I guess I keep telling myself that. “Don’t worry, baby.” I don’t think it’s possible for my heart to race any faster than it already does. I think I’ve hit an ATL, all time low, not Atlanta. (Haha).

Yeah, music sounds like shit. All my favorite songs make me sick, and every new song I hear somehow makes me cry. I’m ready for the year to be over, but even after that, life will continue to go on. It sounds so miserable. I’m not crying out for help. (I am).

Enjoy my cover of “Don’t Worry, Baby,” by the Beach Boys. Have a splendid 2026 and may you feel so much better than I ever have.

Peace, love, and Jesus. Thank you for listening. I see you, I hear you, I miss & love you.

Don’t Worry, Baby

would it really kill you if we kissed

day go by

made w love




:^)
hey petal, have you heard the news
i just died so you wouldn’t want to
hey petal, do you know
your eyes need more sleep your skin looks like snow

petal won’t you work with me
you’re making it difficult and slow like honey
petal just please let go
of everything and go to your funeral

lilac in my skin and in my shoes
we’re dying today
lilac in my skin and in my shoes
we’re going away
and we don’t see you anymore
you lost your chance, petal

dear god, why am i this way
i want to sleep the best each night and through each day
dear god, can you go away
i’m trying to help myself you keep getting in the way

petal don’t you back out now
we went through so much
petal don’t you shut yourself down
i’m starting to need you now

lilac in my skin and in my shoes
we’re dying today
lilac in my skin and in my shoes
we’re going away
and we don’t see you anymore
you lost your chance, petal
you don’t deserve it anymore
you lost your chance, petal
you’re the lilac death

lilac

welp.

i like me best 
when my heads 
on your shoulder
7:15 i stayed up 
thinking about 
you and i fall in love all over again

your shirt smells like sand 
and the sky above you 
i always wonder why your sun 
looks like my moon
you told me something 
and i’ll never recover

three small words
taken for granted 
don’t make it worse

three small words 
i want you close
and you know that hurts 

i want to know
did you finish that song 
or did you throw it away
i’m going insane 
and like i always said
you’re going to be the death of me

everywhere i go 
everything i do 
everyone i see
it’s written all over with you 
i have no clue what’s wrong with me 
sorry if i’m being rude

three small words
taken for granted 
don’t make it worse

three small words 
i want you close
and you know that hurts 

(instrumental)

three cursed words
taken for granted 
don’t make it worse

three cursed words 
i want you close
and you know that it hurts

Three Small Words

New Years Kiss (CFTPA Cover)

:^)

honey drips out of your mouth and the sun goes down on the two of us
your dad should look at us now he hasn’t ever bothered to give you much
who knows why anything matters anymore except you
i’m not afraid of love anymore well i think its u
i think its u


cause you’re my little blue moon
wake up and i want u to be sleeping next to me
cover you in flowers wait a couple hours
dandelion you’re so pretty

muddy water in ur dirty shoes
calderas swimming through
soon i’ll try to rescue you from this fuckery
one day i’ll give you
everything i want to
i apologize whole heartedly
for just now seeing how much you mean to me

honey drips out of your mouth and the sun goes down on the two of us
your dad should look at us now he hasn’t ever bothered to give you much
who knows why anything matters anymore except you
i’m not afraid of love anymore i think its u
i think its u

oh god i guess its u
all the things i do are just for u
its u for u for u
and i’ve known its been u

cause you’re my little blue moon
wake up and i want u to be sleeping next to me
cover you in flowers wait a couple hours
you’re so pretty

i’m not afraid of love anymore i think its u
doo doo doo do do do do doo doo
i think its u
doo doo doo do do do do doo doo

it's u

Parking Spaces

I've built a wall around me, a row of drying trees and the front porch chair 
no one else was there 

You felt like patience to me, sipping on chai tea and the blue breeze 
you said you would be there 

And there is so much healing to be done 
but so much strength to come 
of this 

Uncertainty surrounds me , since I loved you when my guard was down 
I brought me down 

I get nervous in a crowd, since I don't know who I am now 
the moon was golden brown and 
you couldn't wait for me 
to get better 

There is so much healing to be done 
but so much strength to come 
of this

chai tea season

i wouldnt have been able to do this if it wasnt for alfie and his amazing production skills. that's him on guitar, bass, and drums he's so dope go listen to him <4


you walk so fast on a saturday
always thought that you been runnin from the thoughts that been runnin in your head
how come you’re looking so hard for an alibi that went wrong on a sunday
you ask me what’s wrong not much but our smalltalk’s pretty much the same
and somethin you can’t explain is taking complete hold of your brain
mismatched words and inverse feelings of identity change

can’t you come over for a drink just once
we’ll talk about more than where my mom shops or how your dad wants a divorce
cause i got so much deep shit that’s been heavy on my mind, do you too
is that new

flesh is safer stitched than raw
that’s why you never strayed far
from the clean edged sidewalk it always promised
a softer end than the barbed wire fence
but i always ran cause i thought an end
to the septic cycle lay somewhere ahead
and i’m numb to the feeling
cause pain has been weening me off the joy that came as a naive boy

it's u

nep