@odihu beat and feat 

https://open.spotify.com/track/4XzpbdXD4o7JfSjfUnEA13?si=cb5ed6f792af4284

just another monday
gotta get through it
late to all my classes
they don't want excuses
sun's been shining
i still feel useless 
put a hole inside my wall
cuz i jus can't do this

i'm friends with love
but i'm also friends with hate
when i try to talk
i can't conversate
open up my laptop
and use it all the day
i love the way i live
and i don't wanna change

off of the pills i throw up in the backseat
dk where i am dont think ill ever be happy
said that im pretty but i feel like ur capping 
dont wanna live i feel like napping 
crying all the time
cause the thoughts inside my mind
i feel like a waste of time 
i just wish that i was blind
i wish u were by my side
i think bout you all the time
i just wish u didnt die 
wish u didnt suicide
cook a razor blade on the stove it burns
when you killed yourself that shit really hurt (duh)
but i cannot wait till its my turn
wont be swimming with the fishes but be flying with the birds

just another monday
gotta get through it
late to all my classes
they don't want excuses
sun's been shining
i still feel useless 
put a hole inside my wall
cuz i just can't do this

i'm friends with love
but i'm also friends with hate
when i try to talk
i can't conversate
open up my laptop
and use it all the day
i love the way i live
and i don't wanna change

i dont wanna change
pls just go away
i dont wanna change
pls just go away
i dont wanna change
pls just go away
i dont wanna change
pls just go away

i jus cant do this (w/ odihu)

prod @1zakuro
ft @foreverstained

i just want to see 
if u even really fkn care
sticking needles in my arms
and now its bloody everywhere
feel the beating in my heart
start feeling like its gonna tear
said were meeting at the pool
but u were never even there

reassure me
tell me that u care 
ur heart is blinding
but i cant help it ill stare
entrancing love 
i see nothing else but u 
i'll b forever concussed 
if u dont make a move

i lose and i lose 
im pure i'll tell the truth 
come w me lets b happy 
i wanna get zappy 
pick me up ill pick u up too
my hearts cold thaw my neptune 
never thought that i would bloom
or that u could b my doom

i just want to see 
if u even really fkn care
sticking needles in my arms
and now its bloody everywhere
feel the beating in my heart
start feeling like its gonna tear
said were meeting at the pool
but u were never even there

zakuro - tell me that u care w/ lifeless

last part so funny

overwatch suicide i wanna end my life
pea brained supports, stupid fat tank dykes
all they do is die and die, complain and cry and cry
dps is the problem, ur lifes a joke go and cope
0-5 reinhardt
please slice my heart
crit health fallin apart
like where the fucks my suzu
where is my replenish
dps moira now my ecstasy's ended

I play this shit everyday
pocket mercy u and im still the issue
tank wants to die again, i cant heal you
20k healing.. how the fuck we still lose?
this game makes me just wanna die
but at the same time i feel so alive
maybe its not always like this
ill try one more time i guess..

Overwatch suicide w/ esh Prod bloodsekai

https://open.spotify.com/track/5QTBwgAkE6HuG3wxwe5zFt?si=320d9379b8a1403e

locked inside my room again
thinking about u again
is this really how its gonna end 
i wish u'd b my girlfriend

i trust u never once worried
thought i was rushing things i didnt wanna hurry
u wanna keep me safe i dont want u to hurt me too 
but its impossible if i just really love u 

and i do
and i do 
i rlly do 
and i do
2x

im awaiting
will this go 
how im thinking

i have faith in god 
cuz this is no mistake
almost gave up but i had to stop
cuz i know my love isnt fake
just be urself please
i'll be pleased
i'd do it all for u 
to make u happy 
im not the dirty type 
but lets get zappy
i love ur selfies
and ur body 
its not over cuz i like u 
u could reject me its ok dont be scared to 

thought i lost then, i just didnt know
its not the end yea i have hope 
so stressed im sweating bury me in snow
clipping my nails with my teeth i wanna slit my throat

waitingwaiting Prod bloodsekai

dt thisismyreality




i saw you inside the party kissing on another guy
and i asked you about this before and then you fucking lie
so ill take my bottle with me and ill go out for a ride
hopefully ill crash into a tree and then ill fucking die
now i dont know what to do with you
you can tell me anything but the truth
i bet you feel like shit since you got caught
i dont want you anymore bitch please get blocked

