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@ruddaz ⠀ + ⠀@gasoiid ⠀ + ⠀@coast2coast
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gasoiid - a journey home ミ★

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hi. its been so long that idk what to really say here.  

this song means a lot to me because ive been on a journey myself of trying to find my way back home. my way back to myself. finding myself. or rather, returning to myself. 

this account has been with me through so much, and it’s really incredible to see just how far these silly edits have taken me over the course of these years. i realize now that even when i felt completely and utterly lost and alone, god was aligning my steps and cleaning up the road ahead of me. 

its felt really good to dive into the idea of god, and who he is to me. after having been a vehement atheist my whole life, to really have my entire worldview, mind, and perception be changed so much in such a short amount of time has been a mind boggling change for me to experience. 

a journey of truth is never an easy one, but i’ve really felt like ive found the missing piece to my life in him. 

and im happy :)

im happy because i no longer feel defeated everytime I open my eyes, i no longer feel the weight of comparison crushing my spirit whenever i look at my friends and my peers living their truths and making their dreams come true. 

i may not be the best, but thats okay for me, because i’m no longer ashamed to be me. and im returning to who that “me” really is, and it feels good. 

of course there are a lot of growing pains, but ive done so many things in this past year that i never would have ever thought possible for me just 2-4 years ago. 

i played my first international show in berlin (big ty to @candyflip030!) and rn as of writing this im slated to go to las vegas to perform my first domestic show with @purityleech and the roflcopter crew [6.28.2025!!!! so end of this month]

that inner critic inside of me still talks but im learning how to no longer listen to him. im learning what it means to believe in a vision and truly have faith. im learning what it means to surrender. im learning how to take the good with the bad, and find the good IN the bad. 

at the beginning of this year my entire life was turned upside down, i lost my friends, my bf, and pretty much my entire life. and i spent the end of last year living in fear and trying to claw on a door that god had closed for me. but now 6 months into 2025 im actually happier than ive been in a long time. and yes my new life is not easy, god is instilling in me the virtue of responsibility, but it is good. 

and i want to continue growing. I still battle with fear on a daily basis. I still have major anxieties and insecurities. and I still feel so unworthy of any kind of success that whenever I get any sliver of it I have the urge to self sabotage.... but im learning how to OVERCOME. 

i want to continue becoming the true version of me, the me that i never knew i could be. i know it’s in there, and i know i will find him, i just have to keep going, and i need to have faith. and i know that there are things that i want that i may not ever get, but im learning how to become okay with that. 

im finally thankful for this life of mine. and i can’t believe that it’s taken me this long to start living. yes i may be a late bloomer, but im glad to be blooming now nonetheless. this is just the beginning…. this is just the beginning  ⠀ ⠀ ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚


- g.   =)   <3

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og: https://www.beatport.com/track/home-feat-discovery/10730012

