shoutout @decago n @1altr

every day that passes by
i rly wanna die 
i wanna go 2 sleep forevr i jus wanna cry
ur presense made me feel whole
felt like i could try
n now that ur gone i rly wanna die
restarting my life i wanna fkn damn retry :) 

ik im the problem 
my life that im not solving
counting days till im not here 
cant see myself so clearly
i cant seem 2 escape these problems
i been hiding in the darkness
restarting my life wont solve em 
ik that im the issue- 

i dnt wanna miss u (miss uuu)
i jus wanna kiss u (kiss uuu)
ik im the issue (issue)
crying in my room i miss u

i dnt wanna feel this way jus anymore
i been hating myself 2 the core
i wanna die 
i wanna die baby
i dnt wanna feel my emotions lately
cant keep this 2 myself yeah i cant hide it
evry day that passes by i feel dying
my own life yeah that imma be jus ending
i dnt wanna live this way anymore

itwouldbebetterifiwasdead (decago x altr)

@imytrauma
@jolst @irby314

can u make me the one u count on
i been trudgin for hours i havent found no one
i can scrub i can scour im still covered in mud
do i love u enough or do i hate me too much
i love the way i feel when i catch a dub, dont think i can stop
i got packets in my sock. love it when they rap my songs
play it on the speaker, dont even know the words
but they still bumpin their head when i speak em
i come from a place where its day by day
gotta pray to god everytime that u wake
that today is gonna be ok...... but it never was
i made it dis far why would i stop. i can not

nvr stop, fk it had to run it up
i was chasing luv, heart broke now i’m chasin funds
i-i-i was at the bottom, i hit bed rock
me n twin came so far from the bed rot 
jump on that stage, i make their heads rock (heads rock)
she wanna get a pic on the camera (camera)
pussies on my dick, do not answer
when we at the top, no they don’t matter
each day matters
if it doesn’t work
see the walls, red splattered
they b so behind, gotta catch up (catch up)
smoke u like a cone, u get packed up, whack cunt

day by day ft trauma (jolst irby).mp3

"broken key to forever" produced by @cloudbxy1
Performed/Written by @counterxo

broken key to forever

broken key to forever (cloudbxy)

@haunted_sad
ya baby ya u nvr needed me
u left me in the background jus so easily
i let u in i shouldnt have trusted u

shattered dreams scars i wear on my heart
i watched u and me the way that we fell apart
ya u replaced me ya u jus left me
all the lies we had it was neverlasting

i popped a pill to feel alright baby
was always waiting for death to fkn take me
i knew baby that #imtheissue (im the issue)
cryin in my head again think i miss u
idling away in my room im decaying
u left my heart baby ya u jus drained me
u pushed my face in the dirt u betrayed me
ya baby sry tht i couldnt save u :(( 
i thought baby tht i could jus save u
im spiraling back down lately what do i do?
ive been sading away lonely in my fkn room
i wrote all these songs jus tryna forget u
neverending letter baby that u never sent
u ripped the soul outta me left me feeling #dead
i dnt wanna rly feel my heart baby
lately i want death 2 jus take me

i dont feel alright baby
evry single night i want death to take me
lately i dnt wanna feel anymore
i hate myself baby 2 the fkn core ++
..
@ritsuzuki
I broke so many promises
you done messed up for the last time
you gave no fucks about us
you'd rather forget it all
and it hurts me
but now i cant give no fucks anymore
i hate everybody
i cant look them in the face
its like,
no one really sees the truth in my eyes
gotta end it now
its too late its already worse
break the mirror
yeah i messed up my skin forever

yourippedthesouloutofme w/ritsu (spaceboyry)

