produced by: neptune kid
lyrics:
the seagulls, they chirpin,
yea, forgot the place it occured in,
maybe behind a curtain,  or maybe in person,
whatever the case is, one thing is certain,

like i fell for you, like the ground is my new friend,
like trying to depend solely on pretend,
concepts that ive made up,
like hope they grow up 
into words that people have spoken up,

like make a definition, slap it in the dictionary,
might call me visionary,
bro, hit my celly
like "yo, can you hop on this"
 promise this,
we bring only heat to the documents,

like monuments, we can see them from shore,
like dont restore the guy before,
the guy before me, like leave him in the past,
like now its only us, or so i wish, will never last.

if u want we can go to the beach

not ur friend (feat. kobayami) [prod. heydium]

i swear that i've written a hundred poems...

a hundred poems (feat. Sxge) [prod. H3 Music]

shoutout dysphoric, go check his stuff out

finally i drop a godlow song(i have like 10 in my drafts) its just a motivation thing

lyrics

mæsk
u see me now
dont feel me tho
coming back but feel im in a funeral
i got my hopes all up
coz now they talking down
its not the same
it never was
its just a different mouth

uh talk to me 
ill awfully pretend 
that i am honest but like honestly i’m lost inside my head
things better unsaid
exchanging words now what i dread
i use them all for beats i hear, no i dont do it for the bread

uh fuck it losing all my soul
losing all my consciousness
its seeping through my dome
things now coming back that never mattered to me before
thought i distanced my self from the past but now look at what we are

my brain is filled with memories and fucking battle scars
not giving shits now what i bleed 
ill fucking rip apart
every single person on earth who caused me hurting, i dont wanna hear ur version
ive been burden from the very fucking start

ooo now
this is what i do now
if you fucking knew me
would u still be around

me say mumbo jumbo 

dysphoric
i’ve felt it all from the very start like my heart been blocked and shattered into shards
everything they said to me it’s ripping me apart
like there’s a target on my back just focus on the mark
no way no sir i cannot keep my word
trying to choose my path my vision has been blurred
not a single word 
that you said 
to my face 
has been heard
try to find solutions they all seem to be absurd

what the difference between win and loss if it’s at a cost
how come when i take all these shots they just seem to get blocked
why am i reaching when there’s no one there to help me up
these visions fucking with me they come and go so abrupt-ly 

there only here to corrupt me
shocking how the realization struck me
i have a feeling that i must leave 
i must leave

ooo now this is what i doo now
if you fucking kneww me 
would you still bee around

if u knew ft. Dysphoric (Eric Godlow )

Lyrics:

Wake up
I’m feeling, I’m feeling, I’m feeling that gaze
Living and ripping away
Staring into your mind, I’m feeling the haze
I’m feeling, I’m feeling some flames
Tryna write them onto page
Taking every feeling from my heart
I’m tearing it out and onto a page
I’m feeling, I’m feeling some rage
Kinda mad that I cannot gauge 
Every single emotion that I get with you
Cause I know that the best ones always fade
I know the baggage can fade away
And I know that one day I’ll be truly okay
Just tryna find it in my heart
The flame that makes me fall apart
I’m falling, I’m falling apart
And I’m not sure I can do my part
And I’m doing my part to be all the things
That others want me to be
But I cannot help that I’m not perfect
And that’s just the fact of me
But I’ll hide little things from everyone
Hopefully that’s what’s best for me
I’m breaking down when I see your mind
And I’m, I’m feeling low whenever I take the time
On a very slow ride
While we take a look at lights
Look alive, we’re tryna find a way to make it through the 
Night
And I
Look at your brown eyes
And they are
In the middle of winter
But they remind me of summer
When I was warmer not a bummer
And I’m
Falling
Falling deeper within
I’m falling deeper in your mind
And I’m deeper in sin
I feel like I have been sinning every time I look at you with lust
Cause I know that no matter what I’m building up trust
In myself so I can know that I can hold myself up
I can’t rely on no one else to keep this mental state up
I’ll only ever feel happy for so long at one time
And then the hurt will come back in and it’ll take up all my time
Honestly I’d love to lay my head on you and fall asleep
But the pain will wake me up and I’ll just sit there all weak
Week by week I’m getting weaker and I’m weaker in the knees
Only so much time before they give out and I’ll find issues in me
But I see perfection in you when I stare into your eyes
The brown haze of summer flames, a calming coolness in disguise
Yeah, your brown eyes in winter
But they remind me of summer

Your Brown Eyes in Winter (Prod. jxsie beats)

Lyrics:

