tmr + euph (prod. alanfor)

try to be happy
honestly i'm even doing it now,
mom are you proud of me?
what the world could to your child...
i aint been balancing, i been falling down for a while,
try to be happy?
haven't done that shit while,
mom are you mad me?
supposed to be the man of the house,
but i don't wanna be, 
born to walk around w denial,
because im honestly, forced to walk around w a smile,
im in and out of, 
mom and dad prolly hating me now,
and i dont know, what im doing rn, is this a story or a show? 
i bet its putrid and foul at least,
thats what happened to me on that winter day last year, and there aint a soul that i told about how it get so weird,
and i dont know, what im doing rn,
is this a story or a show?
well, (well)
i dont know,
yeah, (yeah)

id do anything to get to where i was last year, and there aint a soul that i done told about, all my fears/
and i aint all about,
all the shit u said last year,
tf you talking bout?
i suicided im still here.

well do i gotta be?
theres someone else inside of me, i think..
at least i think so, yeah
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try to be happy
honestly i'm even doing it now,
mom are you proud of me?
what the world could to a child...
i aint been balancing, i been falling down for a while,
try to be happy?
haven't done that shit while,
mom are you mad me?
supposed to be the man of the house,
but i don't wanna be...

do i gotta be?

try to be happy (prod. austin friel)

i wanna fight for your attention again,
i aint been as clever w the shit that im writing,
cause now i only write to get shit out of my head,
im sorry to my mom and dad i know that you didnt like it,
"cause why this child always in and out of their head?"
"the second that you was born, we were stuck in a crisis"
i feel like im the reason mom and dad are depressed,
if they could see who i could be, i dont think that they'd like me,
but they always figured i was the best,
its gotta be that im the problem i wish i was a lightbeam,
and i wish i was everything you wanted, at best
im just a burden that makes it so,
you'll never sight see,
hey, its maybe just a part of the quest,
no disrespect,
i hate my name, i know that it was my grandpa's
i really wanna change it, but im scared of the rest,
i fear my father will remember that, i was bad son.

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i wanna fight for your attention again
i wanna fight for your attention again, yeah

and i dont what i should say to you, 
and i dont what i should say to you, 
i wish that was but i wasnt able to, i wasnt capable,
and as a family who we praying to? for real,
and as an animal society's got me living life in fear.
im always faded i dont know if i could live another year, i know that life is just amnesia i aint nothing like whats here,
its kinda weird i feel defeated though.

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i wanna fight for your attention again,
i aint been as clever w the shit that im writing,
cause now i only write to get shit out of my head,
im sorry to my mom and dad i know that you didnt like it,
"cause why this child always in and out of their head?"
"the second that you was born, we were stuck in a crisis"
i feel like im the reason mom and dad are depressed,
if they could see who i could be, i dont think that they'd like me,
but they always figured i was the best,
its gotta be that im the problem i wish i was a lightbeam,
and i wish i was everything you wanted, at best
im just a burden that makes it so,
you'll never sight see,
hey, its maybe just a part of the quest,
no disrespect,
i hate my name, i know that it was my grandpa's
i really wanna change it, but im scared of the rest,
i fear my father will remember that, i was bad son.

beloved son (prod. bardo)

im off hi off the shrooms 
i was chillin w my boo
niggas on my phone 
y won’t dey leave me alone
i b steady smokin straight gas to the dome 
i be smoking dope ye dese niggas don’t kno
chillin w my bro im w joanis dats my bro
im w cj dats my bro fw us nd u get smoked
i don fw nun of yall u niggas b sum jokes
niggas b some clones ye yall moving like hos 
talking on my name nigga wtf u want
put an eighth in a blunt put an eighth in anotha

smoke good w my bros
ye i smoke good w my brothers
smoke good w shawty
ye i smoke good w my lova
smoking on da woods
ye bitch im feeling good
i b doing shit that dese niggas wish they could
bitch it’s off da dome i ain’t eva wrote a word
and u kno im getting dough bs u kno i go to work
i b sippin water i b playin in the dirt
i b doing shit that dese niggas never heard of
connected wit the earf
connected wit my spirit
dese niggas wanna feel it
dese niggas dey don’t hear me
fuck one in a million
bs im one eight billion
they wan live how im living
dese niggas dey b wishing
boy mind yo own business
boy get up off that bullshit

if the shoe fit den bitch u mfn kno it
bitch u mfn know it
if the shoe fit and bitch u mfn kno it
put it on
if the shoe den bitch put it on
told em kick rocks
nigga on my phone talking shit he blocked
i ain’t eva gave a fuck what anybody thought
i live how i love to and i do what i want

bitch im feeling good
i was on the shrooms taking walks thru the woods
now im in my room im recording all dese words
and u hear the                in my voice u can hear it
and i know u feel it
and i know u hear it
yeah im nothing at all
and im everything that ever was
if the glass full or empty ion gaf
i don’t think it make a difference much

living [london]

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cunt
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#jerk #plug #xaviersobassed #slung #sigilkore #donkeykong #trill

newsflashwiseguy

I’m trying

this is an ep i made during an era in my life that has recently passed.
i have a full length mixtape called "500 days of summer" coming out in about a month from now.
i hope you like it.
thank you.

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