Death Wish

Sick and Tired

Love’s Not Real

Be Good The Crazy Boys

He Dances Light

Priorities

The Wheel

I wrote this on the acoustic guitar but immediately heard Electronic, Rock, Reggae, Latin and even some Jazz subconscious influences. I decided to go with synth and bass to see if I could build a heavy groove without drums. I used a shaker and a Rhodes style piano to add layers of energy and help drive the track forward. Emotionally for me, this song is energetic but still breathes with space to reflect on moments when a loved one seems to be pulling away. 

Lyrics:

So now we’re waiting
We thought that we made it
Can’t fill the empty
With memories spent
We were foolish and filthy

I caught you longing
Who am I to say that it’s the wrong thing
To pull your focus
And live like a ghost is
The world you have chosen

And now my hardest day
Is the one when I’m least afraid
And although you tried
There’s so much left unexplained
When the one that you’re closest to
Was not the one you came running to
When you felt betrayed

Now I’m seeking
Answers from someone not speaking
If not for hard times
Cold nights and smart lies
My faith wouldn’t fit right

Now the hardest truth
Is the one that I always knew
And the deepest blue
Is the one that I dove into
We practiced our whole lives
And picked the sharpest of the knives
So it’d run clean through

And still we’re breathing
Still aching, still healing
Nothing’s ending
These plates will keep spinning
When we stop pretending

Someone Not Speaking

I don’t know this town the way that I know home
Got two years down, 18 to go, fresh air and room to roam
Was caught off guard, never thought I’d be the one who was left alone
Guess the pills, the walks, the books and the dogs gave us little more than hope
Got a drink at a bar I’ve been meaning to try out
I'm trying to think for myself without having you around
Don’t need this couch,
‘cause it never worked for me
But I still see you curled up with the laptop, sun upon your cheeks
I found something small, on an acre with a creek
I never spent enough time with you at ours, now I’m here seven days a week
Got a call from our son asking how I’ve been
I told him I’ve been great ‘cause that’s just easier for him
And that must be some stage of grieving
That I don’t even know
I kinda thought that leaving would help with letting go
And my daughter’s sleeping
Instead of facing life
She’s buying peace but selling time
Buying peace but selling time
I don’t know this house the way that I knew ours
And I don’t plan to, I just need to know the way to the kitchen in the dark
I’m gonna make my bed, and make the coffee how we would
I don’t wanna outlive another dog, I’m only starting books I know are good
I had a dream you were here, and I could feel your skin
We caught the first flight home and we settled right back in
And that must be some stage of grieving
That I don’t even know
I kinda thought that leaving would help with letting go
I’m long past believing
And I'm good for any price
I’m buying peace but selling time

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Rumble from the gravel on this old and dusty road
I could reach you from the treetops, but I had to let you go
Cause I don’t need you around me and I had to let you know
I think that I’d be better off alone

Miles take their toll on a soul that’s full of sin
And if I could tell the difference between a lover and a friend
I’d know that wishing is for fools and the weakest of the men
And I guess that you could call me one of them

I’m running on but I’m running thin
You knew my blood was thicker than my skin
And all that left are memories of when you were you
But someone else was me

Times have gotten tougher, I can no longer pretend
I’ll lay my darling down by the winding river’s bend
I could no longer provide but to stay here by her side
Wasn’t what my darling had in mind

Now the bottle can’t console this weary mind quite like it could
So, I better keep moving like the voices say I should
This little town is not the place, and I cannot show my face
And I’m praying now for my savior’s grace

I’m running on but I’m running thin
And you knew my blood was thicker than my skin
And all that left are memories of when you were you
But someone else was me
I’m running on but I’m running thin
And you knew my blood was thicker than my skin
All that left now are memories of when you were you
But someone else was me
Someone else was me
It was you
When someone else was me
You were you

Some Stage of Grieving - Demo.wav

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