short metal track to test out low G and F baritone tunings.

traumabond

Naenia Autem Catenas

September 20,  2023.  happy anniversary.

one of the very last songs completed during my trauma bond.  a journey which left me alone,  sick,  homeless,  broken,  betrayed,  and destitute by my friends and the person who was supposed to love and be there for me.
written between discards,  i was homeless and sleeping in a closet where and when i recorded this,  and my partner was elsewhere living well.

if ever completed this will be on my new album "trauma bond"  still being written.

the song itself was written on a martin acoustic,  and recorded using phones and mobile apps in my bed chamber.
by the time i wrote this i was already severely ill with PTSD,  cPTSD,  and extreme injuries all inter-related.  but somehow was able to capture the feeling in the beautiful stylings of flamenco and dark toned phyrgian scales.

something about hearing this always takes me back to the lonely and secluded closet where i slept,  wrote music,  and cried a 1000 tears.
while she was out there living her best life,  and i was living my worst waiting on all the promises she made.

sonate de mon amour tristesse

Living In A Trailer Blues

Sunblue

SHERI PRY - Just Take That (Kill Them 2018)

Personality Feb 23 2012 v1

go here to download track.

https://soundcloud.com/mtrx2010/promiscuous-mtrx-dubstep-2

Nelly Furtado - Promiscuous (MTRX Dubstep)

"grito" "corra le con migo!,  siempre con tigo!,  saludos amor!!!!!"
"run with me" "forever with you" "Salutations my Love!!!!"


"grito" "si no vas a correr,  cedar te con migo, yo te cuido. con bastante amor!! Saludos mi reina!!!!"
"if you're not gunna run, stay with me.  I'll take care of you with enough love!!  salutations my queen!!

ahora si, echa le nombre!!!!  saludos amanda! mi reina espartana!, durantes mi amor!! semos siempre durantes!!!!"
Now put a name on it!!!!  Saltuations amanda! my spartan queen! Enduring, my love! We are forever enduring!!!!"

MTRX - Saludos Mi Reina.

que fea la vida, me dio vos son risa y luego me lo quito, me dejo sin fe..
aun que dios te oige no creo que va cambiar la perspectiva que es inherante de mi posicion.
o sea que son palabras que dios nomas no oyó??
o son illusiones de mi obsesion??
 
hay estan las semias de mi amor.
entregados a ti.
y hay estan las semias de mi odio.
peligrosos hasta mas peores por ti.
 
coretes y llores buscando una salida de la vida, quen te puede oigir??
aun que dios te oige no creo que va a cambiar el corizon de nuestros enimgo....
la reyna de agaños con su sustento de dolor.
o sea que son palabras que dios nomas no oyó??
o son illusiones de mi obsesion??
 
hay estan las semias de mi amor.
entregados a ti.
y hay estan las semias de mi odio.
peligrosos hasta mas peores por ti.
 
nadie se acuerda de mi....
ni se acuerdan de ti....
 
coretes y llores buscando una salida de la vida, quen te puede oigir??
aun que dios te oige no creo que va a cambiar el corizon de....
 
NUESTROS ENIMIGO!!
 
hay estan las semias de mi amor.
entregados a ti.
y hay estan las semias de mi odio.
peligrosos hasta mas peores por ti.
 
nadie se acuerda de mi....
ni se acuerdan de ti....
 
no se acuerdan....
 
TRADUCCION / TRANSLATION / Literal
 
how ugly life is, it gave me your smile then took it away, it left me without faith.
even if God hears you i dont think its going to change the perspective that is inherant to my position.
or is it these are words God just didnt hear??
or are these illusions of my obcession??
 
there are the seeds of my love.
entrusted to you.
and there are the seeds of my hate.
poisonous for you, even worse for you.
 
you cut and you cry looking for a way out of life, who can hear you??
even if God hears you i dont think its going to change the heart of our common enemy....
the queen of lies with her sustenance of pain.
or is it that these are words that God just didnt hear??
or are these illusions of my obcession??
 
there are the seeds of my love.
entrusted to you.
and there are the seeds of my hate.
poisonous for you, even worse for you.
 
nobody remembers me..
nor do they remember you..
 
you cut and you cry looking for a way out of life, who can hear you??
even if God hears you i dont think its going to change the heart of....
 
