art by @bigdimp


lyrics:

i flashed an open-mouthed, closed-eyed grin
when i knew what i'd choose
melt the seal
i only want to boil over in the eggshell with you

i shed an evil, selfish tear
i'm safe inside the only thing i fear
soft fur keeps out the briars for a time
angel pretender i don't want to die

i hate the drugs
i want it all
i cant be yours
i want to

the light'll bleed through
coat our faces in a blush
and i don't know who i am
when i'm me removed from suffering
but i love the hum
the light'll bleed through
coat our faces in a blush
and i don't know who i am
when i'm me removed from suffering
but i love the hum of my cacophony filtered through you

smile! you're on death row

Letting people go, because sometimes you have to

@astrolives

Ease my weary mind
Sedated by your decline
Oh, drown my tired eyes
Thirsty for loss of light

Clay in my brain
Flower bed your bouquet
Mirror in the way
My own face or yours its all the same
When this wasteland falls
When this sky caves in
Hold onto my hands cold from the time we've spent
When my dreams collapse and my heart caves in
Staple pieces up from the shape I'm in
When my skin unwraps and my frame falls in
Suture my nerves up from the shape I'm in
Form the shape I'm in

(my) tired eyes + astrophysics [astrophysics + murrumur]

@Hexosphere

This awful place where angels break
The foulest dreams we set ablaze
Where is your shape?
Shiver in new ways
The saddest scenes
The wasted days

This awful place
This constant plague
We'll starve the shade
My light in chains

Every second's like a dream I'm entangled in
So I'm reaching, waiting for the end you softly said
If we were intertwined then you could read me at a glance
But it wasn't enough to kill half to become a twin
Never mind, never found the light
Time to overwrite
Thousand years ago, fused together like a kernalsprite
Never fine, never right, always fight or flight
Sick in body, sick in mind
One eye open with a knife
This pure decay has taken shape
I watch myself waste through my days
Where is my shape
Its fallen away
I watch myself waste through my days

This awful place
This constant plague
We'll starve the shade
My light in chains
My light in chains

PLAGUE [Hexosphere & Murrumur]

angel hospital (sewing up their skin)

I know you're frustrated
And you know i can't take this
Live prey just fated
Torn apart at the skin

Will it resonate
And reflect in your head when my voice starts to break
Watch me suffocate
Never mind what I said, just prepare to amputate it
Dug a shallow grave for the sleepwalker that you sent to sea
Slip and score their clay
They were always awake, you don't know anything, no
We kissed with an absent face
Deep water I'm disengaged
Every day's the same
Fuck your help I don't care you're well meaning
I'll blindly wait
While the bluest flames set my church ablaze
You'll have to carry that weight
Sedatives aside all your words are serrated

And i know you're frustrated
And you know i can't take this
Live prey just fated
Torn apart at the skin

Did I always mean just to end up this way
Just to be a machine
While my wires bleed
Prostrate to God, yeah I know I'm unclean
Never heard you sing
Your cadence is warm but my ears fell deaf
And you'll hold your breath
Secrets you'll compress to yourself to the end

lamb

I never ever wake up
Lips inverse
Don't speak the lingo
Since we're never taken care of
Poison angels swim with minnows
Guess i thought I'd only die once
Cyclic action change on impulse
Convulse while my blood just boils
Burn my fields and dry my soil

Guess there's one thing that doesn't change
I'll change and always feel the same
So i guess I'll tell the truth that I love myself and truly hate you
Guess there's one thing that doesn't change
I'll change and always feel the same
So i guess I'll tell the truth that I love myself and truly hate you

Well I'd always love to say what's gnawing at my corpse still walking
I was raised to stop my crying, shut my mouth and stick to fawning
Guess there's no point in mourning stolen past
Its just exhausting
For now I'll stick to longing
Never found sense of belonging

Its like an ache that doesn't fade
Stapling sutures to my fake face
Warped by focal points and agitated disappointment
Guess there's one thing that doesn't change
I'll change and always feel the same
So i guess I'll tell the truth that i love myself and truly hate you

When I feel my wings are growing choral psalms blossom around me
Shining and never showing demons cutting at my heartstrings
Every year i wait for winter
Mushroom clouds freeze onto concrete
I'll stare back through the mirror
apprehensive due to repeats

i can feel my wings growing!

@Ratjesu
Dedicated to Jules

I am falling rain
Evaporate my affirmations
Ever glitching animations
Never feel the same
Feigning like an imitation
Incubate the face for me to wear

Film negatives
Preview images
Obfuscate the differences
Filter all the blemishes
Mainline sedatives
Pressure crevices
Crashing into 2d space
Face the shape my pencil traced

Always hurts the same
Abstaining from new information
Flayed by roaming infohazards
Cel lines fade away
Surgery on paper dolls
The doctors call down hospital halls

Constrained by pen and paper
Transient like water vapor
Trapped in frames inside your pocket

turing test + rat jesu [murrumur + rat Jesu]

@zumtru
@xxkintsugi

Murrumur:
Wish you could stay in the view where i could see your face
The saddest days bring the greyest haze
A miasma of decay and isolation

But I'll remember you in august
When you broke all of your promises
Can't you just be honest and remember that you caused this
Like a rabbit in a top hat
You'll consume me like a product on a stage in your pockets
Just a profit to deposit in your bank

Zumtru:
I don't wanna be forgotten
I don't want to give you thanks
One more nail in my coffin
Lift me up cause i can't stand
Its all the same
Stitch me up and I'll be ok
Your friends will look at me a different way
Look in the mirror so you'll see me lost and isolated underground
And every moment I'll see your face
You lift me up in the worst of ways
Pretty soon you'll be lost and isolated underground

Murrumur & Zumtru:
I'll remember you in august
When you broke all of your promises
Can't you just be honest and remember that you caused this
Like a rabbit in a top hat
You'll consume me like a product on a stage in your pockets
Just a profit to deposit in your bank

When you love me is when I love me
Tear me into pieces til I'm lovely
Tell it to me bluntly
You can crush me
Reconstruct me
Reconstruct me

pincushion + zumtru [kintsugi & murrumur]

i love my wife guys

When you finish with severing my head sever my hands
Wasting moments desperately on sycophantic breath
Does it please you to be just like you?
And when you’re gone my tendencies are worthless to the core
Staring so blankly
Wouldn't notice if i sank right through the floors
And it happens again and again and again and again and again

Every hole in my clothes
Every hole in my skin
Drawing up a curtain
Whats a life? Never sure
Whats to be afraid of?
Not much to decay from
Plague will still portray us
Never fine, never pure
Could still go lower
Learning i can loathe your disruption to my boredom
Never thrive, never cured
Devoted to corroding every word I’ve spoken
Stew in what was stolen
Never mine, never yours

I'm not dead but it always feels like the same thing
Unraveled completely
I feel I'm not a lot like me
I wish i felt secure in being you
And be with you, just you

never mine, never yours

Moonlight

k-emo patchwork
creative director @dollhaven
@crashblossomsclique
Inquiries: murrumurcurrent@gmail.com
@scissorfoundry & @mousemallowpop

never mine, never yours

Murrumur

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