[spring]

i guess i'm one to reminisce
about the things from the past
so far gone i can't get them back
last night i cried a lot
thinking about where i came from
and what i did and the outcomes
it all feels like it was just a dream
forgotten songs and melodies

[summer]

it's so sacred
so sacred
and now it's gone from me
but i still make believe
and i don't want to see
i just want to be
the things i thought i could
the things i said i would
serenity
serenity
serenity
serenity 

[autumn]

why does this not feel the same
i haven't done it in a whole decade
and why am i shedding tears now
'cause the folks i knew are not around
i miss my bed and i miss my friends
and i hate how everything good must end
now the windows are blocked by branches and leaves
i don't feel very good its too much for me
it's a symbol of the past that's gone like the wind
i won't recognize it so i don't wanna go in
i feel really dizzy i need to sit down
it looks the same but it's all different now
i didn't know it then but i was full of joy
was another example of a naive boy
just take me back i don't wanna grow up
i'm anxious and scared and i wanna throw up

[winter]

i should've made the most of it when i was still there
but i was busy with daydreams of being elsewhere
and the thought of the future was clouding the present
i didn't take it in and now i really regret it
i'm too late
i'm too late
i'm too late
i'm too late
a whole decade
a whole decade
a whole decade
a whole decade

Minus 10

songs

Belowground  - Social Justice Fag

This song is for the girl that won't stop looking at me in my catholicism class (and Lujan)
edit: I asked out the girl that I wrote the song for. She has a boyfriend.

edit 2 19/07/2024: This is the most important song I've ever made

CIA PSYOP

Another nice afternoon with my Friend Torben

Lunatics 247 / The Glitch / Schmitt & Ratzzz

Gonna Hustle You

After the Game (demo)

Pink Cadillac (demo)

didnt make this just posing music i like.

Trash 3

I Think You Hurt Me Just To Watch Me Cry

I Got To Get Away

so full of sorrow
its a test of my faith
cant picture a tomorrow
cant handle the wait
dont look at me
i dont really like the attention
and i dont want or need
anymore teenage depression
in my life
and i wont lie
im dying inside
but boys dont cry

questioning God's plan
fill my heart with knives
its a teenage wasteland
what a time to be alive
intake propaganda
and dehumanize
yell out like a child
until help arrives

same shit different day
takes a toll on me
and i will always say
happiness will come eventually
but nothing
is guaranteed
for you
or for me

and boys dont cry
its a bad thing to do
boys dont cry
whats wrong with you

on a summer's day
with cicada hums
thinking about the man
i'll become
wondering about
life after death
and how i'll spend
my last breath

dont cry
boys dont cry
so i wont
i'll keep it all inside

After the Game (demo)

NEGATIVE XP