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featuring @xona
produced by heylog & xona

lyrics:
(heylog)
in the winter my hair turns dark and the tips curl
when can i learn how to meet a girl
hurry back need to defend the available angles
i swear i've made contact with monsters and angels
in the winter my skin dry's after a shower
don't care for the sun but i love all the flowers 
you missed my call now she thinks she has the power
do what you want just know that you are a coward
oh hi, 
didn't see u waving by
its not like ur wasting my time
finding out what its like
to be the light
cause you
um
don't know where i'm coming from
your life's only just begun
i can show you what its like
to feel numb

(xona)
cause I hate when i'm alone 
I’ve witnessed what she honed
it burns me through my core 
so tell me what’s-
and I don’t wanna waste my time
see a blur of image that I like
seeing nothing but girl who tries to lie
and you wish that I’ll fall again 
just to show your other friends
but I know I’m adamant, toxic is your finest edge
day by day it’s on myself
feeling weaker on my guilt 
told no one I needed help 
It’s on myself

(heylog)
need to get my life together climbing up steep hills
enjoying the sunset under the windmills
i cannot stand here nor can i sit still
i'm not on anything nor do i take pills

(heylog & xona)
i'm done with everything nor do i even care
do you want attention?
laugh all u want i'm just tryna be nice here
and i don't know why
i think i'm normal, maybe a little weird
do you think i'm here? maybe something's not clear
i got my morals, tryna meet my peers
don't need a sign on why i need you right?

spotify

animus ft. xona

ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2MEwCgdk51OeRKs5vdbJZJ 
also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

neural restructure

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