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a brand new feeling inside me
but it feels like I've felt it over and over again
and oh i feel the kick back
(a bullet passing by)

it may take a thousand words
to say what i want to, do what is needed again
and oh its hard it write it down
(im so confused, what should i even do?)

do i want it to sound like it came from me?
do you want it to sound like it came from you?
im not sure, just tell me what to do
im not sure, just tell me what to do

so you leave me the stick and some paper
i dont wanna crash but i don't know what to do
im turning over and over and over again
im turning over and over and over again
so you leave me the stove and the table
i dont wanna burn but i just know that i have to
i think i can, yes i think i can do just right
if you were there with me, if you were there with-

yes i know you would leave me all behind 
some time, some time
and i hope, wherever i go I'll be just fine if i put my mind on a platter
platter
everything's fine and it'll get better
better

yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah x4

so you leave me the stick and some paper
i dont wanna crash but i don't know what to do
im turning over and over and over again
im turning over and over and over again
so you leave me the stove and the table
i dont wanna burn but i just know that i have to
i think i can, yes i think i can do just right
if you were there with me, if you were there with-

Flight Simulator

Do you feel small when you hold me?
I think my money's counterfeit
And I could buy you anything
If I had any time to spend

And everybody's seen my body
They all have my number and know my name
And everybody's touched and said they loved me

You don't do it like any of my friends
We act like the walls were paper-thin
Hold your ghosts, say it in my ear
How close?

And it can't get better than right now
Kissin' the bottle when angel sounds
And I'm not an addict 'til I come down
Kiss me to sleep before I drown

And verybody's seen my body
They all have my number and know my name
And everybody's touched and said they loved me

But I don't do it like someone who's alone
I feel crazy for loving you so
Hold your ghosts, say it in my ear
How close?

Sick / relapse

He sweats through all of his clothes
He forces himself to sleep
And only thinks of me
It seems like nobody knows
About this new kind of free
Where I am the only girl

When I make the tides change
And tell you I want you
Come crashing

When I make your life change
And rid of the past
Boy I'm the future
You told me so

You don't know her
You don't know her
You don't know her
You don't know her

Waves crashing onto me
Waves crashing onto me
He's crashing onto me
He crashes like a thousand waves

Waves crashing onto me
Waves crashing onto me
It's crashing like a thousand waves
My love is like a thousand waves

Waves crashing onto me
Do you think I'm afraid?
Do you think I'm afraid?
It's like a thousand waves

Ghostholding

Spider

I don’t want something to happen to you
Still, I wanna give you my all
I can’t help but put my hands onto you
Treat you like a superstar

I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go

I've been feeling some pain for fun now
Didn’t even wanna let it show
I’ve been hiding all the details
Just hate it, feeling alone

World tells me you don’t know much
I’ll teach you how to play my guitar
We hum the song, don’t know how it goes
I get the feeling you don’t wanna go

I was all over the country
Didn’t even wanna go back home
I just wanted to see you
Just hate it, being alone
Just hate it, being alone
I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go

I don’t want something to happen to you
Teach me how to play my guitar
I can’t help but take my hands off of you
Treat me like a superstar

I was all over the country
Didn’t even wanna go back home
I just wanted to see you
Just hated being alone
Just hated being alone
Just hated being alone
Just hated being alone
Just hate it, being alone

Play my guitar

Demo from like march I cant finish this

Let em get jealous watching us
All alone naked sparks
And when they close ill take u home
Cuz I know who u are
When we walk the line
Head on my shoulder cuz we know its hard
Couldnt change my mind
Im forever dancing in ur heart
And I get jealous watching us
All alone in the dark
Dont need to sell my soul just to know who u are
They want what we got
Ohhhh
Couldnt change my mind
Im forever dancing in your heart

In the dark (demo)

走れ Stupid Horse

Light in the sky I see the wings shimmer down
Stay for a moment please i need your touch right now
im sorry you can leave 
im sorry if i flinch it stings
I asked the void if what you said meant something

Am I wrong cause you can tell me right 
I know at night baby ill cross your mind
Kiss him with an open eye
But baby I promise you can take your time
Open source fantasize
I hope The city always treats you right
I know you’re paralyzed to see me 
cause you've always been scared to fly

Wings in the night time
A shadow
That night we ran away from fire
You told me it's all right
I smiled
When I went in for the kiss that night
I was terrified
When I saw you come into my sight
I'm terrified


Am I wrong cause you can tell me right 
I know at night baby ill cross your mind
Kiss him with an open eye
But baby I promise you can take your time
You’re welcome to fantasize about it
I hope The city always treats you right
I know you’re paralyzed to see me 
Cause you've always been scared to fly

produced by kimJ ++ 2

super soon

Ima Princess Im Divisive . . . Follow My Lead

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER (EVERY DETAIL U HAVE EVER TOLD ME)

@46b photo by @zzoos

and i know, that i talk too much
like how im supposed to gaf
ion-ion love nun but funds
ye-yea like ion love nun but dru-
shit not even fun
wake up dont remember nun
i think one thing bout myself and then its changin
she calls my name out for help but i feel hated
bring it up she pushes back im like the plaintiff
she gets her way no matter what why am i complaining?

she gets her way no matter what
damn, no im not okay that's a facade im keepin up
know im wide awake cause i do not sleep enough
cause i stay up everyday thinkin bout what happened 'tween us
she gets her way but i dont wanna say nothing
my lungs turnin gray but its okay i'll keep puffing
tell em im doin great, don't know how long i'll keep bluffin
like my mouth is taped don't know how long i'll keep hush

it takes a while to get used to the solace
sun up to sunset im just surrounded by the silence
hide out in my bed im disheveled wont recognize me
whyd i get upset why am i so worried about the obvious?
obviously one day i'll look back and remember how
how i felt that day when there was nothing to talk about
the day that i realized that it was all gon crumble down
i feel pain everyday cause of that day i heard you out

she gets her way no matter what
damn, no im not okay that's a facade im keepin up
know im wide awake cause i do not sleep enough
cause i stay up everyday thinkin bout what happened 'tween us
she-she gets her way but i dont wanna say nothing
my lungs turnin gray but its okay i'll keep puffing
tell em im doin great, don't know how long i'll keep bluffin
like my mouth is taped don't know how long i'll keep hush

her way prod. edyn

them bitches run it when i say i love it
they throwing hands thinking they're scoring something
im being honest im just saying nothing
im being honest im just saying nothing
they growing eyes behind they back they sense my motion
every move i make they run it back, ruin composure
radar on my ass, they on my shit, echolocation
cant be moving fast  
cant be moving-
your girl come to my crib and she gon feel this paper
im gon bless her with this cash, she'll say she'll call you later
she a big boy eater, she dont need a waiter
she'll say she'll run it off, but i dont gotta tell her
i'll make it look so quick, you'll say my wit is in its prime
these bitches cannot break me, no i know they cannot try
fuck them over three times and ill do it again
fuck them over three times and ill do it again
work it work it work it uh
ill make these bitches bow down and they'll pray for it
ive been feeling pretty good, know i can make it worth it
and i know ill stay on top, and yall can hate me for it
pretty bitches gawk at me and ask for shit, while you stay crying
why you staring blank at me like i done made this shit a crime
quit sending me your shit, your ass will never get paid
quit sending me your shit, your ass will never get paid
work it work it work it uh
ill make these bozos stay down, let me do the talking
keltec on my body steady aiming, trigger ready
blow your head smooth off when you do something funny

work it (prod. naviiee)

overdrive.

tribute to @wwnoah

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