dawn

off of my tape 'samplechallenges vol​.​1' available for purchase on bandcamp

https://eu-iv.bandcamp.com/album/samplechallenges-vol-1

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samplechallenges vol​.​1

confusion

nota

Justin Bieber - Peaches ft. Daniel Caesar, Giveon (mtkn remix)
https://youtu.be/T5FpN1pld9s

Peaches

pop and unlock it ^-^
<3 eternal infinite love <3

rapport <3

Trust

Hoes (Instrumental)

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#Vocalchop
#Instrumental
#Beats
#rap

View.From.Above. (Prod. MadHops) instrumental .mp3

HEARTBREAK

a vibey ep for you <3
the last track for this ep! (:

I made this a few months ago and before uploading something happened to 'me' which resulted in having no desire to upload it.
It was spontaneous and peaceful and familiar yet fresh and brand new. I have experienced it before but not wholly to this extent where it encompassed the whole of my existence.
It felt like death and also life, it was an end and also a beginning. 
I disappeared. My mind was still. There is only clarity in this space, and peace and love and bliss, yet they are not different but one.
There is no separation. There is no suffering. I stopped doing things, there was just bliss in being. 
My body began doing many spontaneous things, things that make no sense to the conditioned intellectual mind which functions off the limited information it rationally can make sense of.
There was no 'me' as I've known myself to be. I have understood this intellectually for quite some time but only now it became my entire experience. I surrendered myself to the Self. There was no judgment, no limitation, no expectation, no projection, no fear, no doubt, no attachment and no things. All was and is unconditional. Unconditional love. Only truth and freedom.
As I began doing things it triggered mind to arise with definitions, labels, judgment and thus suffering arose. I began a process of being active without identifying, picking up the mind and entertaining thoughts without forgetting mySelf. Everything is a trigger which was slowly being unwound as I began being without doing.
Without realizing it I had forgotten my true nature and I was my mind again, I fell asleep again, became the little me again limited by a past and future, by memory and imagination, by trauma and fear, and a compulsive hyperactive mind that was a challenge to not entertain and identify with. It became intellectual again and barely experienced. The self was hiding underneath the waves of thought.
Then through slowing the mind, repeating some of the things I had witnessed happen while in that stateless state, I opened again, and fell asleep again, woke up again as god, fell asleep again as my mind, woke up as everyone and everything and nothing, then fell asleep as my ego and began suffering, forgave myself for falling and accepted it and then allowed myself to open. Back and fourth this has been happening, my whole life infact, in actual fact all our lives. This was only a new height I didn't know was a possibility. 
My ego attacks my own awakening, as yours does you and me, our collective ego are one and they think we are separate. They are the cause of suffering. I think its important this is included in the description of this ep, for you and me. 
These songs are for you and they are for me, 
from the source to the force. Yet from the force to the source.
From the Self to the self. Yet from the self to the Self.
From the mind to the heart, and from the heart to the mind.
buddha nature is within you if you allow yourself to let go and open up.
May all beings be free from suffering and may your mind be sweet.

much love

get it

Surrender

hello lovely people ! this is a tape of a handful of remixes / songs i wanted to push to completion, and for the first week that it is up, i'll be donating to a few charities based on how much y'all listen to help with coronavirus relief. Every 10 streams is a dollar, every 2 likes is a dollar, and every repost is a dollar. Let's get it bumpin !! ~ your cousin avi