this song and "no take backs" have been my favourites for years. Always with beautiful lyrics and emotional timing. Love it.

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Free Download here: http://www.growingupsong.com 
http://youtu.be/6mhtJduoCZ0

I wish that I could say that I was in a “better place” when I found out the news.  It would make for a far more polished and respectable story.  But I think back to that night: praying on the floor at 2am as Tricia went to the bathroom to take the pregnancy test I’d just purchased from Walgreens.  I was scared.  Scared to start working on new music.  Scared of trying again and failing.  Scared of the process of staring at myself through a page and seeing someone that I wasn’t proud of.  Someone that I didn’t like.  Someone that wasn’t ready to be a dad.

I’ve always had some make-believe image in my head of who I would be as a father.  I held on to clear expectations of where I wanted be in my career, my age, my level of self-care, and my maturity.  I basically assumed that I'd have it all together.  But in actuality the hypothetical “dad" version of me looked completely different than the man whose heart was beating out of his chest on the carpet, praying to a god or spirit I hadn’t talked to in months.  When Tricia walked out of the bathroom, I knew. And I knew I had to change.

5 months later we were recording in a remote cabin away from the density that is Seattle.  I was finally having fun in the studio for the first time in years.  Songs were getting made, finally. I was going back to the city once a week to attend a birthing class with Tricia.  When I got back to the cabin the next day, Ryan had made a new beat that would eventually become the song you’re listening to.  Half of it is advice about growing up.  The other half is trying to figure out how to grow up myself.

When you try to escape yourself, life has an interesting way of creating situations that force you to come back.  To look at who you are.  This is why “Growing up” felt like the right song to re-emerge with.  It’s where I’ve been the last year, through all the ups and downs.   We didn’t want to do a big campaign or anything over the top with this.  We just wanted to put out good music, directly to the people that have been here since the beginning.  Thank you for your patience. Hope you enjoy.

And if you’re wondering…

Our daughter, Sloane Ava Simone Haggerty was born 2 months ago on May 29th.  There is nothing like the joy and happiness that comes from bringing a baby into this universe.  She has filled my heart in ways that I never knew were possible.  She is the love of my life.  This song is for her. 

-Ben

Credits

Performed by Macklemore
Produced by Ryan Lewis
Featuring Ed Sheeran

Written by: B. Haggerty; R. Lewis; E. Sheeran; J. Karp; O. Arunga; J. Rawlings

Bass by Joshua "Budo" Karp
Piano by Joshua Rawlings and Joshua "Budo" Karp
Guitar by Ryan Lewis and Joshua "Budo" Karp
Trumpet by Owuor Arunga
Trombone by Greg Kramer
Vibraphone by Susan Pascal
Group Vocals by Deshe' Brooks, Tanisha Brooks, Sherri Charleston, Josephine Howell, Dana Jackson, Karma Johnson, Russell Leonce, Shaunyce Omar, Sally Reavis, Austin Rickel, Francisca Shaw, Maelu Strange and Liah Walker

Mixed by Jon Castelli
Mastered by Dale Becker
Engineered by Stephen Hogan
Assistant Engineered by Dave West (London Bridge Studios) and Scott Cedarholm (Avast Studios) 
Engineer for mix Ryan Nasci

Macklemore Publishing (BMI)
Ryan Lewis Publishing (BMI)
Gutterfunk (ASCAP)
Arunga Music (BMI)
Joshua Rawlings (ASCAP)

Ed Sheeran Limited and Sony/ATV Music Publishing (UK)
Ed Sheeran appears courtesy of Asylum Records UK Ltd

© 2015 Macklemore, LLC. All rights reserved.

