Wonda Why

atlas: https://soundcloud.com/atlas

*if you know who produced this tag me in the comments and i will add them*

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treason ft. atlas

In My Zone ft. atlas {prod. DVNSM}

I got home from an overnight shift feeling a little bit better about myself. Woke up with a feeling I should write this. All of these were just conceived today and I had to get em out. I give you smile. Just some raw mixed songs. Happy Holidays.

Production : P Soul & Slim Tone

Mixed by Me.

Enjoy

blessing

I had a dream and wrote a song about it.
Hope you enjoy</3

the passenger [prod. .anxious.]

nine [prod. somburd]

recovered all my old tracks from 2012-2016 because my laptop broke last year. AND NOW WE BACK MOFUCKAS, we takin back to 2015 when i was in high school talking about coping with my grandfathers death, trying to finish school and dealing with a abusive relationship at the time. hope you guys enjoy

lyrics:

when i was a youngin i wanted to play baseball
just runnin those bases while my pawpaw was smilin
now my heart is divided cause right now he ain't here
he died last year, and i still ain't got over it.
yo my face filled with tears. when i heard the bad news
he said it's only the rain, it'll be over soon.
i learned alot from him right now he ain't right
under this mask that i wear, the only color is blue
and i'm a failure i know you see it

yo.. right now i'm not passing high school, graduation my be delayed, i can't get a diploma with a 1.8 GPA im sorry momma
i can see the dissapointment on your face
im sorry momma
i wish i was a better son but
hey, im gonna make it out, but am i gonna stay whole?
i'm trapped in these self doubts.
my teachers say Elijah, please be realistic this music shit is just a dream.
go graduate and go visit a fucking community college and be hopeless when finished, and then go live out your life blindfolded with no direction, but hey i get it
we work a part time job just to get a little money thinkin thats our future life we stubborn with the teen's perspective that you're supposed to swim in an ocean of failure and depression, you're envious of others askin all them niggas questions like


HOW YOU MAKE IT OUT?
YOU AIN'T GOT A CAR
HOW YOU GET AROUND?
YOU AIN'T GOT A JOB MY NIGGA
HOW YOU SAFE AND SOUND?

i never understand because im not optimistic
they told me to make a plan B but you know i never listen
tell em it's "build or destroy and it's my decision"
and i'll find a way to fix it, if i make a mistake
you should've seen the fucking look on my face.
when the white folks clapped their hands while i performed on the stage
but when i went home i stayed in my room until late, and i wonder if fame will be my fate and will tomorrow be the date that i pass away?

life is funny will i pass away tomorrow?

i'm dancin with the devil till im starin at the dirt
life is funny, i always laugh at her
she's really sensitive, i can't get too mad at her
cause you know afterwards, there ain't no after her.
if you know what i mean
i mean you live, you got your dreams, things aren't really there as you see
the depressing part it's so hard to achieve 
you start to burn your own jersey and start leaving your team
you gettin desperate like it's do or die
you're stationary like you crucified
friends ain't friends no more you're un-unified 
so you say fuck it, i might as well commit suicide 
but you don't love it

when i decide to sign off, and it's my turn to settle down, i won't return, promise that you will dream about me
promise that you will dream about me

(interlude with my granny)

i made some fucked up mistakes
i wish a time machine was real so i can rewind the tape
stress and depression got me
caught my soul, wiped the grin off my face
cause im a failure and a liar i get it
tell your friends that i said it,
that your boyfriend's pathetic, and he's ugly as fuck.
and cosmetics won't get him to a attractive nigga 
bashin my own damn genetics, but aye im grateful i said it.
my heart should be broken, like a mirror in shards, why don't you just OD and die nigga, it isn't that hard, take a pill and then snooze
drown the candy with booze, too bad i always stay sober, i never win i just lose, i never win i just lose.
bought a new necklace. the "noose"

im a good for nothing son a bitch and my life don't een matter
hurt me back, keep repeating that pattern, sometimes to get rid of pain i wanna load up on drugs, but im just kidding inside.. what i want is a hug.

why am i in my feelins why am i in my?

you shouldn't be without me

you a pussy nigga elijah

kill yourself

im sorry momma (feat. granny) prod. knxwledge (2015)

Lyrics 

I'm finna turn my phone I don't wanna talk
I'm going outside gonna take a little walk
Lot up on my mind damn Im going through a lot
If you hit me up every call is gonna drop
X3

Hit me up later when I'm done sippin the sauce
Im rolling up a blunt better not see me no cops
I let the time fly like I put wings on the clock
I'm working so hard and I never plan to stop
Drop top, new whip and I'm zooted
Well I got an old whip but I move it
Like it's new but it's not new, fuck it
Doing life by myself and I'm tryna love it

I'm finna turn my phone I don't wanna talk
I'm going outside gonna take a little walk
Lot up on my mind damn Im going through a lot
If you hit me up every call is gonna drop
X3

Stop, gotta pick myself up
I'm working on my inner health tryna find my delta
Always keep it real I say fuck what they tell ya
Like fuck what they tell ya
I ain't listen to the negativity
tranquility
Closer to the inner me
I don't pay no mind to my enemies
Never friending me
I'm the only real friend to me

I'm finna turn my phone I don't wanna talk
I'm going outside gonna take a little walk
Lot up on my mind dam Im going thru alot
If you hit me up every call is gonna drop

treason ft. atlas

Lifeafterdeath