we sing we smile
we laugh and cry
we run we fly
we crash and die
we thank the lord
and say amen
we lie and sin
and fall again

we sing we smile
we laugh and cry
we run we fly
we crash and die
we thank the lord
and say amen
we lie and sin
and fall again

i'm in love with the idea of
honorable men from days of old
killed myself and all of my friends
in search of glory and gold
why are we so far from heroes
maybe we're not meant to be
the mango tree grows when it's alone
i'm content with everything

and i hate that we're satisfied
with ash
we'll take what we like
and they won't get it back

ashamed of every earthly comfort that we utilize
convincing ourselves that we are perfectly alright
flawed human beings that are rotten to the core
cutting hands and arms and legs and simply living for the gore
struggle burned inside our minds
it's what we both crave
we're no better than savages
we're wicked and depraved

maybe the silence
is worse than the violence
"the horror! the horror!", one day we will exclaim

that's okay

when i wake up
you won't get me to stay
i'm leaving now
i'm going far away
don't ask me where
i won't be back again
i'll say goodbye
and that will be the end

when i wake up
you won't get me to stay
i'm leaving now
i'm going far away
don't ask me where
i won't be back again
i'll say goodbye 
and that will be the end

Glory (The Horror!)

this song is a cover of @negativexp

lil scrappermark delivers

Sports (nxp cover)

Trash 2

sad clown

I know Im feeling great,
Im confident, no pain innate,
Next week is gonna suck
but I don't care.
Insanity reciprocates,
my friends think I am crazy.
Someday Ill be stuck in my bed
and labeled LAZY.

Ill grab my surfboard and ill go down to the beach
Im gonna ride the manic wave (am i insane?)
I know tomorrows gonna suck
right now I do not give a fuck,
hang 10 in pain (unstable brain)

I should go get some help,
but when Im down ive fallen,
I cant hold a steady job for more than a year or two,
Im convinced its normalcy
my feelings come in cycles.
look right out to ocean side
the tide is coming!!

Oh Ill wash out
Ill wash out
Ill wash out
busted knees,
the ocean breeze,
makes me feel I am alive :)

Ride the Manic Wave (Bipolar Surfing)

lyrics: 
Arguing online is fun
I think we both agree
And everything is wonderful 
Until you run into me..
Sending me long paragraphs,
Ill just send you your IP
Tineyes on your photographs
Lets see your history

And I'll Prey and Ill prey
Digging deep into your footprint
I will see every move that you make.

No hair, Gross Beard
Fat physiogomy 
Family photos show me everything 
White page address, voter registry
Your address says youre an hour away from me

Locked and loaded in my van 
I got a couple guns and bombs
Suburbia is convenient 
Because you have no place to run 
All this it's because 
 you had to argue with me
Now I'll get the final words 
I'll empty magazines 

And I'll Prey and Ill prey
Digging deep into your footprint
I will see every move that you make.

No hair, Gross Beard
Fat physiogomy 
Family photos show me everything 
White page address, voter registry
Your address says youre an hour away from me
Get doxxed 



Doxxing

girl fron wonderland original DEMO

Hide My Face (demo)

Hugs Not Drugs (demo)

Pink Cadillac

Jim Beam & Grits

Mix of 1965 by Negative XP and Deep in Thought by steakfry, two of my favorite songs.

Hugs Not Drugs (demo)

NEGATIVE XP