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believe a bit more

A̶m̶ ̵I̵ ̵
̵W̶a̸s̷t̴i̸n̵g̷ ̸t̶i̷m̴e̶ ̷
̶W̶i̴t̴h̶ ̷y̷o̷u̴ ̶t̵o̶n̶i̸g̴h̸t̷ ̵
̸
̴A̴m̶ ̶I̷ ̶w̴a̷s̷t̵i̷n̴g̴ ̵t̵i̵m̷e̶ ̸
̷B̵e̷i̵n̴g̴ ̴h̶e̶r̵e̸ ̶t̵o̸n̷i̷g̴h̶t̶?̴ ̸
̴A̶m̷ ̴I̶ ̵o̶n̷ ̵y̸o̴u̵r̵ ̴m̸i̸n̷d̶ ̷
̴A̵r̵e̶ ̷y̶o̵u̷ ̶j̸u̵s̴t̴ ̶p̵a̶s̷s̶i̸n̷g̵ ̸t̵i̶m̷e̸?̵
̸A̶m̴ ̴I̵ ̷o̷n̶ ̴y̴o̵u̸r̷ ̶m̴i̶n̵d̸ ̵
̴W̶h̷e̶n̵ ̷y̷o̵u̶ ̴c̸l̸o̸s̶e̶ ̴y̴o̷u̵r̷ ̶e̵y̵e̷s̶?̴
̵D̶o̴ ̶I̸ ̶c̸r̵o̷s̸s̴ ̴y̸o̸u̶r̵ ̸m̷i̶n̵d̷ ̷
̵W̶e̸r̴e̶ ̸y̴o̵u̴ ̶j̵u̶s̷t̵ ̶p̴a̷s̷s̷i̸n̷g̴ ̸t̶i̸m̴e̸ ̶
̵
̸W̶h̴a̵t̸ ̸a̸r̶e̸ ̴y̷o̸u̴ ̴h̷o̵l̴d̴ ̴
̵W̴h̵a̸t̸ ̴a̶r̷e̶ ̷y̴o̸u̴ ̵h̷o̴l̷d̸i̷n̴g̶ ̵o̸n̸t̵o̶ ̸
̵
̴U̸ ̸P̶u̸l̵l̵ ̴m̸e̴ ̴i̵n̵ ̸
̶A̸n̸d̸ ̴I̵’̶l̷l̵ ̶f̷o̵r̸g̷e̵t̸ ̵
̷S̷a̸y̵ ̸i̸t̸ ̶w̷i̴t̶h̶ ̸y̶o̵u̴r̷ ̸c̴h̵e̵s̷t̷ ̴
̵D̶o̵n̴’̴t̸ ̸l̶e̷a̶v̵e̴ ̶w̸i̵t̸h̷ ̷r̷e̸g̸r̸e̶t̶ ̸
̸A̴m̶ ̷I̶ ̴f̴o̷o̵l̸ ̶a̴g̸a̴i̸n̷ ̶
̴F̶o̸r̶ ̴F̵o̶r̵c̸i̷n̷g̴ ̷t̸h̸i̴s̸?̸
̴I̸ ̴s̵a̶i̷d̵ ̴i̷t̸ ̷w̴i̴t̶h̶ ̴m̴y̴ ̸c̵h̷e̴s̵t̴ ̶
̵D̵o̸n̷’̵t̶ ̷l̸e̷a̵v̵e̷ ̶w̸i̵t̴h̴ ̶r̴e̸g̶r̶e̶t̵ ̴
̸
̶A̸m̶ ̴I̵ ̶w̴a̵s̵t̴i̴n̴g̵ ̸t̷i̴m̸e̸ ̷
̴B̵e̶i̴n̷g̷ ̴h̶e̸r̷e̴ ̶t̴o̴n̵i̵g̶h̴t̵?̴ ̵
̴A̶m̴ ̴I̸ ̷o̵n̷ ̵y̶o̶u̷r̵ ̶m̸i̶n̸d̶ ̷
̷A̷r̶e̴ ̸y̷o̶u̵ ̶j̴u̶s̶t̵ ̴p̶a̷s̵s̵i̸n̴g̴ ̸t̶i̷m̶e̸?̴
̶A̸m̴ ̵I̸ ̶o̵n̵ ̷y̸o̷u̶r̴ ̴m̷i̵n̸d̵ ̵
̵W̷h̶e̶n̸ ̷y̷o̷u̴ ̸c̸l̸o̶s̸e̸ ̵y̵o̴u̶r̶ ̴e̵y̵e̸s̸?̵
̷D̷o̶ ̶I̶ ̴c̵r̷o̴s̴s̶ ̵y̴o̵u̶r̴ ̶m̸i̷n̵d̴ ̴
̶W̷e̵r̷e̴ ̵y̷o̵u̵ ̴j̴u̶s̶t̴ ̸p̶a̶s̵s̸i̴n̸g̴ ̴t̶i̶m̸e̴ ̷?