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Growing Up (Sloane's Song) Feat. Ed Sheeran

This song comes from a place of deep pain. I poured my feelings into every line the sadness, the silence, the things I couldn’t say out loud. AB Music is my way of expressing the emotions I can’t hide anymore. 🎧💔

AB - I am Sad

numbed (prod.laayz)

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ART BY ELLA FLOOD @oscarcash

Calling My Name ft. Amindi K. Fro$t(DAPURR ON SPOTIFY)

Can't Help Falling In Love

Produced by Goody Grace
Video: https://youtu.be/Qvoqpu-Jj9Y

Memories

(intro)
 I used to sleep with the light on 
Cuz I was afraid of things I could not see
Well, I grew up just to find out
The monsters were inside of me

My mother read to me
beautiful stories
and would pray with me
when it was thunderstorming

when I close my eyes
I feel you here with me
lending me your love
granting your blessings

I grew old over night
and it seems like
nothings changed
but everythings changed

(verse 1)

So there's a party at my crib
are you comin?
you know me imma be (im-a-bee), already buzzin
fuck,   sorry I'm tryna stop cussin
but when I'm drunk you can't really tell me nothin

They try to label me
but my new shit sweet as maple leaf
this is all just make believe
we walk around just breaking things

unaware of our effect we
kill each other indirectly
my mind matches my room 
cuz every day that shit gets messy
  
and nothings gonna change
unless we 
change ourselves
and it's really weird cuz in a way
i swear the pain will help

shake you,
wake you,
from that numbness
there's still treasure
in your cargo
even though your ship has sunken
this is for the kids 
who ain't have money for the function
so they sittin in they room
smokin a little somethin

this is a hope for the youth
this is food for the poor
you were new to the neighborhood
So I knocked on your door
with a cake that I baked you
like welcome to the lake view
where everybody loves you
and nobody hates you

(verse 2)

 Even demons know that God exists
sometimes the rarest diamonds 
you can find inside a pot of shit
tell me that I got to quit
watch me keep on doing it
put my soul into it
cuz my heart would just ruin it

when you feel like you can't
that's when you got to
show em your flaws
take off your costume

hate inspired by envy 
I'll pretend we never heard it
I smoke weed when I'm nervous
I smoke weed when I'm bored
I smoke weed when I smoke weed
then I smoke weed some more
You feel my love on the surface
but it comes from my core

Tryna set an example but I keep making mistakes
everyone I meet is fake
my real friends been here
been there, done that
you can shed light with one match
i drop knowledge
that's fun facts
catch me where the sun is at
believe me it's hard but looks easy
I'm high & I'm sleepy
you're so cold you say "i'm warm" when it's freezing

Flesh of the gods, ingested by humans
you saw beauty in your pain
and that got rid of the gloom
and when you stepped out of your room 
it was beautiful
take a trip outside your mind
out of your cubicle

I used to be so sure, now I'm just suicidal
I said I was sorry, but kept on worshipping idols
I am love, I don't need a title
when you see me get your camera out 
like it's your daughter's dance recital

I keep it real I don't need a facade
I put love into my music
and i put my faith in God

Lakeview

this the type of shit that make me wanna quit my day job
i don't want what you have, just gimme what they got
gimme gimme gimme man i'm smokin up a chimney
just praying to God that I got it in me

i was pickin pennies up
but you were a dime
i got nothin to lose
all I got is time
all i got is time

take it back to the basics
an watch nobody say shit
you hatin on the sidelines
and that's why you ain't shit

i make my own beats
i spit my own heat
i keep one rolled
in case that i get lonely

show me love show me fuckin love
you way too grown to be fuckin up

even when it's dark 
you gone see another day
i got angels prayin for me
and these demons in my way

i put my love into my work 
and watch it manifest
my cannabis 
is the cannabest

it's better than snoop's
 better than wiz
 it's better than hers
 better than his

it's better than felly's
better than skizzy's
better than what's  
inside Mexico City

i'm doin the most
let's  make it a toast
hands in the air
and stand on your toes
i don't know none of you
none of you ho's

hey chance
hey cudi 
how much for a feature?
because i got too much game
i can't be sittin in these bleachers
i am fully focused
half-stoned
the dead will prolly hear this
and wake up inside their catacombs

