last time i spoke to you 
i didn't know what i was supposed to do with myself
got something to tell you now
but don't roll your eyes at me... i'm not crying for help

last night i had a dream 
that i found a back way out from living hell
i'd give it all to get back with you
but with all said and done, i know that ship's sailed as well

every time i close my eyes i feel so worn...
can you remember way back when before you were born?

i'm on a speedboat yeah 
and i'm flipping at high speed
i'm on a speedboat
i always feel like no one even likes me

a bit of cracklin' rosie helps me
keep the feelings inside me down
i hit the bottle and doze off smiling
...still wake up every day with a frown

i've lived a turbulent life already
turbulence kept the urge at bay
but now they're saying "it's time to slow down"
no way... no way

every time i close my eyes i feel so worn...
can you remember way back when before you were born?

i'm on a speedboat yeah 
and i'm flipping at high speed
i'm on a speedboat
i always feel like no one even likes me

well it's already over for me
this is a one way trip
i'm gonna flip my boat at high speed
and you know the captain goes down with the ship

i'm on a speedboat yeah 
and i'm flipping at high speed
i'm on a speedboat
i always feel like no one even likes me...

Deep As Puddles

Speedboat

Burdened by my pain
Heavy like the rain
Stained with my desire
Hot like burning fire
Tread the open road
Earn what must be owed
Evil forces they
Want to take away, take away

My shield and sword
I'll fight and forge
I'll fight the world
Fight for my reward
I'll kill and smite
I'll fight and die
I'll kill and smite
I'll fight and die

Troubled and dismayed
Toiling night and day
It seeps into my bones
It never goes but grows
Haunted with remorse
That guides the righteous course
Evil forces they
Want to take away, take away

My shield and sword
I'll fight and forge
I'll fight the world
Fight for my reward
I'll kill and smite
I'll fight and die
I'll kill and smite
I'll fight and die

Shield & Sword

It's all your fault but you blame me
You mention me in therapy
I came up, you got upset
You got mad on the internet

You tell all your friends you hate me
You tell your whole family
I got paid, you went in debt
You complained on the internet

I am not your savior
I don't even like your shirt

Hate me and let it always follow you
Forsake me in everything that you do
Betray me so I can turn my back on you

Hate me, hate me, hate me
Hate me, hate me, hate me

It's all your fault but you blame me
You mention me in therapy
Your therapist thinks you're a bitch
I think you should slit your wrists

I am not your savior
I don't even like your shirt

Hate me and let it always follow you
Forsake me in everything that you do
Betray me so I can turn my back on you
Hate me, hate me, hate me
Hate me, hate me, hate me
Hate me, hate me, hate me
Hate me, hate me, hate me

Hate Me (Original Version)

tzarbombah's my rage, I do not own this nor do i claim to, i am just an archivist

my rage

I'm Pretty Sure I'm Autistic

*DISCLAIMER*
all music belongs to tzarbombah, i do not claim to own any of it, i am just an archivist

based and redpilled

birth control turns woman into whores

Sitting here, in my room
Full of junk, and moldy cups.
Motivation is so finite.
I lost all reason, I reject life.
I dont give a fuck about the job that I held,
I don't give a fuck about a life.
I don't give a fuck if you call me a loser,
I hate myself, alright?
I dont give a shit, Im a college dropout
I cannot commit.
To a job or career that'll help myself, 
My world has turned to shit..

Sitting here, I feel unloved,
I hate myself, I know Im ugly.
I act real tough, shitpost online.
I have no friends, that live nearby.

I know for a fact that i cant be loved
Ill live alone then die.
I know Ill fall for the vicious cycle.
Ill fall in love then cry.
I dont know why I do this bit,
My world has turned to shit.
I tried so hard to avoid being jaded,
fuck it I forfeit.

Dystopian Loser

It maybe nothing but I think ive gone insane
all the polysaturation in the fat inside my brain
I, wish i could eat it, all the fast food burger chains
All the things i eat and the shit I crave
Cuz I dont care about the way that I act
all the food that I eat is to blame
Im an NPC in the USA 
ALL THE SEED OILS THEY FRY MY BRAIN'
I dont give a fuck for the natural fats
I dont have time to cook or clean
Im a based fat fuck and im riding on luck
ALL THE SEED OILS THEY FRY MY BRAIN

I feel Im starving, well I think its time to eat
and I wanna cook up something and I wanna fry it deep
in, in an oil that will kill me in my sleep
I am 35 and my colon bleeds

Seed Oil Brain Rot

strung outtt

Digital Abyss

if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i wait and wait
but nothing good happens for me
i pray to fly but when i die 
my feet are still flat on the ground
my feet are still flat in the ground
my brain is good, no legs of wood
but if you could i think you should

if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i waited so long
but nothing good happens for me
if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i waited so long
but nothing good happened for me

if they could they’d fly away
to never see this sinful place
and i would too i can’t be mad
‘cus this whole world is fucking sad
if i had wings i’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i’m not a pig nothing to dig for
i’m just sinful (i’m not better)
i’m not a pig nothing to dig for
i’m just sinful (i’m not better)

if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i waited so long
but nothing good happens for me
if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i waited so long
but nothing good happened for me

i prayed to fly but when i die
my feet are still flat in the ground
my brain is good, no legs of wood
but if you could i think you should
if i had wings i’d fly away 
and never grace this earth again
(it’s so bad)


if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i waited so long
but nothing good happens for me
if pigs could, they’d fly away
and never grace the earth again
i wait and wait i waited so long
but nothing good happened for me



Shield & Sword

NEGATIVE XP