Dear glass, my piece of ass, for like the last 5 years
We had our laughs, & rough patches but without you it gets hard to feel
Last chance, relapse, why u gotta go reinvent the wheel
Don’t gotta act overdramatic, it’s not that drastic from what I hear

where to begin, what should I mention, she’s changed me so much
my vein where she likes to swim, & I tend to give her what she wants
Many would say she’s my weakness, that I’m in denial cuz I’m lost
Been way too long since I put distance between myself & meth rocks

None the less I stand here on front lines to battle my heart
My tendency ain’t been abstinence so now’s a good time to start
Amphetamines come right back again how you gon defend your house
I second guess then it drags me in all it needs is your doubt

I’m well aware if I don’t quit I’mma lose all I adore
More felony charges they pending but soon be settled in court
Member each time I entrusted you to help me not feel remorse
Of course you say ‘just one more,’
you’ve never held me so close

The likelihood I be able to kick it, once & for all remains low
Gotta fight the urge man I’m itchin, the only way that I cope
Ain’t got no fuckin experience, my biggest fear is dyin alone 
My mind like the eye of the storm, I decide if it’s violent or calm

Yeah that’s some power to hold, to change the direction I’m going
Might just allow myself to go give a shot at actually being sober
Not a single drug in my system, for me it’d be a lot you don’t know me
If I could possibly go one day without bangin rocks to feel normal

All I want is to be okay, but I can’t process my emotions
Yeah I’m awful, I talk myself into tossing out my morals
Once you start you can’t stop please God make me strong when I’m broken
Because up till now my problems haven’t caused no commotion

Up till now nobody cared that I might feel lonely
They say if you trust in the process you’ll end up where you are posed to
But the drugs, still they call & part of me wants to go do some
That part doesn’t go away so control becomes crucial 

Can’t be neutral, gotta choose, so again I’m comin off the meth
It seems like each time I choose to, I jus wanna be dead
You will connect, no Bluetooth, it comes from under your chest 
All your regret you’ve been used to, you can learn to forget

I concluded when I thought it would be best if I died
Rock bottom has a basement with plenty of space to reside
I am only a human, I’ve made mistakes my whole life
Once you can love you for you the last thing you’ll do is get high 

Now I wake up first thing I do is look my wife in the eyes
I mostly avoid mirrors, been hard to build trust with that guy 
Do you remember that one night, you shot that guy & he died
Never told no one about it, till the nightmares wouldn’t stop
 
I think expectations make us mostly sad & depressed
Don’t expect nothin from no one and you won’t ever be sad
Trust me I learned this the hard way jus tryna save you the sweat
One day you might even thank me & save somebody from death

‘I’m proud of you,’ he said, damn I must be dreaming again
I would kill for my father to know that I’ve tried my best
Kept it real even after all that I loved she up & left 
I never squealed on nobody cuz I know how that shit ends

Someone who you called your brother is who informed the police
Confidential informant I hope you know what this means
Swear on the soul of my mother you gon wish you didn’t speak
When it’s over the only thing left of your corpse is your teeth
From the pigs

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