https://soundcloud.com/irby314

https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic


you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

paperboy ft. swiiif (uglybeats)

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

@strivemusicau
@shizukesaaa
@autumndropsdead
@torvamia

(strivesad)
Caught in a cage with this endless pain
caught up to my age now I’m getting paid
Depression stays high and now the feelings changed
pour another bottle all apon my grave

you’ve been building roads
I’m building settlements

I keep craving another fucking serotonin hit
let’s flip the script

I don’t need no alliby
come with me and stay the night
Fighting for my life I think I’m doing fine

Ripped clothes now I’m going home
got these problems cause I feel alone
keep me in my zone

(shizu)
beamer swerving 
cuz i deserve the worst shit
bet she gon hit me up w/ 'love u but this isnt working'
might fuck around my blade till i negate the serotonin
now watch the liquid dripping red off slitted wrists, still frozen
find another guy and leave me dying w/ no notice
no i was never that man but fans in my dms saying im chosen
it gets hard to speak every want when everyone is seeing you choking
when words go wasting the space of audio waves to leaving me broken"

(autie)
my conscious is ever so heavy
i've been so cautious ever since you left
i've been holding myself down, with this self doubt
but nevertheless
i swear that i'll know when you need me
you know i'm right there when you're hearing that ringing
i'm patient a bit, but waiting's a bitch
i wish i could split and fuck up my breathing
but if there's anyone out there like me
smite like a god do and make me undying
bottle my goods for a world that is dying
plenish a helt that is tattered with lies
'cause i see through them every single minute
proof is in my dome, that's why i'm livid
tell me that you love him 'till i'm finished
i repel and let them be forgiven

(torva)
smoke until my chest hurts, til my lungs burn
think ill die soon, think ill go first
now my head hurts, never heard worse
if i lose you, need a gold hearse

never fuck it up, bitch i run it up
i go fucking crazy
til i do enough
keep my tommy tucked, never losing love
think i need some help
fore' i lose my trust

Cage w/ strivesad, shizukesa, autumndropsdead & torvamia [+ Tied For Silver x flesh]

prod. josh bae x turro
cover art by @safeatlast <3💜

i swear im feeling wonderful
think those are racks? ill double those
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll

its not fine, but who cares? 
dont look at me, dont dare
mom shoulda told yo ass, dont stare
im boutta get on yo ass, today  
you can tell me anything, i promise it wont bother me,
im inside my yodieland, not caring and counting trees
counting threes, counting twos,
i need my weed, i need my blues
see me next week on a cruise aye
fuck what i see on the news aye
fuck what i see on the daily 
im getting pissed off at tryin' to save me
i dont care for a convo, unless its bout payin me
dont care bout a trick ass hoe that wasn't there for me ;'/
x2
people still scare me, scare me
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll
(awoo!)
hope i dont hit a pothole
im stuck inside the bottle
mom shoulda told yo ass, dont stare
im boutta get on yo ass, today  
im gonna blow real pack today
but im gonna crash hella fast just like every other day	

i swear im feeling wonderful
think those are racks? ill double those
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll

FUCK a team effort
(fuck iiit)
I wear black leather
(fuck uuuu)
im someone ledbetter,
im someone whos been better
(yh!)
you could tell me anything,
and it would probably bother me
(wha!)
cus i can barely stand to walk
and i hope this shit dont wear off,
yh

i need to hurry up
i need to pack it up
uh...
suck that shit up ,
you fucking suck ,
aint bled enough ,
fuck what you smoke, that shit boof
me and divine in a coupe
blasted as hell, we phase thru the roof
wtf we gon do?

counting threes, counting twos,
i need my weed, i need my blues
see me next week on a cruise aye
fuck what i see on the news aye
fuck what i see on the daily 
im getting pissed off at tryin' to save me
dont care for a convo, unless its bout payin me
dont care bout a trick ass hoe that wasnt there for me<3

i swear im feeling wonderful!
think those are racks? ill double those!
brand new life, like fuck these hoes!
im on a mission, i gotta roll!
simply hoping i am not broke,
don't know where the fuck to go..

!💜🔮🔌!

wonderful

ｔｈｅ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ　ｍｅ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｌｏｏｓｅ　ｅｎｄ

i love all of you guys seriously so much.
this is the only thing  i ever want to do, and your support helps push me to continue with all of this; i would regardless, but i'm grateful to no ends for whatever kind of reception is given back. things have been seriously difficult as of late, and so all i can say is thank you for being here. thank you for listening.
shit's kinda cliche when i say that, but that cliche shit is true sometimes, and i mean it; whatever. thank you 
hopefully just the beginning 

prod @cartermetro & @vito2300 

you left (you left)
i crashed (i crashed)
now all we ever had is in the past
(it's all in the past)
i'll stay (away)
detached (from that)
until the very moment i collapse

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
but i couldn't give a shit
hammered down any spite, bring out the knife
lying outside again

and my notes are filled with solutions,
that you might consider delusion
the old me is buried in ruins
the present me is just a loose end
turned off the phone for monochrome daydreams
'cause i don't give a shit if i'm wavy
i mean look at what happened to davy

making a point to you's crazy
crissin' it 'cross like an apple, how tasty
stuck in a drench, while i'm soaking in sweat
more or less i'm expecting nobody to save me
pokemon quest on the blue 2DS
nowadays i'm a wreck, and i stench what i'm craving
heart full of rust,
when the musk fermentates in my chest you can leave what you're hating

i got a pain in my neck, can't stretch it
the hurt in my voice can't be heard over message
so let's make a break where we got no connections
only direction, never perfection
when i talk to the sky, it'll always rain hail
bulimia fucking me up 'till i'm well
"the truth doesn't sell"
leave me for dead with the dread in my head and no breath to inhale

