Take 2! Shortened the intro to bring the main beat in quicker. Lost the air horn, fun but conflicting lol

take 2 (LoopDiggers Sunday Roulette N°151)

Omg hi thanks for listening to my little songs



Navigating the complexities of relationships, especially when deep hurt is involved, touches on several important human experiences.

 * Acknowledging Different Processing Styles: You mentioned, "we process it differently... It's been our whole relationship really." This is a fundamental aspect of human interaction. People metabolize grief, hurt, anger, and confusion at different paces and through different means. Some need quiet reflection, others need vocal processing; some express emotions outwardly, others internalize them. Recognizing this inherent difference isn't just about tolerance; it's about understanding that your partner's way of coping isn't necessarily a reflection on you or the relationship's value, but rather their individual mechanism. Acknowledging this explicitly, as you have, can be a step towards bridging the gap that these differences can create, reducing misunderstandings where one person might feel abandoned, rushed, or overwhelmed by the other's process.

 * The Courage of Vulnerability and Owning the Past: Your apology – "Im sorry that I don't know how How much pain youve had to put up with and Im sorry I used to hide my heart and live a lie just to get by" – coupled with "Thats not me anymore," speaks volumes about vulnerability and growth. It takes significant strength to look back at your own coping mechanisms, especially those developed for self-protection ('hiding my heart', 'living a lie'), recognize how they might have impacted someone else, and own that without making excuses. This kind of self-awareness and admission is often born from painful experiences but is crucial for building more authentic connections moving forward. It signals a commitment to relating from a place of truth, even when it's uncomfortable.

 * The Role of Empathy and Apology in Healing: Your words express empathy – the attempt to understand and share the feelings of another, even acknowledging the limits of your understanding ("I don't know how How much pain youve had to put up with"). A sincere apology that acknowledges specific impacts can be profoundly healing. It validates the other person's experience and pain, demonstrating that you see them and recognize their reality. It's less about assigning blame and more about taking responsibility for one's role in the dynamic, which can help rebuild bridges of trust that may have been damaged.

 * The Necessity of Time and Space: Your advice, "Take time and process your feelings," is often essential when emotions run high. Intense feelings can cloud judgment and lead to reactive communication that causes more harm. Allowing time and space isn't about avoiding the issue, but rather about allowing the initial intensity to subside so that both individuals can approach the situation with greater clarity and emotional regulation. It respects individual needs for reflection and prevents forcing resolutions before people are ready, which rarely leads to genuine understanding.

 * Hope and Relief: Mentioning "Thankfully it didn't happen the way you thought it did" introduces an element of relief. Sometimes, the anticipation or interpretation of events can be more painful than the reality. Acknowledging this shared relief can be a small, positive point of connection amidst the pain, a reminder that not all fears materialized.
In essence, your message touches on the difficult, ongoing work of relationships: navigating individual differences, healing past wounds, communicating vulnerably, taking responsibility, and allowing space for processing. It's a journey that requires immense courage, empathy, and self-awareness from everyone involved.




A place for sound freaks lashing out from the dark. 

So there's all kinds of stuff on this page, but after months of schizophrenic debates about who was playing with who and who took the lead while doing it, finally, the decision was made: all my alter egos got together and decided to form a band. From 2020 on new tracks are created under the moniker Gruppo Infernal. Only pure MMTJ tracks will still be named as such. 

Gruppo Infernal still relies on my work as Me, my Thumb and Jack, an ongoing quest for a liberating approach to sound creation where the human body acts as an oscillator amplifying the natural 50hz hum. Direct live recording, improvisations and delay loops only using analog filters and effects. No editing, no overdubs. Gruppo Infernal adds digital treatment to this original sound material. 

UnterPitch was an alter ego using samples & synths.
Bleached Coffins was a one-off project using guitars.

earliest work when I was still a pup:
https://blindsightrecords.bandcamp.com/album/throbbing-flip-out

sky_sensei_mccloud

https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_kixZuKKtfSUifaBgPNFtH4GOnXJh1-LQg&si=tA3Q8taESqbQRxjE&fbclid=PAAab1lVp1y0S7LuQG-3I9k_QDWYRHEIoajcV4fyNO6BWRpkqCBvBplvn0L_g

Street pirates 

https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_l5wzZL-m4IO6NXStLfYYjRRJNR7Geqy5I&si=00m13nEnWy_EJpDv&fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAabgN1AkA8GkLGb7NMeUsYDPLrHMWkjLyusA0KxEHZJRD2mqx-cWo7TwtvE_aem_xKaovBM-9pHgzFHwwGSvGQ

hold up wait there's more 

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_kP2ucGQi-Om0Pf1vSY3myP1B3Yzewd3Ok&si=87VEh4JSOHQCLbsg

booking/inquiries : tocovervisch@gmail.com


08.07 Pointe Lafayette (Solo)
28.06 Charbon Collectif, Bagnolet
21.06 Chaton indépendant (Vélvélé)
14.06 Non Jazz (Stéphanie Lotion )
08.06 Tour Orion, Milieu Studio (Stéphanie Lotion)
06.06 Plateforme Paris (solo)
04.06 Olympic Café (solo)
29.05 Ground Zero (Stéphanie Lotion)
25.04 Furium, les Nouveaux sauvages ( Stéphanie Lotion)
19.04. Non Jazz, Cantine pas si loin (solo)
25.01 Vanilla café, cmptrmthmtcs (Stéphanie Lotion)
21.12 Pan café (solo)
13.12 Théatre Berthelot, Montreuil, Collectif Coax et Instants chavirés (Stéphanie Lotion)
30.11 La Berge, Saint Aignan, 41 (Stéphanie Lotion)
05.11 Olympic café, Sport National (solo)
19.10 Tour Orion, l'Amorce des consignes (solo)
02.10 Shakirail, dernière de vaagues de chaleur (Stéphanie Lotion)
28.09 Festival l'Ode Mère (Stéphanie Lotion)
20.09 Consulat (solo)
12.07 Sport National Café de Paris (solo)
27.06 Beaux arts Paris (Stéphanie Lotion)
01.06 Le boulingrin Rouen (solo)
13.06 Beaux arts Paris performance avec Margot Bernard
05.06 l'international (Vélvélé)
04.05 Feux avec (Stéphanie Lotion et Vélvélé)
16.04 Instants Chavirés (solo) Quasi
16.03 à DOC performance avec Laure Mathieu 

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12/01/24 Chapelle Port Royal avec Stéphanie Lotion 
13/12/23 Pointe Lafayette avec Velvélé (silence kills concerts)
10/11/23 Zorba, (La sale pépinière) solo 
03/11/23, Café de Paris, Sport National avec France Connect
26/10/23 Supersonic avec Velvélé
18/08/23 Pallistock festival 
11/04/23 Instants Chavirés, solo show

#StartTheNextWave - New Wave. Post Punk. Art Pop Experimentor. New songs always in the works. Stay tuned.

I'm sorry. I'm afraid I'm going to upload too many songs, so I'll be deleting older, less listened-to songs. I'm very sorry, but thank you for your understanding.

“Until now, I have been replying in English through translation, but since translations can lead to misunderstandings, I will be responding in Japanese from now on.” 

＊ DAW  Logic Pro X, Studio One,FL studio
I will be cancelling my Pro Plan on June 12th.

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take 2 (LoopDiggers Sunday Roulette N°151)

Nathan Pugh