Mastered by Morgan Wright

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am i wasting time? (◕︿◕✿)♡

hypertrance esque mix ........ fast(ish) trance, some hard trance, happy hardcore and other surprises......... ? TL soon x

BEDROOM TRANCE 1: hypertrance

Take Me Out

HELP!! for the deep feelers 
& chronic over thinkers 
G̴̢̨̢̡̧̡̡̛͖͈̙̖̺͈̲͍͈͎̣̹̪̟̬̰̭͕͚̗̟̺̝̝͕͖̲̪̹͖̯̬͙̗̥̦͚̮̜̗̯̖͑̾̎͛̃̾̊́̎́͐̉̋͑͗̈͘͜͝Ȩ̷͕̦̙̬̼̜͓̝̯̯̗̭͖̪̬̰͈͓̱̘̜̪̘̭̱̞̜̦͒͂̄͋̊͛̎́̓̑̾̂̌̈́͗̆̀̉̏̓̈̏̓͐͋̎͌̂̍͘̚̚͝͝ͅT̵̨̙͔̦̤͚̄͗̉̉͗ ̸̢̢̧̰̦͕̖̞͕͇͉̗̞̭̠̠͉̥͙͇̞̳̯͇͕͔̟̒͊̃̈́̐̆̈́́̊̕ͅͅM̵̨̧̡̡̛͎̥̟͙̳͚̤̫̝̹͎̟̫̫͓̙͖̺͈̙̞͓͍͚͎̽̑̽͐ͅE̴̡̨̠̦͎͎̲̙̱͉͎̯͉̖̱̹̮̹̞͇͓̘̘̬̦͍͇̜͇̝̦͖̲̤̳͚̒̉́͑̎͒̈́̓̚ͅͅ ̵̢̛͚̤̳̬̮̇̉͊̐́̓̊̂̾̿̀̅́̀͒͋̋̉̒͋͊̑̀͂̌́̇̈́́͊̇̎͛̏̇͛̂̀̿͛̔̕͝͠͝͠͝ͅͅÓ̴̧̤͕̯̥͈͙̩̠͍̦̝̞͔̟̠̹͔̺͓͉̫̳͖̹̗̊̓̉̋̌̋̽̿̂̓̇̒̇͘̕͜͠U̵̧̢̢̠̱̖͖̲͇̹̦͍̺̙̝̝̤̯̰͔̝̠͈̬̭̯̺̲̳͉̥̗͈͚̫͛̆̈́̅̚͜͝ͅT̵͔̦̹̙̼͍̰̥̜̺́̌̓̃͂͊̂̈́͊̐̽͗̔͌͋͗̎͊̂͗̋͑̉͒͋̆̾̎͘͘̚͝͠͝ ̸̡͙͉͙̥̜̣͓̹̘͎̰͖̗͖͍͈̺̪́̿̑͜͜Ô̷̩̘͎͍̪̞͕̟͔̙̰̻̯͍͎̭͇͉̙͛̽͑̂̓̄͗̍̔̂͂̍̐͒̿͌̾́̾͜F̶̛̛͖̤̼̭̮̩̗̯̭̔̍̇̈̆̒̈́͋͂͆́̊͐̍̒͒̒͆́̒̌̈́̀̃͊̋̄̕͝ ̴̨̥̖̬̤̝͈̺̰̖̳͖͇̭͙̦͈͍̹̞̗̘̗̼̝̺̦͔̒̚͠M̴̢̨̢͇̫͙̗̮̳̖͇̫̦̰̻̗̩͖͔̟̬̼̖̻͖̣̾̈́́͐͑͑̔̒͒̆͂̈͂̿̀̆́̓͗̓͒͛̓̔͆̀̔̌̆̕̚͜͝͝͝ͅY̷̧̧̡̛͙̮̫͕̭̥̫͕̪̱̯̱̫̥̱̣̜̱͍̮̽̀̈́̈͌̍̌̄̉̍̓͌̓́̂̽̓́̉̀̉̀͊̀̂͋͂͂̔̆̊̇̆̂̔̔͋̎͒̕̚̚̕͝͠͠͠ͅ ̷̧̧̧̧̛̝̠̠͔̭͖̰̯̼̫̮̗̹̻̖͎̘̺̝̟͖̙͚̯̹̣͍̯̼͈̤̮̣̏̋̔́̕ͅB̷̨̩̼͈̹͓̻̰̖͔̹̙͕̬̘͕̗͙̝̦̩̤̟̹͈͓̭̤̂̆̄̒̉̿́̋̈́͂̅̀̓̉͆̍̀͛̏̋̑͆́͐̀̓̂͊̈̄́̔͊̈́̕̕͠R̷̡̛͙͉̯̲̜̳̯͕͖͚͎͈̹̜͍̣̺͇͈̘͇͙̖̲̙͋̓͒̌͗̐͂̓͂͆̀̅̈̌̍͒̋̓̈́̎͊̇̈̓̓̋́̂̌̔̌͂̓͐̾̀́̑̚̚̚͘͜͠͠͠͝͝A̸͇̻͖̻̰̺̽̎Ì̷̧̡̛̝̹͚̦̬̦̟͖̄̄͂͐͐͒͂͐̾̽̿̏̚̕̚͜͝͠͝N̷̡̨͈̝̙͍̘̝̯͓͚̥̟̎͒͗͛̅́̔̋͆̈̀̌̐͂͆̈́̅́̀̾̎͗͐̎̔̋͛̇̆̂̀̔͐͂̈̈́̕͜͝