give it a second
give it a minute
give it an hour
wait till i'm finished
we ain't done talkin business 
i got a hit list 
lookin at my problems
 guess it's time to do the dishes
i ain't every other rapper rappin
 "bitches bitches bitches"
"ice, ice, gold, chain"
"got beef? make it rain"
 don't be worried bout me
you just stay in your lane

this the type of shit that make me wanna quit my day job
i don't want what you have, just gimme what they got
gimme gimme gimme man i'm smokin up a chimney
just praying to God that I got it in me

i was pickin pennies up
but you were a dime
i got nothin to lose
all I got is time
all i got is time

my head is haunted and my bed is unmade
an to be honest witchu i don't go no time to throw shade
i just speak my mind an I ain't ever afraid
and whenever i get worried i look up an i pray

 where do i start
 you know my mind and my heart
you know i'm blind in the dark
at times i'm fallin apart

while you were talkin shit
i was busy makin music
i ain't ever gonna quit
to stop it would just be stupid

started from scratch now this
i swear my first hit felt like my first kiss
i swear my first kiss ain't feel like shit
i swear my first kiss ain't feel like shit

i cannot stop i cannot i cannot
i keep on giving everything i got
but all that i have
i think it's not a lot
i don't know much
i know this shit is hot though

this the type of shit that make me wanna quit my day job
i don't want what you have, just gimme what they got
gimme gimme gimme man i'm smokin up a chimney
just praying to God that I got it in me

i was pickin pennies up
but you were a dime
i got nothin to lose
all I got is time
all i got is time

Quit my Day Job

the voice inside my head want me to give up
and quit making music cuz all my shit suck
but all my shit is fire
or is it water and I'm just a liar?
my fans ain't sleepin on me
even though they really tired

this is the way of the simple
 this is the love of the ancient
you have the wind at your back
you have unwavering patience
you got a spark in your heart
so cultivate it
this is consecrated ground
even the sound is sacred
there are some people in this world
that are full of hatred
and they ain't shit

do you need me now ?
do you like my music?
i hope everytime you think
of me you start to lose it
every time i think of you
i'll spark some shit
and i'll get boosted 
industry like "oh shit"
who is the new kid?

i don't need a ghost writer
baby i'm a ghost and you're a ghost rider
you a lover i'm a fighter
you a flower i'm the sunlight 
 give me one night
 i'mma show you how it's done right

i'm just tryna get it any way that I can
sellin cd's out the back of my van
i got a hole in my heart
i got a blunt in my hand
you ain't a hater
you just a confused fan

aye, tell me that it ain't true
we got nothin but we make do
i got dreams of a boat and a dog
and a lake view
but I'm loving the moment
that's a break through

im lookin the mirror who the fuck am I?
my inner dialogue would prolly make you  cry
praying everything you told me wasnt just a lie

i'll be the reason that you smile even on the day I die
sendin love from the next world
let my life be a sweet prayer
everybody has their rough days
just to be fair 

you're relevant
and time isn't
let me you show you why
i'm different

sleepin on the couch
i got my cup in my hand
she say i'm borin
all she wanna do is dance
but i'm white 
so i can't
so im chillin drinkin liquor 
smokin plants

relax, you don't need to relapse
you giving head?
my friend giving out free hats
and if you want to be yourself
then you should go and be that
and if you hatin on me i ain't fuckin with ya weak ass

i do not want to see you later
i just want to get to bed
i am so tired of the same shit
rolling over in my head
in my head

 and i don't really want this no how
and i don't really need y'all no way

but i been hopin that you see the light of day
and the blessings of tomorrow
everything we have is borrowed
you ain't ever to old to feel sorrow
or be forgiven
take a nap or pet a kitten
i admit that i'm the shit
 don't need a watch up on my wrist
I feel like the son of Osiris
feel like i defeated Isis
feel like my flow is the nicest
feel like all you do is hype shit


why is all you do is hype shit?

feel like all you do is _____
why is all you do is ____ ?