bitch get blocked

one take ill step on the gas
im going way too fast
hoping that i dont crash
hoping that my life lasts
im feeling way to horrible
my mind is feeling really dull
ive been out of it lately
i think everyone hates me
feels like its constant raining
and that theres no escaping
ive been getting thoughts in my head 
text her phone dont leave me on read
i dont even know what you said
i look like such a fucking mess
spin out of control and idk what to do
if i was to rot today i would still think about you

ive been out of it lately :(

@bloodsekai

always sad
but im jus tryna have fun
isolate
i'll push away everyone
but i can't
when things are hard enough alone
it's not good for me
but i'm not good enough

i feel so
i feel so alone
i think no
i think no one knows
who i am
how i feel
what i can
cannot do
it makes me so miserable
cry in a cup
then i pour it down the drain
and i do it all again
cuz my tears fall like rain
and my chest fucking aches
pinch the cheek on my face
make sure i'm awake
cuz i feel insane

always sad
but im jus tryna have fun
isolate
i'll push away everyone
but i can't
when things are hard enough alone
it's not good for me
but i'm not good enough
always sad
but im jus tryna have fun
isolate
i'll push away everyone
but i can't
when things are hard enough alone
it's not good for me
but i'm not good enough

could i maybe crash down at ur place?
i think i put too much on ur plate
i like the blush u put on ur face
i should stop talking cuz i'm a waste
jus a burden
damn im hurting
im not a person
if i jus worsen
if i get worse
i can't be the same
if i get worse
i can't be the same

always sad
but im jus tryna have fun
isolate
i'll push away everyone
but i can't
when things are hard enough alone
it's not good for me
but i'm not good enough
always sad
but im jus tryna have fun
isolate
i'll push away everyone
but i can't
when things are hard enough alone
it's not good for me
but i'm not good enough

it's not good for me
but i'm not good enough

bloodsekai - im not good enough

(lovefilter) 
girl you look so good and i read online
if i talk to you i will feel alright
and im not rude im just real uptight
got my hands round your neck and i make them tighten
your lies ill take my life
if i hear them one more time
your eyes yeah your my bride
my girl forever ill decide
the prize of having of you is hard to act alright
dont mind me im fine ill be alright as long as your alive

(@yukisasayaki)
wanna keep u mine
pls dont die
come spend the night
lose track of time

fallin asleep with my tv on
and u look so cute with that t shirt on
i dont ever ever ever wanna see u gone
but i know it'll happen and i wont move on

it'll happen baby u cant tell me
feed these lies n it'll drive me crazy
jus want an answer like yes no maybe
thought u came to this world to save me

keep u mine w/ yuki (bloodsekai)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6ShXLKNqm0ohUzuZpxxCi4?si=30b35d76a8794142

fanboy808 cover, refined from yesterdays if u saw that on my alt (the mixing was bad)

i havent made a short song in a while 4 this account in a while so im posting it here

lyrics:

do you really know what it means to be a loser?
sitting on computer all day i'm gonna lose her..
nose bleeds i have no xp :(
pls dont come at me !!!!

(repeat x4)

to be a loser !!!

@bloodsekai @yukisasayaki

i don't care what u think of me
i would rather be a freak
rather stay in my room and be a neet
than go outside and not be free
u can think what u want
but idc
i'll do what i want
cuz i'm not scared
go deal with the world
and lose ur hair
i'm happy as i am
i won't take no dares

im waiting for my friends
to wake up, until then
i'll be crying in my bed
don't know why i'm so upset
everyday it just gets worse
but i act like i'm not cursed
can't feel my face, i'm not immersed
I've been lying, everything hurts

i don't care what u think of me
i would rather be a freak
rather stay in my room and be a neet
than go outside and not be free
u can think what u want
but idc
i'll do what i want
cuz i'm not scared
go deal with the world
and lose ur hair
i'm happy as i am
i won't take no dares

i jus wanna feel something
razor to my wrist i cant feel it sting
cut my circuit off with string
ur the one behind everything

im not good enough
always 1 above me 
im not good enough
im not good enough
always fuckin up
they've always had enough
i dont wanna love
i dont wanna love

its been too much
n i keep it to myself 
but these scars on my body 
rlly say i need help
but im too far gone,
ive got no one to tell
cant stand another day
in this permeating hell

i don't care what u think of me
i would rather be a freak
rather stay in my room and be a neet
than go outside and not be free
u can think what u want
but idc
i'll do what i want
cuz i'm not scared
go deal with the world
and lose ur hair
i'm happy as i am
i won't take no dares

Overwatch suicide w/ esh Prod bloodsekai

moxi moxi moxi moxi moxi moxi

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