my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

out for blood (heart attack man cover)

Heavy Metal (Alternate Mix)

A Punk Song

Disgusted With Myself

Woke up again today
With no missions and zero strength
I don't know how to play
And I don't want to anyway
Need to delete this game
And go back to another save

But my hard drive's fucked
Zero charisma, zero luck
I don't have any skills
Or the XP to fix my build

The simulation's fucked
Everything and everybody sucks
NPCs hate my guts
I wanna quit, want to log off
I'm not having any fun

(My hard drive's fucked) I'm not having any fun
(Zero charisma, zero luck) I'm not having any fun
(The simulation's fucked) I'm not having any fun
(I'm not having any fun) I'm not having any fun

Life is an RPG and I Fucked Up My Build

VERSE 1
im trapped, im doomed
wasting in my room
it's who i am
barely a man
my voice, my soul
all ever so sore
my "friends", so-called
left me so cold

CHORUS
so cold
why should i fall
at the hands of what i know
and what i dont

VERSE 2
im doomed, im trapped
the empathy i lack
my heart, my hope
all of which are broke
the most of my
pain of which i try
to force away
was caused by me in the first place

CHORUS
so cold
why should i fall
at the hands of what i know
and what i dont
so cold

A Picture Of A Girl Slitting Her Wrists Hidden In A Kids Toy

Sink into the Ground

LYRICS

Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in
Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in

You say the way I see this world is so absurd
I see the way you run this world no justice served...
so Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in
Fuck optics
fuck all this
bullshit I 
still live in

You say that I should watch just what I say,
I look around these streets disgusting and deranged...
so fuck optics.


Fuck optics
fuck what you 
hear I say
you don't like
Fuck optics
fuck what you 
hear I say
you don't like

Thousands of years all burned down with but a word,
one of these years oh we're all just gonna learn...
fuck optics.

Thousands of years all burned down with but a word,
one of these years oh we're all just gonna learn
Thousands of years all burned down with but a word,
one of these years oh we're all just gonna learn...
fuck optics.

Fakeout!

Fuck Optics

ClickToNotVote

I don’t mean to be a weird guy
But it’s my blood it’s in my mind 
I don’t know how to read social cues
I’m scared to make eye contact when talking to you 

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I feel like a fish up on land 
Im out of control, I don’t understand 
Why you’re laughing, was it something I said?
I’m just gonna shut up, never talking again

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I’m an autism haver
Im fucked forever 
I can never talk to you 
Cuz I can’t take the pressure

Please Be Patient I Have Autism

VERSE 1
i believe
in the monsters which lay beneath
my bed, i cradle sheets
all the time

i believe
reptiles run society
i make money from fallen teeth
all the time

and i believe
the moon is made of cheese
that i'm a celebrity
in due time

but i dont believe
that i've ever seen you say a single sentence
that's worthy of my attention

CHORUS
please shut your mouth
you've never said a word
that someone's really heard

yeah, shut your mouth
everyone around
just wants you to pipe down

VERSE 2
you think that it's all okay
to say the things that are on your brain
well i think not

i dont care about your day
yet every day you need to explain
how it was

and i believe
the moon is made of cheese
that i'm a celebrity
in due time

but i dont believe
that i've ever seen you say a single sentence
that's worthy of my attention
so shut your mouth

BRIDGE
i know it must seem
like im being really mean
but trust me when i say
i'm doing this for you

so that maybe
one day we'll finally 
agree on what you say
i'm doing this for you

cuz i dont believe
that i've ever seen you say a single sentence
that's worthy of my attention

CHORUS
please shut your mouth
you've never said a word
that someone's really heard

yeah, shut your mouth
everyone around
just wants you to pipe down

so shut your mouth

Disgusted With Myself

NEGATIVE XP