keep it low that's a cop car
they only wanna be my friend cuz i got bars
talk all the shit you wanna 
i went harder when it got hard
i ain't playin games this is not Wii, not cards
i got soul
i got heart
there is nothing in this world that is not art

i put too much love into it
they told me i couldn't do it
they said I ain't have it in me
and that everybody knew it
now i'm doin what i love
and all my haters lookin stupid
and they lookin at me funny
because I am the new kid

 i been doin this shit 
since i can remember 
its been my mission
keep sharin vision
i look up an pray
when I'm makin decisions
send water from heaven,
oh bread and provisions
i keep makin tracks
i don't need your permission
 fishin for souls
and i'm fishin efficiently
since the first day
i have not acted differently
love & consistency
i got the formula
i am just warmin up
i hope this fire i'm spittin is warm enough

Love & Consistency

tell satan i'm sorry
cuz i ain't call him back in a week
an he's been askin "what are we?"

i  been in the lab
i been in the cave
 only took a day without
you here until i caved in
but i ain't worth all of the people you'd be savin

you say "what you sayin?"
 shit ain't how it supposed to be
i just want you next to me
 but don't try to get close to me
don't you got some shit to do?
i don't know, groceries?

but in reality all i want is you to move it slow for me
cuz if you're under me then how could you be over me?
this is why nobody likes the sober me
 we could be at a green light and you still wouldnt go for me
 
theres a rhythm in the vibe
and a pulse in the groove
and an essence in your body
and the way that it moves
in the way that it moves

this just had to be
i wish it weren't so
you were the only reason
that I had to curve ho's

but now you ain't here
so what i got to lose?
i smoke a lot of weed
i drink a lot of booze

but you can't hear me now cuz
i'm inaudible 
and when i say i miss you
you say that a lot of bull...

karma comin for me
i just got a feelin
and i can't tell if that's
a good thing or a bad one
 
but i love you, and i had fun
 and i thought you, were the last one
but i fucked up; like i do best
and i can't seem to love you less


theres a rhythm in the vibe
and a pulse in the groove
and an essence in your body
and the way that it moves
in the way that it moves

tell satan i'm sorry
cuz I ain't call him back in a week
and he's been askin what are we?

i been  busy
makin beats tell em leave a message
the way you love is blessed
i swear i wish i possessed it

you embody it, perfect it and manifest it
into the way you walk to your car
while i talk to the stars about how beautiful you are
bout how your body is art
so kind pretty and smart

only 21 and tryna settle down
i just never been the type of guy to get around
sorry that i had to be the one to go an let you down
sorry that you thought you found the person
that would love you while you studied nursin
that would love you forever and ever and ever and ever
and ever and ever

theres a rhythm in the vibe
and a pulse in the groove
and an essence in your body
in the way that it moves
in the way that it moves

Sorry

DESTROY YOUR ROLE MODELS

Empathy

i'm sorry i could never play you a happy song

the liquor said i love you i guess soco makes me social
i wake up in your absynthe
but henny makes me hopeful
put my crown on to drown the things i dont know
by 3 im feeling free but by 4 im feeling loko
blow your head off before you even load your gun
trust issues i aint dumb 
i dont wanna feel this numb
so if you hurt me imma sin
im at the mercy of your whim
to the others that i missed,
they can color me remiss 
because im searching for a start
too scared of the end
fuck me in the morning leave me by the evening and
love me like you always said you couldnt
fuck me up
chase my insecurities
and kill what you cant touch
salvage your reflection 
forget me in your dust
and in the end ill let it go 


dont you think that this is fine?

drunk in december

pay me monies

all falls down

Formerly - The Faded Youth

independent / alternative

My promise to you is to reciprocate all the love that you show me. To give back all that I'm given. 

Desiring to make the world a better place means first, being a better person. You can't be a better person without knowing what it is to be good. Good is not defined by looking out at those around you who share in your fallen, imperfect, brokenness, but upwards to a holy God who is perfect in love.

Lakeview

Nathaniel Scott

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