I’m alone when I see the stars
Watch the moon while it gets dark

Watch the moon
Finally wasting time
Get away from everything
And spend all our time
Gazing up at the stars
Into the emptiness of space
Far away from all our problems
As the moon shines on your face
Reflecting the sun
The brightest light in our sight
But by my own standards,
You’re the light of my life
And I can feel the soul between us
So deep in my soul
Nothing to care about
While we grow old
And as my veins turn purple
And they start showing through
As my body becomes frail
I’ll still stand by you
As tall as you need
If it’s under 6 feet
Cause the only time I’ll reach it
Is when I’m that deep
Dig my feet into the sand
On the brightest of days
And we’ll have a little man
And we both watch him play
I look deeper in your eyes
While they glimmer in the sun
I see the ring on your finger
Remember that you’re always mine hun

I’m alone when I see the stars
But I will love you when things get hard

I promise that when I wake up,
Love’s the choice I make
Cause I know feelings are hard to keep up
When one day they fade
One day it becomes an
Active decision
And every day I envision 
A future not so far away
And I can promise that it’s bright
If you’re by my side
Don’t know what I’d do without you
You’re my ride or die
And we can take it any speed
Cause you’re loves all that I need
And we can fall asleep
On top of the hillside
With a blanket on the ground
And the stars in the sky
Let the moon shine on your face
And I’ll say that word you like
Home is where the heart is
I’m glad that I gave you mine
Forever and always, darling
My love is so divine
Stare up at the moon
And say “tsuki ga kirei”
I will love you unto death
Every second everyday
Give you a kiss say I love you
I’m so glad I’m not alone
After years of searching
With you I’m finally home0

Not alone when I see the stars
I love you, our forever now starts

Watch the Moon (Prod. jxsie beats)

after 2 months, i finally get to release this!
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This is a project that i made to convince myself that i will be okay, and that there are people in my life that care and those who won't, and thats just something i'll have to deal with.
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Thank you to Jxsie Beats for exclusively making these beats for me, and to Dysphoric, Sxge, and Lxst Boy for the amazing features.
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Credit to MilianDK for the cover art<3
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hope yall enjoy<3

cafe w/ jxsie beats

october (prod. chill denis)

(futoh)
ruler of my palace,
but slave to my malice,
better call me morales,
cause miles reflect my balance,

could’ve broke along the way, 
but you know I’m not that guy,
when I look up to the sky,
I see it becoming basic,
like no longer see the birds flying like they are racing,
only see a couple leaves, giving gloomy sensations,
backtracking my publications,
destruction of my foundations,
and of the next generations,
whos limitations,
have been exceeded to the most extent,
give me a tent,
and a couple matches to burn the scratches
left by the masses,
whos honors been left in patches,
the ashes of all their branches,
have been thrown out to sea, 
poseidon creating gashes,

better turn around and look the other way,
before you’re slain,
better call me akame,
cause i'm bringing hefty pain,
and lots of rain, to entertain,
being the bane of others has left me going insane,
twisted knots inside my brain, and now i'm to blame,
that's funny, cause you were never the type to go complain,
and play with others hearts, oh wait, it's all a game,
hiding behind a mask and hiding all your remains,

and i'm the seeker, and getting eager,
i'm burning weaker, keeping low profile,
like i'm the reaper, and youre a heavy sleeper,
my claws will sink in deeper,
youre so much cheaper this way,
ay, ay,
you're the prey of the day

top of the food chain,
this world is my domain,
bringing rugged terrain,
and sugar canes,
what kinda fool thinks he can survive playing my game?
like the pawns in chess, you're a life i have to take (uhh)



(giovanni)
i got pain deep inside my brain
shit that’s just a headache
popped in the scene, i'm a king
better wake way 
poseidon couldn’t even comprehend 
the way i make waves i got ya girl on me playing with my toy: play date 

yeah i’m off it uh 
do not even step to me 
murder beats so well, this shit is looking like the redder sea 
just let me, subconsciously 
i write better bars than you, in my sleep try to talk shit, 
but i curve it like the letter c 

i’ll make it uh 
i know i’m the greatest uh 
no i am not narcissistic, i just wanna be famous uh 

my time is important uh 
you so sound so contorted uh 
choking over bars you really need to get it sorted uh

if you know i’m next up, better raise glass yeah 
if you know i’m next, for the people in back yeah 
people talkin shit, yeah it’s really so sad 
i’m the greatest out the underground, the rest of y’all is rats

KING w/ Giovanni

she told me i was cold,
like ice,
and frozen in the snow,
i don't know what to do anymore,
should i let her go, or kill me some more?
its venom and poison, I'm not keeping score,
how much times I've been broken down,
and how many faces I've hung on my wall,
maybe one day she will like what she sees,
instead of fake smiling and showing her teeth,
why do this to me,
can you just let me be?
a phantom wandering the streets,
alone as can be,
not checking his phone,
wishing that someone would just give him more,
but people are cruel, and they choose to ignore,
the ones who don't know what to do anymore

if u want we can go to the beach

mystxc

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