prod. dercept x jolst

im lost in my thoughts
i got you involved
in case you forget
youre my only muse, oh
im working on me
i pray you see that
im prone to relapse
i miss what we had

and patiently ill be here waiting
i just hope you dont blame me
all alone im fading 
aint no coping baby
this time i wont lose myself
and i want you to know
that i still wish you well

ill find you in the next life
if this isnt right
if its not our time 
dont stress it babe
you always say
i cant fake my face
my shoulders gain weight
when i hear your
name
love like this is hard to find 
i cant get you off my mind 
so ill
swallow my pride
wipe my tears from my eyes
and yell to the sky

impatiently ill be here waiting
i just hope you dont blame me
all alone im fading 
aint no coping baby
this time i wont lose myself
and i want you to know
that i still wish you well

if u c this I miss u haha

wish you well

still

just how im feeling pls listen

---------
no one controls
where their head goes 
i'm sorry mine went to a place, 
where i wanted your embrace, 
guess i'll just let go
cause i've felt alone, 
you came along and felt just like home
but now i've lost track of the key, 
and i don't feel like me
guess i've lost control 

cause you were so captivating, suffocating me 
in a aggravating complication
can't find words to say, im so afraid, i'll change things for the worse

cause it's not the fact, that you don't like me back 
it's the nights we'd stay up after midnight and laugh 
unforgettable memories i wouldn't retract if i could
but it's not about all the times we’d hang out 
it's the songs we would write and the lyrics we'd shout 
in my two bed apartment, wouldn't leave until 5 if you could 
i miss what we had, but please don't like me back,

i'm on the mend, 
and i can't pretend 
like you're the worst, you brought out the best
let me get off my chest that it's in my head
to channel my thoughts into songs, 
i could have called, and said what's wrong 
the day i told you all of my truth, 
i was scared i would lose 
one of my best friends 

cause you are so effervescent, luminescent
let me take a second, wrong impressions 
make me look like a mess, no more hope in my chest, i think it's for the best

it's not the fact, that you don't like me back 
it's the nights we'd stay up after midnight and laugh 
unforgettable memories i wouldn't retract, that were good
cause it's not about all the times we went out 
it's the songs we would write and the lyrics we'd shout 
in my two bed apartment, wouldn't leave until 5 if you could 
i miss what we had, but please don't like me back

should you care, since it's not your fault
cause it's myself that i brought this upon 
i hope that these feelings are dead and gone 
cause i'm tired of writing these songs

like me backl

like me back

since you mfs want this on soundcloud so bad

You wanna have a night
Sober, fall to the floor, what's left
You think it's over, bleeding out through your chest
She needed closure
He just want feel her breast
To go on
Move on
So petrified, you're
Wrecked 'n' Bloody
Might sleep if lucky
Love, do you trust me
What matters if we're ugly

Hang tight
Wrong night
Eyes are mud
You're ice, I'm rusty
So right
You want me inside your head
Don't you care?
I swear, it's suffocating
Don't you dare stay there, I'm contemplating
Everything pierced by your teeth
Their lies, you need
My ties, I'll bleed out
Right now
Won't have the ink to write down

You wanna have a night
Sober, fall to the floor, what's left
You think it's over, bleeding out through your chest
She needed closure
He just want feel her breast
To go on
Move on
So petrified, you're
Wrecked 'n' Bloody
Might sleep if lucky
Love, do you trust me
What matters if we're ugly

Gotta taste for you, right?
Feel it on my tongue
Might gasp for air
Pressure on my lungs
Might've lost several times
I still think I've won
You'd feel better, drop the drama
All your scars, they burn like lava
Wrapped around, your demons haunt me
You have mine so they won't stop me

You wanna have a night
Sober, fall to the floor, what's left
You think it's over, bleeding out through your chest
She needed closure
He just want feel her breast
To go on
Move on
So petrified
You're wrecked
I'm bloody
Might sleep if lucky
Love, do you trust me
What matters if we're ugly

WRECKED N BLOODY

Spotify

freedom

prod. ilytwelve 
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
( i love you )

i dont know what to feel anymore 
stuck in anonymity don't know who i am no more
only took a couple months you walked right out that fucking door
yeah, like what the fuck was it all even for?
if this is how to live then i don't want to live at all
i just wind up all my feelings then i let em go
and it was never for the worst but that's just how it goes 
fuck around to fuck around probably just to feel something more
( i love you )

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

and i dont know if i miss you or i miss the thought of love 
im trapped in my consciousness need drugs to get out of touch 
you all diplomatic, im just a manic 
so whose advice do i take if i don't have an answer 
i just spend up all my time in my own mind 
the only friend i got is what i smoke to feel right 
i set the bar high 
a waste of my time 
caught on the deadline, in which im taught to be sure
i struggle finding what's sure 
don't need a hand and not yours 
take revelations it's straining to rip out the sword
i wasn't distant before 
but now i'm distant and more 
my personality inside of me 
it makes me contort 
( i love you ) 

yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around
yeah no one to hold me down
i need amenity my friends they all enemies now
i was never good enough to make anyone stick around 
but i think im better now they hate to see what comes around

fuck!
but i ain't going out sad
do it by myself 
i dont need nobody bad
i remember i was down 
ain't nobody had my back so
now when i go up
ill be up until my body bag yeah.

amenity

produced by monto and chris marek

we were on some crazy energy lol

ROOKIE INTERNTIONAL 2023

NEEDLESS REDUNDANCY [a demo]

congrats u found me!  
here's a little demo i didn't announce or promote or anything like that.  i just made this in one sitting when i was sad a couple months back.  enjoy <3

NEEDLESS REDUNDANCY [a demo]

Monto

Recent comments

Leichnam

insomniia

Related tracks