LYRICS:
iiiiiii've got only myself to blame 
(Watching myself run away watching myself run away) 
And Iiiiii am faced with my need to escape....
Not again... (HEY)

Apathy in spite of me 
A broken record stuck on replay (Broken record on replay)
I’m hiding all these parts of me 
But I still feel you pulling away 
Ah well I wanted to change (hey)

I wouldn’t call this love 
You break me to build me up
I wouldn't call this love 
I'm fAAaaaaaaa-------

Get me out my brain 
And I don’t like what she’s saying 
(uh) Keep pressing to be patient 
Cant count the times Thought I died (I’m faded) 
Get me out of my brain (UH)
And I don’t like the thoughts she’s saying 
Uh Keep pressing to be patient 
not sure When I got this Complacent

I hate how I hate myself 
But I just can’t seem to break free
You see a life in me that I just can’t see...
Put on a show acting like I’m your puppet on a string 
Do what you want So I don’t have to think 

(I) pick at my skin till I bleed 
Rejecting every part of me 
Feedin my insecurities 
My fragmented identity 
Reflecting who you want me to be 
You say you can’t see what I see >_<

Get me out my brain 
And I don’t like what she’s saying 
uh Keep pressing to be patient 
Cant count the times Thought I died (I’m faded) 
Get me out of my brain 
And I don’t like the thoughts she’s saying 
Uh Keep pressing to be patient 
not sure When I got this Complacent

~~~~~
Aaah Just get me out of my brain 
(I got the same thoughts on replay) 
No I cant keep on living this way 
Ive tried it all still feel the same
ohH Just get me out of my brain 
These same four walls drive me insane 
no I cant keep on living this way.... (aaaah 4get it)

getmeoutofmybrainOHgetmeoutofmygetmeoutofmybrainOHgetmeoutofmygetmeoutofmybrainOHgetmeoutofmygetmeoutofmybrainOHGETMEOUTOFMYBRAIN 

Get me out my brain 
And I don’t like what she’s saying 
uh Keep pressing to be patient 
Cant count the times Thought I died (I’m faded) 

Get me out of my brain 
And I don’t like the thoughts she’s saying 
Uh Keep pressing to be patient 
not sure When I got this Complacent

Cover Art: 
Creative Director: Jin-Ah Song
Producer & Stylist: Thea Lu
DOP & Editor: Cat Hoang
BTS Photographer: Caleb Ribates
Set Assist: Bek, Kaede Miyamura, Mimi Vu
Location: Sophie Byun (Makka Pakka Tattoo Studio)
Text Graphics: Junhee Kim

GET ME OUT OF MY BRAIN ˚‧º·(இ﹏இ`｡)‧º·˚

(ಥ﹏ಥ) this is for the soft humans who wear their heart on their sleeve, yearn with an open heart and feel so deeply. 
Shout out to my past lovers ~ a great source of inspiration for this track 


( ╥ω╥ )
Maybe I’ll pretend 
to be in love with you again 
Maybe I’m wrong for what I said 
Falling for things you never meant 
Maybe We should’ve just stayed friends

Maybe you’ve forgotten all the feelings you felt 
Maybe u got careless with my heart as I fell 
I’d rather be lonely than have you misunderstand me 
better on my own better on my own....

