Doubt's Shadow
© 2021 B. Merritt, J. Merritt & P. Fulham
Janice Merritt: vocals/melody/arrangement
Peter Fulham: guitars/arrangement
Bud Merritt: lyric/mix/mastering/arrangement/photo
Thanks to Peter and PG Music www.pgmusic.com
www.janiceandbud.com


Doubt’s Shadow

V1
I lie and watch the fan slowly turning
Like a clock it’s shadows dance on the ceiling
Does each turn count the days since you left?
Or with each one am I closer to my healing?

CHORUS

Without you I struggle to find my next step
Without you the days seem to grow longer 
I do not want to leave doubt’s shadow 
It’s a safe harbor where my hope  can linger

V2

In my shadow the memories drift slowly by
Everywhere I turn there are too many voices
All my family and friends are trying to offer help 
When I listen they shout out too many choices 

REPEAT CHORUS

tag:  It’s my safe harbor here in doubt’s shadow

Doubt's Shadow

Some days are diamonds

Some days nothing comes
Try as you might
Dive down into the depths
Nothing comes to light
Some days it all makes sense
It all falls into place
But on a day like this
That’s not the case

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole

Some nights I can’t sleep
Though I’m tired to the bone
Some nights I crave a little company
At times I’m glad to be alone
Some memories are like old friends
So glad when they emerge
Missed chances, though, and old regrets
Are best left undisturbed

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole
 
Verse
Some days the fates are with you
The wind is in your sails
Then hope turns to ashes in your mouth
Every venture doomed to fail

You know the story of Prometheus
Bound and chained to his stone
Every night the eagle tears out his liver
Come the day it has regrown
Time doesn’t flow like a river
Some say time is an illusion
Time is fluid, time is relative
That only adds to my confusion

I’ve had days that never seemed to end
Some days blink and you miss them
I’ve heard ideas that caused my mind to bend
Never easy to dismiss them

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole

Some Days Are Diamonds

Excerpt from 'this Ends Now!' - contribution to Drogheda Art Festival project: 'Where are we Now?'

Prints - We Are Friends

Stillness

Fate Is

Robot Is Dead

Freak n you Remix ft. Raekwon, Jodeci and Ghostface Killah- Wilderness mix

An indulgently lengthy excerpt, but reflective of taking the time, under a searing morning sun, amidst flies, to sit still and listen to the intimate psychophysical presence of these very curious yet nervously cautious calves, as they approached nearer and nearer. In particular, the sounds of their breath. Wondering about their existence, and their destiny.

2022.03.13 Calves. Morning. Coorong. Early Autumn.

The Forêt des Cedres (cedar forest) is one of the most unusual of the forests and green spaces of the Luberon massif, given the oriental origin of these large trees. At an altitude of 727 metres, the cedar forest was originally planted with seeds from the Algerian Middle Atlas, back in 1861.

Due to it's altitude and distance from major towns and roads, the forest is very quiet and makes for a perfect recording location. I arrived an hour before sunrise intending to record the spring dawn chorus. As I approached the entrance to the forest I heard a nightingale singing so I slowly approached, getting as close to the bird's song post without disturbing it. I setup my mics using the "tree ears" technique: spaced omnis with the tree trunk acting as a natural baffle. 

Sony PCM A10 + 2 x Lom Mikro Uši (tree ears technique)
02.05.2022

Common Nightingale - Forêt des Cèdres du Luberon, France

童の唄

Malanga 5

We enjoy writing and producing Americana songs.  Janice's 2018 Americana album All Over The Map, her 2020 blues album Am I Blue Enough and her 2023 blues album Deep In The Domain are streaming on Apple Music, Spotify, Amazon,  Youtube and other platforms.  We appreciate you checking them out!

Doubt's Shadow

Janice & Bud Merritt