004, blunt force on the baby
there ain't a lure with the potent to save me
getting by as a passerby,
keeping lowered eyes, i'm already hazy
not that i'm lazy,
just marinating in lost time they never gave me
i'm short on breath, should i recollect
or detach, while i'm still straining
i hate that when i fall back into relapse
it's me i'm saving
what a nuisance, when i do this
you're clueless about what i'm saying
so, deuces, 'cause few stick when the roof lifts
i'm sick of waiting
got mucus on my blue lips
from fucked shit i feel on the daily

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
why should i give a shit
hammered down any spite, brought in the knife
i wanna die again

my heart's open
why is my heart open
quick, gotta close it
quick, gotta close it

collapse [prod. cxrter x vito]

next time that she wanna call yeah
im not picking up the phone
i thought i told her on weekends im gone you gotta let it go
ballin up  a fuckin storm yeah
im busy babe i gotta go
you can go and see your other mans
im tryna get to the bags

*get to the bag ah ah ha*

gotta run it up
gotta switch up the flow
just to keep you into it like me i know
im not very fuckin interesting
thats why throwin out my clothes

feel like i gotta make a fuckin clone
cause im always out late, on the phone
gotta keep it on the low
KEEP IT ON THE LOW

always on the road
i like that
keep still nah
keep track
songs piled up like a stack
but none of them coming out (take that)

racks on racks in my bag
dreams so large in my hands
what i say ima do (mean that)
what i do, ima say (thats facts)

next time that she wanna call yeah
im not picking up the phone
i thought i told her on weekends im gone you gotta let it go
ballin up  a fuckin storm yeah
im busy babe i gotta go
you can go and see your other mans
im tryna get to the bags

throwin up the hands if you want 
ima fuck you up again on the clock
got two shoes on two' o clock
rocks on her cause shes hot
emo bitchs callin at my spot

i aint very special its just me
you can suck the cock but earn it baby please
what you gotta do to get to me
what you gotta do to get to me

next time that she wanna call yeah
im not picking up the phone
i thought i told her on weekends im gone you gotta let it go
ballin up  a fuckin storm yeah
im busy babe i gotta go
you can go and see your other mans
im tryna get to the bags

*get to the bag ah ah ha*

gotta run it up
gotta switch up the flow
just to keep you into it like me i know
im not very fuckin interesting
thats why throwin out my clothes

feel like i gotta make a fuckin clone
cause im always out late, on the phone
gotta keep it on the low
KEEP IT ON THE LOW

im not picking up the phone

~2300~

Lyrics:
Eye's on my back
I wanted that
Moments lapse
And I collapse
So you can run and tell your friends
That i'm mental
All the words they use to keep it simple
Paranoid they're watching through the window
Hard to quantify the times I've missed you
Sift through the gore
Red on the floor
Beg me for more
Learned to sleep through the violence now
You let me down

Lot of old friends they don't wanna shake up
When I walk in all I get is fake love
Cut the grass saw the snakes on the way up
Try to code switch on me when the light's off
Lot of new friends hit me when they want sumn
Fake an ego trip i'm really on one
Was it dumb luck
Fell in with the wrong ones
Know why i'm still hung up on what it once was

And if you really bout it you can show me
One foot out of the door in case you're right
No use trying to force it i'll be fine
It seems you've finished your portion of my life

false-hearted

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
feat. casperrr & shizukesa.
art. my friends cat LOL

lyrics:

(please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound, of my voice calling out, so that i can be found)

and i can feel my heart sink in the rain now
so cold thinkin that i might breakdown
feelin lost, feelin lonley, and nobody’s around
and in this storm the waters rising and i think i might drown
please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found

please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found
but no matter how many times i might scream
it doesn’t mean ur any closer to finding me
so now ur looking for a ghost
just give up you’ll never be close

(please just tell me now, u r looking for a ghost)

(caspy)

nana~
can you help me now
pick me up from the ground
i hate loving in doubt
cuz that's when shit goes south

used to look for some1 like u
now i don't have a clue 
of what the fuck i should
to try and forget u

(shizu)

thoughts fadin like the blood on my palm
she saying shit the same well bitch im already gone
guess all the friends change
cuz they dk what im on
suicidal lil prick im jus a dick of a cunt
just a pussy n**** i quit talkin
steady smoking until hittin coughin
ion need help 2 know im the problem
bullet to the dome woulda solved em
only fuck around inside of FL but by next album im offing me
and honestly, been so sick of the calling me
like fuck out of my head

my heart sinks in the rain w/ casperrr & shizukesa. (secre swallowtail x hey rick)

featuring safeatlast -https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast
produced by Ciche&Jarn - https://www.youtube.com/@cichejarn


there's blood on my hands oh christ
can't deal with myself all the time
won't open my eyes

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose

without overdose
baby I might go comatose
xannies in my coat
put another paycheck in my nose

not addicted but I don't know how I could recover
if I was would you still be there for me not another

teenage suicide another stat another number
for the masses

back in school I almost o-d'd on a fuckin Xanax

I would show up off the wall like vans to all my classes

I can't see the future maybe I just need my glasses

fucked it up now i don't even wanna go home
i got problems with myself 
don't leave me alone
wanna melt my brain 
thoughts lead to overload
i cant see a future without overdose
x2

im not picking up the phone

NAVYXOWER

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