Take what you want and just go
Yeah I’m better off on my own
Take what you want and just go
cos I'm better off on my - 

Im better offf 
Off on my own 

You’re saying that your sorry in advance 
but I know I shouldn’t give you one more chance 
You were Intoxicating you held me In a trance  (aaaaah~~)

You rip my heart out with your words  I’m bleeding all over the floor 
I’ve had enough but you want more 
I’d tell my friends it was okay 
make excuses for you so I could stay  (uh oh)
Kind eyes id never been so wrong 

From all the pain 
I Swear I wouldn’t fall for it again 
Oh my a mistake 
To think you ever meant what you said 
Oh It’s the same 
Same Empty promises that you break 

Take what you want and just go
Yeah I’m better off on my own 
Take what you want and just go
Yeah I’m better off on my own 

Im better offf 
Off on my own 

waiting for this to end 
say you're full of regret 
just waiting for this to end 
say you're full of regret 
just waiting for this to end (END)
say you're full of regret (regret)
waiting for this to end 
you say you're full of regret 

Take what you want and just go
cos I’m better off on my own

BETTER OFF ON MY OWN(✿˃̣̣̥᷄•͈ᴗ•͈˂̣̣̥᷅ )

mastered by CITYSPROBLEM

Download: https://helenadlx.bandcamp.com/track/beauty-abeatforever

Beauty&ABeatForever

i watched you fall
and i did nothing at all
i got nothing to prove
least of all to someone like you

i'm sorry if 
i left you bothered 
but you left me
feelin so dishonored
the way you are
is so dishonest
never really knew what
you wanted

so let's pick up 
the pace
you never really
wanted me anyways
i was just a game
for you to play
till i finally pushed
your bitch ass out the way
your friends are 
all up in my dms
telling me i'm pretty
and i let em
cuz you never
really let me meet em
i hit delete and
i don't read them

it's too late
it's too late
it's too late
it's too damn late

washed my hands of you
way too many times to count
i know just what to do
to make it hurt, yeah to do without

your silly 
little games
crazy of me to think 
you'd change
so let's get this
out the way
you'll never see
me ever again

your friends are 
all up in my dms
telling me i'm pretty
and i let em
cuz you never
let me meet em
i hit delete and
i don't read them

it's too late
it's too late
it's too late
it's too late

yeah, all my friends
they hated you
you think you're so funny
but you're not
nobody's laughing at
a sad miserable cunt
playing games is
what you do
permanently stuck
at 22
it's embarrassing that i ever
felt some way about you

cuz that's all you do
you're sad and weak
at your core
yeah it's all you can do
you're sick and no one
cares anymore

too late (demo)

grab the clutch

snaggletooth

˚✧₊⁎ my brain sounds ⁎⁺˳✧༚
creating on unceded land ᯓ ᡣ𐭩
@underdotnet
@laeuphoria

BETTER OFF ON MY OWN(✿˃̣̣̥᷄•͈ᴗ•͈˂̣̣̥᷅ )

nabii

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