A YEAR AGO

V - I’m overwhelmed it’s, hard to explain I think I’m sick/
I need sum help wit, all of my tendencies many negative habits/
Like methamphetamines & heroin, xanax/ Yes I’m an addict/

Chasing the perfect high, I’ve tried everything ta feel nothing/
I’m in ma chest tonight & I bet if u can relate u a junkie/
Started wit facin blunts, I was tryna drown out all of my problems/
To be honest really Imma monster, but I don’t stay inna closet/

Went to the joint as a child, I touched down February/
I needa shout em out, this for my guys who still in it/
My heart is witchu now, I can’t wait till u out here wit me/
Told me ta slide to the City, Vi La Vi till they kill me/

It’s me versus myself, cuz I don’t see no better opponent/
I’m Cash Money Middleton like I be playing small forward/
Won’t catch me at the mall, I’m in this bitch still recordin/
I won’t ignore what I’m posed ta do, no hoe in my priorities/

Onna mission dawg, could call me Salvation Army/
I had dem bricks on board, & a couple bruddas wit shotties/
I gotta hit the sto, & drop a couple xans in a Faygo/
Not supposed to don’t tell my PO okay bro ?/

We got what dey want, & I ain’t never been on Tik Tok/
Smokin marijuan, prolly rock like 3 or 4 wrist watch/
Want an Audemar, but right now this Armani is fine/
My wife so solid thank God, she down ta ride for the cause/

Remember on the yard, had ta learn ta practice my patience/
Errybody swear they hard, but all they be doin is arguin like bitches/
Few years behind dem bars, spent most my time contemplating/
I’ll make waves when I’m able, no longer chained to my failures/ 

Not On This Earth Long don’t waste it, told her plz take my name/
I was jus incarcerated, who woulda thought I’d be married/
I’m saying “pinch me” it’s crazy feel like yesterday pinching bags/
Praying Lord shine your face on my family when it rains”/

No hook, prolly what I’m best at/
I’m talkin no look, hit chu witta crossover step back/
Y’ll trust in Facebook, that’s why I wonder where yo head at/
Man I ain’t saying I’m any better, my God is King I been trying tell you/

I can’t stand ignorant judgmental Bible thumpin ass fakers/
Need super raw, honest, loyal people not tryna change me/
He been there all along, I’m talkin about your Creator fool/
No mistakes He don’t em make em dude,
look my debt has been paid in full/

You don’t kno whatchu got, until it’s taken away from u/
Mistakes ? I’ve made quite a few, my son prolly hate me too/
Said change was impossible, but look what my God can do/
Tried everything else now what could u possibly got ta lose ?/

Born for addiction jus hoped one day I could kick it too/
Life always felt like playing myself in peekaboo/
All I knew were the drugs I used, & the freedom dey made me lose/
Been remade & renewed, He yearns ta take your pain too/

A Year Ago

NOTEL Dolor