green day sample

if u want it better show me how bad
cus i ain’t coming back
if u taunt it letters blowing out ur car i’m in the back
mia i hate my phone i hate u all i’m off the map 
i stare at the way ur lip touchs the nicotine u breathe
mimick the ones that i love so i compete i cough and wheeze 
i touch people with my words i sing cus its my destiny
nowhere was there for me but my headphones and my melodies 
life changed so much for me can’t believe i thought they were friends of me
sometimes i’m so nihilistic pessimistic with my words
this world told me i born into this vessel with a curse

i miss cartoon network

blew the world mix

i deserve love
i think that i deserve hugs
u think that i deserve mud
claim that i misused ur trust
when is it ever enough
i bleeded infront of u
i hurt right infront of u
u bled right infront of me
u hurt right infront of me
all of these songs that i sing
to help u understand me
its time to care for me
i never cared for me
why can’t u understand me
why can’t u understand me
why can’t u understand me
how can u show up for me
how can i show up for u
how can u glo up for me
how can i glo up for u
i hate the arguments
it brings back memories
u were my safe place
now u hate and scream
say i don’t know struggle
but ur not me
don’t know how many times that its only been me
i don’t know how much more that it will take u to see
that none of us are perfect
the hurt we never deserve it
sometimes life i hate this shit cause it feels worthless
so now that i’m dead...

they are never really hearing u , song for the hurt and misunderstood

i need a break i swear its too much stress
do u watch what u say and how it hits my chest? 
or are u ignorant
kinda like the rest
maybe u would like it if i was just dead 
if this mental illness
i think it made me genius
cause every word i mean it
my actions know u seen it
sometimes i think i’m dreaming
these people always leaving
everyone temporary 
opinions always vary
i used to want to marry

stress

crucify ur body might do it because i can
look at my eyes when ur throat touches my hand
spit ur in mouth and kneel down like my fan 
fucking this much really wasn’t my plan
u felt my presence and than u ran
i wanna kill u yes i’m right behind 
u feel my fingers kissing on ur spine
i hit the pussy till it wasn’t tight

hormone

u could use my body as ur canvas
give u all the tools to inflict damage
so many to pick show me how will u manage
i say fuck them all and go savage
cut my eyebrows off don’t wanna look like u
cut my whole heart out don’t wanna feel like u
isolate from the world don’t wanna be like u
i’ll never be like u

alien

when october came everyone changed they turned into a ghost
when november came i went sober i had no way to cope
in december i found connections with angles of the rope
the same one she lynched me on i swear i hate that fucking girl
unlike u i didn’t escape i ran straight into my hurt
january was my birthday almost spent that bitch alone
vell came over he told me i’m just ahead of this whole world
all i tried to do was help why did u all just push and hurt
then i distance myself u blame me and stab me thru my shirt

february

i’m not a fortune teller
thats one of lies i tell her 
my presence it seems to melt her
explained every word i felt her
something bout it not simple 
i wish that it was can’t lie tho
in circles swimming in cycles
i told u that ur my idol
she more’s my new rival 
there’s something bout that side eye tho
can’t seem to find something i don’t know 
maybe its all the pixels in the photo 
i hate to seen i bleed loud
everybody just talks they loud mouth
sing with passion that burns ur house down
the brand new devil paint the whole town
with expression and pain that ties down 
and eats away cause u feel let down
but everything infront u see it? 
pick up the mirror shards the pieces
hopefully it helps with ur thesis
cause to be honest ur gonna need it

it's just not that simple

darlnn - keep me with you (4silas x alexreid)

i need something familiar
please don’t sinister
i’ll make a cylinder
circles that trap us round
haven’t slept in awhile
my tears they fill a bath
the night feels so dark
the night feels so dark
the night feels so dark
the night feels so dark
the night feels so dark
scratch on my body parts
left some marks on my arm
everyone tears me part
i feel so scared its dark
no one to hear my calls
i cry and plead for help
no one to hear my calls
i die and kneel for help
no one to hear my calls

they are never really hearing u , song for the hurt and misunderstood

cokenails