it’s exhausting.
—-

featuring and co-produced @rayzurm (cover and background from him as well)

(you knew, you knew, you knew)
(you knew, you knew, you knew)
lovesick and scared, like there's no way the stars can move this way to fumble my end
i hate the desperation i get fronting all in my head
‘cause i’m way too scared to lose you
‘cause i’m way too-
scared to lose you
oh why *in the background: way too scared to lose you lose you*
burning in the sun, broken leaves and styrofoam cups with little rum
woke up and felt anemoia breaking down my guts (can’t say it's not my heart)
i feel sick in the head, my tongue spitting omens, feel faker - synthetic dread
i’d hate to spread the broken english in your head
‘cause i’m way too scared to lose you (you gotta hold me)
do you know how scared-
love sick but bounded lines
carved in wax, they melt with time
cross me, feel like i’m dead inside
you blink, and i forget to hide
left your voice in the room we shared
closed my eyes but you’re not (still) there
traced your name on the midnight air
broke my fall but you weren’t there
wouldn’t you know, 7am lying my bed, droned
do you know how scared i am?

clickonmeiwantthemoney

do you know how scared i am?

help from @young_particular and @ronensmelodie
ib: @coreylingo

Lyrics:

The first time
You said it wasn't nothing
I clinged onto hope and the trusting
And then I tried to find a way (oh no)

And now the second time I'm waiting
And then my mind is losing patience
Yeah, your heart is being dangerous
And I can't stand here to take it

So I said I had enough
The things ain't adding up
You want me dead in here
It's just the two of us
And it's constantly
Why aren't you taking me

And then I question myself
Asking why am I here
I take the answer and find
That it's not even clear

Leave it, doll
Leave me there
Leave it all
Leave me square
Can't run now
Can't run fair
Leave me there
Oh, leave me there

I said I had enough
The things ain't adding up
You want me dead in here
It's just the two of us
And it's constantly
Why aren't you taking me

Had Enough

0:00 colorhex
0:48 waste your time
1:23 tell me ft. @alyorra
2:07 in my city
3:00 why do you lie to me
3:42 so u dont feel me?
4:20 chasing
4:58 echo chamber
5:30 always crying
6:20 they notice ft. @otaku_u
7:09 impermanence
7:57 when you come home
9:09 eternity
9:53 throw you away

escape your fate

[download] birthday music

i don't speak german

unbound, i’m off rocky roads (wouldn’t you know)
Its sound, half of you’s pull me right back in
It's sour, I shouldn't even be here right now…..
Nobody gon’ take it
Nobody goes taking the blame like a bih, leave yourself vacant
Nobody gon’ take it, Nobody gon’- 
Nobody gon’ take it, Nobody gon’- 
Your blurry tongue, makes it feel like there's nothing to you

free

auf wiedersehen

ericdoa - end of discussion (UNRELEASED)

dona d'aigua (Track 3)

stream Here: https://push.fm/fl/daigua

crawl

lyrics:
i lost the point
is the problem me
i get it, if it wasn't something
i'm stuck inside this dream

to top it off
i feel my self-esteem
its falling out, i feel it leaving
i guess that it's just me

when did the time go?
i deal with the patience
please i'm not your idol
and i will not claim it

not right for the guessing
but I just think crazy
please I'm not your idol
and I will not claim it

i'm not your idol

isellfakecolognes-instrumental

Wings in Motion

We're goin' down the road towards tiny cities made of ashes
Gonna hit you on the face gonna punch you in your
Glasses. Oh no!
Just got a message said "Yeah hell is freezin' over"
I Got a phone call from the Lord sayin' "boy go get a
Sweater. Right now"
So we're drinkin' drinkin' drinkin' drinkin' coca-coca-cola
I can feel it rollin' right on down
Right on down my throat
As we're headed down the road towards tiny cities
Made of ashes
Gonna get dressed up in plastic gonna shake hands
With the masses. Oh no!
Does anybody know a way that a body could get away
Does anybody know a way
Were goin' down the road towards tiny cities made of ashes
Gonna hit you on the face goin' to punch you in your
Glasses. Oh no!
I'm wearin' a t-shirt that says "The world is my ashtray"
Our hearts pump dust and our hairs all grey
Just got a message sayin' yeah hell has frozen over
Got a phone call from the Lord sayin' "boy go get a
Sweater. Right now!"
Does anybody know a way that a body could get away
Does anybody know a way
Were drinkin' drinkin' drinkin' drinkin' coca-coca-cola cola!
I can feel it rollin' right on down oh right on down my throat
And as we're headed down the road towards tiny cities
Made of ashes
I'm gonna lay down in the baths where they coat you
In molasses. Oh no!
Does anybody know a way that a body could get away
Does anybody know a way

Sun Kil Moon - Tiny Cities Made Of Ashes

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

crawl

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