted? 

Call out in the dark
It echoes but I'm not alone
I feel a presence waiting
Waving
And it's deathly stare is tearing me apart
And testing what I thought I knew
Of whispers from the devil
Telling what to do
Going way too far
It's beating through my heart again
And I don't have a say
I'm breaking more and more
Each time I feel another scar
I'm failing to restart again
I've memorized the path
That's taken every time I spiral
Down into the dark
The devil made me do

I WALKED WITH THE DEVIL

Song:‍ BUTCHER VANITY by FLAVOR FOLEY (Vane, Jamie Paige, ricedeity): https://youtu.be/vjBFftpQxxM
UST / Tuning by me (UST DL is in the description on youtube)
Thumbnail art by me
Singer: Yokune Ruko (欲音ルコ) ♂ KIRE & Whisper

Original Upload: https://youtu.be/H5Qsy1lyeC0

【Yokune Ruko ♂】‍‍ BUTCHER VANITY 【UTAU Cover +USTx】

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[Lyrics]
too smart for my own age
i have a lot of niche tastes
too lonely for my own good
not worth being misunderstood

too callous to be friendly
offputting and unworthy
i want to be more likeable but it would 
only hurt me

i have to ask myself if it even matters
if finding love that doesn't hurt is worth the tatters

i have to ask myself if i'm even worth it
if it counts as abuse if i really deserved it

so i have to do what's right, does that make me too weak?
oh can they really see?
i'm useless and cowardly

if i have to right my wrongs, then it's too much to fix
just spit it out and admit
you secretly enjoyed it

block it away
don't talk about it today
my dirty secrets
oh what would they ever say?

getting closure
come a little closer
whispers desecrate
all that i thought was kept safe

behind every mirror
it's a little clearer
my filthy desires
tugging on crossed wires

so clear, yet so dirty
it's not gonna kill me
ensuring my own demise i'm
a slave to my own lies

don't know what to do
say i'm blind to
my scarlet letter

but is that the truth?
my evil, it knows no excuse

enabling me
won't make me feel
any better

close the chapter
live a happy ever after

too smart to be exploited
it makes me feel unwanted
too sick for what's acceptable
not enough to be a spectacle

the affection i'm craving
the numbing and the breaking
enough to be useful
but not enough to be worth saving

i have to tell myself it's all inconsequential
that there's no point in crying over missed potential

i must remind myself i was never in control
or else the guilt will be too much to ever console

i should've done what was right
but i was too afraid
oh all i have betrayed
i'm crushed under all the weight

i just want to feel alive,
sensation that i've missed
i swear i tried to resist
but what if i enjoyed it?

lock me away
to never see the light of day
crimes against nature
perverting my shades of grey

getting faster
spit on greener pastures
need more punishment
to deem my purge sufficient

behind every mirror
it's a little clearer
my filthy desires
tugging on crossed wires

so clear, yet so dirty
it's not gonna kill me
ensuring my own demise i'm
a slave to my own lies

don't know what to do
say i'm blind to
my scarlet letter

but is that the truth?
my evil, it knows no excuse

enabling me
won't make me feel
any better

close the chapter
live a happy ever after

blinded by reality
its many brutalities
leaving me so haunted
this isn't what you wanted?

so muddy and filthy
and it almost killed me
surviving my own demise
what it took to open my eyes

gone past the abyss
lifting the mist
boiling over

living in the grief
you shouldn't have had to save me

reaching out your hand
to understand
a two-faced clover

close the chapter
no such thing as ever after

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MP3: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1kyoji_C7JtCmi3vIETFnO8-BO5iNN7pe?usp=drive_link

Inst: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1Mq6UZAJMy_txX_rx2F0bQJtJbOhwt9Lx?usp=drive_link

SVP: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1ansSFTiYj9rInRwqhf_oLvq_xEE2RJPU?usp=drive_link

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【MAYU】TO BECOME IN OUR HEARTS 【Original Song】

have you ever taken an edible in iowa after a 5 hour flight that departed at 4am followed by a 4 hour drive with no sleep and a stomach full exclusively of old nerds gummy clusters you found in your friend's car? did you then proceed to have a panic attack where you believed you were stuck in a seconds-long time loop and u kept forgetting and rediscovering the fact u were stuck in that time loop every time it looped? did you then to proceed to sleep for 6 hours in the living room where your friends got to hear you sleep talk in arabic? well THIS ALBUM IS FOR YOU!!!

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【MARETU】FUKUONA GIRL Remix (by STOMACH BOOK, song from twitter)

THIS IS NOT MINE !!!   the cover belongs to LuvP on youtube !  go show em some love !!!

Xi Yi ,  Mind Brand  マインドブランド   ( rap ver . )  |  SynthV english cover  by  LuvP

Original/SVP: WeevilDoing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l56icYwdrmI

Tuning/Mixing/Art: me ^_^ 
Vocals: Kasane Teto AI
Software: SynthesizerV Pro

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