produced and mixed by me
mastered by cubox
featuring @717na

Hard to feel the ache when the heart goes numb
Stare goes blank, no I'm never having fun
Been detached from my old self
Staring at the ceiling fighting lethargy with no help
Wasting my time, who am I gon' tell
Oh well, I'm wasted on my mattress
Won't go turn the lights on, I'm too lazy and distracted
Thinking 'bout my former self, that guy is such a has-been
I ain't tryna learn today, let's form another habit
I was talking big talk, now I'm here
My mental is sick God, are you near
I really need to hear you, please give me a clear view
Demons in the mirror might be closer than appear to
All your solutions are in vain
What's the root of my stagnation, every day's the same
Say something useful or get out my face
Think I'll medicate before I get the chance to blow out my brains

I won't go outside because I'm feeling too bad
How the hell I go from riches to rags
Everybody runs their mouth but they will not understand
I'm so tired of being used and distressed
What is there to gain from this life of uneventfulness
Used to think I'd graduate and live my life in excellence
They all used to be so proud but now I'm living check to check
Looking back on me and I can barely see resemblance
I'm so jaded, I'm so faded
I'm so jaded, ain't worth saving
I'm so jaded, ain't worth saving
Ain't worth saving

I'm so jaded, do you know what you put me through
Yeah you got me messed up, I can't look at you
Yeah you turned me to a douchebag acting rude
Now I feel a little better 'cause I got these trues
In my truey jeans I see the way you look at me
Why you hate me I don't know it's a mystery
No I can't stand the way you look at me
No I can't stand the way you look at me
Look away
I don't need you I'm a different beast today
Look away
You still hate me, girl, I see it in your face
Look away
I'm so fed up with your bs and your ways
Look away
Look away

Affirmations don't do jack for me I just want an escape
It's so hard to make my peace with the ways that things have changed
I can't see why you would love me in my times of disarray
Trauma bonding with my secrets, think I'll take this to my grave
Hand to my stomach I'm heaving
Sift through these thoughts of confusion for reasons
I'll just embody my weakness
Try pull me out, but I'm already sinking
Try pull me out
All my ambitions are fleeting
I'm so jaded
Give me a sign to believe in

VIAL OF TEARS

JADED (ft. 717na)

JADED (ft. 717na) [PROD. CVONS]

all credit goes to the original creators.

x99 - AK W/ BRONKX3 [Prod. PHXTON]

MR.TONY HIT-YO-BITCH (feat. YUQ) (prod. HVVXCK)

my flesh is rotten w/ tnt slinky <prod.die!>

CHOCOLATE [[FEAT. ELMX X STYX RIVER]] [[PROD. GUARDIAN]]

LYRICS:
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WHERESMVLIK X ELMX - FUCK THAT SHIT (PROD.DIKLORDEFENIL x TRIPLESIXDELETE)

https://soundcloud.com/killriddle
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my flesh is rotten w/ tnt slinky <prod.die!>

NAU Caleb