"these tired eyes" produced by @shikaiii
Performed/Written by @counterxo

these tired eyes (!yukik0) #NES2WO

bby wanna kno what i’m into
scared to show my scars or my mental
searching for a reason to live for
i don’t feel alone when i’m with u
i can paint the starz
u can paint the moon
all i saw was grey until i met u
girl u bring me colour
js kno that i love ya
i was at the end of my rope when u found me
ur the only one who ever makes me feel seen
imma take that chance, imma take that leap
u can have my heart, it is urs to keep

@yyuskee
i got u stuck in my mind from the first day
that i heard ur voice saying my name
put ur pride away
would u come my way
baby js say
imma b on my way
i dont care what it takes
baby js stay, wish that i could take away ur pain
i know that alot of things have changed
baby youll always be a part of my heart
our fates now locked in
theres no way to stop it
our paths intertwining
no matter how far
ill get to ur heartbeat
in sync to mine
until i die

when i said i love u, js kno i truly mean that
touchin on my body, girl u make me feel so seen (yeah)
i’m not perfect, but i try my best, yeah i promise
longing, crying in my bed til i found it

bby wanna kno what i’m into
scared to show my scars or my mental
searching for a reason to live for
i don’t feel alone when i’m with u
i can paint the starz
u can paint the moon
all i saw was grey until i met u
girl u bring me colour
js kno that i love ya
i was at the end of my rope when u found me
ur the only one who ever makes me feel seen
imma take that chance, imma take that leap
u can have my heart, it is urs to keep

colour w/ yuske (1mint + yashio + decago)

birthday drop 

@dinosaurslover

I'ma hit the road, see u real soon 
hold u real close, I don't wanna move 
cuz when I let u go, I see the hard truth
a truth so cold, a truth I knew

a truth I've known 

ignored all the signs cuz I want it to be u 
for most of my life i just felt like I'm see through
we're on different pages, all so unequal
I shouldn't have waited, it don't make u evil 

ur not a bad person, ur as lost as I am 
I feel like I burden every one of my close friends 
it's really concerning, how long I've been closed in 
the world kept turning, time kept going 
and I swear I'll grow out of it, won't be scared of this life I live 
gotta take care cuz it's all I get, only I have my back when I go slip

(over at ur crib for the night girl 
show me that u'll do me right girl
crash land straight into your world 
you're shy but I like it when you bite girl)

I'ma hit the road, see u real soon 
hold you real close, I don't wanna move 
cuz when I let u go, I see the hard truth
a truth so cold, a truth I knew

a truth I've known 

ignored all the signs cuz I want it to be u 
for most of my life i just felt like I'm see through
we're on different pages, all so unequal
I shouldn't have waited, it don't make u evil 

(over at ur crib for the night girl 
show me that u'll do me right girl
crash land straight into your world 
you're shy but I like it when you bite girl)

ur not evil (dinosaur)

urs to keep <3

lyrics:

i try, can’t do nothing right
i want you in my life
stay close, don’t say goodbye
stay, stay right by my side

i try, i can’t do nothing right
i want you in my life
stay close, don’t say goodbye
stay, stay right by my side

i can feel the heat coming off your skin
pouring out my heart, ima let you in
havent felt this way in a long time
open up your heart, you can take mine

looked at your face, you looked at mine
do you want this? i can’t read your mind
it’s been so long that i’ve felt this nice
as we kiss, worlds collide

i could pick you up tonight
i’m not tryna waste your time
i just wanna feel alive 
i want you in my life

i try, can’t do nothing right
i want you in my life
stay close, don’t say goodbye
stay, stay right by my side

i try, can’t do nothing right
i want you in my life
stay close, don’t say goodbye
stay, stay right by my side

my head keeps spinning and spinning again
you’re on my mind, i could get used to this
i feel so high, i don’t want this to end
you by my side, how bout that? picture this

i can feel the heat coming off your skin
pouring out my heart, ima let you in
havent felt this way in a long time
open up your heart, you can take mine

i try, i can’t do nothing right
i want you in my life
stay close, don’t say goodbye
stay, stay right by my side

day by day ft trauma (jolst irby).mp3

neohn