Fun synthwave remix of Bad Apple!! made for Barny64's new video's outro! https://youtu.be/g19uGH4LC6Q

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Bad Apple!! Holder's 80s Remix

about 20 something years ago in a little town in Sweden
a married couple would have their third child and first son
the last one had been stillborn, it was a tragedy to be sure
but hopefully this next one could make up for that loss

skip back to the present and SIKE you have three daughters now, mum and dad!
I'm sorry to disappoint you
if I could trade places with that stillborn babe
you know that I would do it in a heartbeat

BECAUSE I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF EVERYTHING
ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, AND SUICIDAL IDEATION
SO IF I COULD PRESS A BUTTON AND MAKE IT ALL GO AWAY
WHY THE  F U C K  WOULD I HESITATE

but I've got two cats who depend on me, and I love them so fucking much
and it breaks my heart to think that they'd forget me
and I know that there are people who love me, but I honestly don't care
because at least I can explain myself in a suicide note

and say I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF EVERYTHING
ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, AND SUICIDAL IDEATION
SO IF I CAN POP SOME PILLS TO MAKE IT ALL GO AWAY
WHY THE  F U C K  SHOULD I HESITATE

but there are things that keep me going, like listening to music, and drinking tea
I know it's nothing special, but to me it's enough
enough to keep me grounded for another day
another week, another month, another year

but I'm so fucking tired of living like that
it's been ten years in this limbo state where I can't really feel anything
so I would honestly much rather put a bullet in my brain
before I go completely insane

BUT I'M NOT GONNA PUT A BULLET IN MY BRAIN, BECAUSE THAT WOULD LEAVE A MESS
AND  G O D  F O R B I D  THAT I EVER DO ANYTHING TO EVEN SLIGHTLY INCONVENIENCE ANYONE
YEAH I'D PREFER TO SEAL A PLASTIC BAG AROUND MY HEAD
AFTER I'VE OVERDOSED ON DRUGS AND POISONED MYSELF WITH ALCOHOL

but I promise there's no need to worry about me
I'll probably live for at least another decade
and don't you fucking dare tell me that I'm strong
it's frankly just insulting to say I'm strong for not having the courage to go and kill myself

I'm just so fucking tired of everything
I think it's time for me to go to sleep
and I'll wish to not wake up, though I know that I will
but hopefully someday my wish will come true

tired

a gift for the worlds 6th anniversary, love you guys

shepherdess-shehealseverything(2016)

cw: s*****e
A deeply personal song I wrote last year, about people that meant the world to me; I hope you enjoy it.

Thank you for the photo, Kai <3

I'm Scared

\ 20 something \ she/her \ very gay \ very tired \

tired

Naemi

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