OUR ENEMY!!
 
there are the seeds of my love.
entrusted to you.
and there are the seeds of my hate.
poisonous for you, even worse for you.
 
nobody remembers me..
nor do they remember you..
 
they dont remember.

MTRX - Semias - Remastered

MTRX - Solo Sin Ti

la lastima de mi vida
son las dias solo sin ti.
jamas podria amar asi.
mi corazon me proteja 
de dolor.
me tienais llorando por
amor.

when i am alone
i know i must
have grown too old
to rust and so cold.
ashes to dust
and we're left alone.
what's left behind
is my heart you stole.

cuando la luna esta enetera
entiera me muy lejos de aqui.
no puedo amar asi.
en el lugar donde nos conosimos.
aun que ayuda el dios de nuestros
amistad.

when you were alone
i know you must 
have grown so cold.
the trust you hold
becomes ashes and dust
and we're left alone.
what's left behind 
is this heart of stone.

verse translations

the sadness of my life
are the days without you.
i could never love like this(again).
my heart protects itself
from pain.
you have my crying for
love.

when the moon is full
bury me very far from here.
i can't love like that.
in the place where we met.
even if the god of our company/friendship
helps us.

MTRX - Solo Sin Ti

"Fell Down A Hole."

[verse]

she fell down a hole.
loses control.
and nothing sets her free.

she takes down a dose.
as pretty as a rose.
but nothing sets her free.

[chorus]
(----sets her free----)
laying down in a hole.
holding on
letting go.
drowning down in a hole.
if it's coming on
then let it go.
-x3-

[bridge/solo]

[chorus]
(----it sets her free----)
laying down in a hole.
holding on
letting go.
drowning down in a hole.
if it's coming on
then let it go.
-x3-

MTRX - Fell Down A Hole

Performing,  Writing,  Producing,  DJ'ing,  and Teaching for about 20YEARS now.  Music changes,  but the passion doesn't.
I do many genres,  rock,  metal,  industrial,  industrial-metal,  classical,  and Dubstep.  Most of my focus is on my Dubstep these days as the tools for writing it are much easier to use than my guitar.  Keyboards,  and mouse clicks go a long way when you can't use your hands.

update:  Doing a lot better since i fell off the cliff in 2011.  I shattered about 80% of my body,  and was told I'd never walk,  or play guitar again,  but the passed few years have shown a lot of improvement.

I wrote Fracturas with a broken hand held together with pins and rods,  so goes to show im moving up from my crippling injuries.  I can play guitar for maybe 2HOURS at a time,  but not everyday,  and not always for more than an hour,  or a few minutes.  Just depends on how my hands are feeling.

It's approaching spring 2015,  and that means it's time for more physical therapy,  so as i improve expect to see more tracks coming up.  I'm almost done with The Illiad.

The Illiad has now been split into a 2PART project.  the first hour will still be known as The Illiad,  but the second hour of the track is now called The oddyssey.  No particular reason.  I just wanted to change the sound quality up a little bit,  and take the mix in a new direction.

The Illiad was more about the drop,  but The Oddyssey will be more focused on epic melodies,  and bringing back some of that old reggae sound to the dubstep where it belongs.  I'll start sharing chapters from The Oddyssey as they're completed,  so you can check em out.  Much like I did with The Illiad.  no full mixes of The Illiad yet,  but expect it soon.  I'm ready to rap this up,  and go back to my guitar.  ;)

Check out my new FL Studio Skin Pack.
MTRX - FL Studio Skin Pack - (Includes Blackness and MTRX Pimp Skin)

http://www53.zippyshare.com/v/24076715/file.html

sonate de mon amour tristesse

MTRX

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