my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

say a prayer for me
i got my finger on the trigger and it's ready to squeeze
say a prayer for me
i got involved with someone who feels no empathy
say a prayer for me
i'm sick of letting God down habitually
say a prayer for me
i don't want to spend more time in purgatory
cuz when you're on my mind you make me wanna die (x4)
say a prayer for me
my fingers tremble while holding my rosary beads
say a prayer for me
mortal sins are the only gifts you've given to me
say a prayer for me
i know the only thing you love is your twitter feed
say a prayer for me
i'll never fit into your communist fantasy

Say A Prayer For Me

Co-written by Me and @azyng

Lyrics:
I can't believe all these things I see,
flying by my eyes in some clever disguise,
feels like I'm losing touch, or I just know too much,
either way I'll be out for lunch.

The older I get, the more I forget
The lessons I've learned, just made me dumber
These streets I walk through, I'll forget too,
with everything else I thought I knew.

I can't feel bliss, in ignorance's kiss,
there must be somethin more to this,
losing brain cells, from what I cannot tell,
tryna get to heaven, from this cruel hell.

The older I get, the more I forget,
The lessons I learned, just made me dumber,
These streets I walk through, yeah I'll forget too,
with everything else I thought I knew.

(With everything else I thought I knew.)

Solo

The More I Learn, The Less I Know

out for blood (heart attack man cover)

Spit your staged grief
Twist it for your chosen audience
False scars flaunted
Begging for a witness to your storm
Crafted fragile cries
Claiming torment built from hollow gestures
Still you circle hoping someone trembles
For you

As if I should kneel
Now
Now
As if I should kneel
Now
Now

Wearing martyr masks for praise
Wearing martyr masks for praise

Bent pose shown
Meant to frame your self-made agony
Cheap rites staged
Built to drag the room into your script
Tales you whisper loud
Urging shadows close to hide your fractures
Still you circle hoping someone trembles
For you

As though I pull loose lies
Down
Down
As though I pull loose lies
Down
Down
As though I pull loose lies
Pulled down
Pulled down
Pulled down
As though I pull loose lies
Pulled down
Down

Wearing martyr masks for praise
Wearing martyr masks for praise

Show your pose
Angle every break for sympathy
Scripted grief spread
Built to make your downfall feel prophetic
Would you tear yourself apart to look holy
Rather than stand plain without an audience
I won’t carry weight you forged from theater

Wearing martyr masks for praise

Girls Are Dumb

Sports

You said hello then you said goodbye
Then you said hello once more
I let you in then you walked right out
So now I locked the door
No more open book soliloquies
No more wearing my heart on my sleeve
I fucked it up by spilling my guts
Now I keep it all inside of me

I would rather die alone
Than live life with your love
I would rather die a lonely death
Then rest with the angels up above

I don't know where you been or what you did
Nor do I care to hear you confess
Because I really don't want to know
It's not any of my business
I've learned to look down on love
I've learned that I can't hold on
To the way I used to be used to you
Or the way that you made me blue

So I'd rather die alone
Than live life with your love
I would rather die a lonely death
Then rest with the angels up above
I would rather never see your face
Or hear your voice again
Never read a message that you wrote to me
Until I'm finally dead
Because the Lord knows I tried
But you had to let me down
I guess that's all right
Who cares it's all over now

Die Alone

Kyle

late for my class again
dont care about the shit that im learning
and all the kids here are so uptight
picking fights thinking that theyre so fucking bright

smoking weed binge drinking
so degenerate what are they thinking
its all a big waste of time i hate this place
they need a kick in the face

sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts

late night go out
try to see what the night life is all about
its all stupid drunk ass kids picking fights
trying to get girls to suck their dicks

its just a big adult day care
paid for by their parents its unfair
no one really wants to be here
wasting their time for a shitty career

sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts
sick of all these college cunts
i hate their fucking guts

Kyle

NEGATIVE XP