The Girl isn’t Mine

Monotone Flows

Over the past five months or so, I'd been working on new music for a project that i planned to release at the top of the year.. I came to the conclusion that I wanted to do something that was more true to where i am in my life right now,. So i decided to scratch the project and release what i felt was good enough for you to enjoy from the songs that i made intended for that project. Just a token of gratitude and a promise of better and greater to come. Hope yall enjoy this mf!

TONIGHT FEAT. DEMO & JORDAN XX(PROD. BY KADENCE PAT & NIKUS)

The Ride

SMILE ON MY FACE

Sometimes Pain Can Be A Drug Too Pt. VII

Intercept

Peaceful Horizons

Original song by Matlock: https://matlock.bandcamp.com/track/cursed

POV: You wake up with no income, broken teeth, TMJ pain, transphobia, and threats of eviction.

Lyrics:
Born under a bad sign
Headed for a breakdown
Hardships been following me forever and a day now
World's got me crazy 
Is this my fuckin fate
I'm feeling cursed
(I got the worst fuckin' luck on earth)

And I've been struggling for too long
Not feeling safe at home now 
Bad news been crossing my feed every time that I scroll down
I'm scared that God might hate me
There's not much I can take, I'm feeling cursed
(and every fucking day the shit gets worse)

Swear to God if I wake up to another job rejection email
Or dickhead in my mentions saying "I'll never be a female"
I'm so close to just snapping throwing people on the third rail. Other people get rain I'm getting tennis ball sized hail. 
Imprisoned in this body, no parole and fuckin' no bail.
Can't console me in a game that's set us all up to fail. 
The pain is like a reverb with an excessively long tail. 
Just dragging on too long, may as well just send my ass to hell.
Didn't ask to be born, wasn't warned about existence.
I'm just shat out into the  world with all these other trauma victims. I'm not trying to hear it. I'm the one that's had to regulate and tolerate people's tantrums while I'm sittin' filled with hate. I can't even masturbate, I'm getting fucked already with a ghost pepper lube reach around that's stroking steady. I'm so ready to die and let the world quickly forget me. 
But I didn't take enough pills so I'm groggy AND I'm angry.

Born under a bad sign
Headed for a breakdown
Hardship been following me forever and a day now
World's got me crazy 
Is this my fuckin fate
I'm feeling cursed
(and every day this shit is making me berserk)

And I've been struggling for too long
Not feeling safe at home now 
Bad news been crossing my feed every time that I scroll down
I'm scared that God might hate me
There's not much I can take, I'm feeling cursed
(and my motherfucking jaw still hurts)

Cursed Verse

June 12th

Time Alone

SMILE ON MY FACE

Nate Joël