i love you so much, and thank you.. <3

-ally

earth to you

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

Music, art & animation made by nheve / Coffee in a Spaceship.

You can also find this song (with animation and lyrics) on youtube: https://youtu.be/A9Skvdk2kNo

Already Dead

prod. sorrow bringer <3

Lyrics:

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

you're dodging my messages fuck you i'll erase it
back to the board ye we back to the basics
you lost me your value and i lost my patience >:(
love are you deaf can you hear what i'm saying
fuck it you win i'm so done with the chases
was so codependent i'm embarassed to say it
but now i feel like i'm a god in the making
so watch from her arms while i exit my caging.

watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging
watch from her arms while i exit my caging

guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
she give me brain cuz
she just wanna taste mine
yea!
i could never take sides
guess i turned into the paragraph guy
i've always had a little more on my mind
i've told less shit to my mom than my mic
yea!
guess i'll cut ties

paragraph guy (sorrowbringer)

nothing left for me here

soblue [dead spyro]

tbh idk why im here
i jus wanna disa-fucking-ppear
i dont even wanna be alive
i wanna be alive
sorry
that i had to do this to you
this to you.
and i wish i could be someone to you
so what if i rhyme "you" with "you" forever?
i know that ill never, ever, ever, get better
maybe im wrong if so im sorry

tbh idk why im here
i jus wanna disa-fucking-ppear
i dont even wanna be alive
i wanna be alive
im.. sorry..
that i had to do this to you 
and i wish i could be someone to ☆you~☆

its kinda scary how easy it is to not exist
im not tryna exaggerate it but i look in the mirror, & say:
"WHO IS THIS?!"
"I'M SO SAD."
"I'M SOOOOOO"
"SAD!"

i don't wanna be here w/ emptychest (okmax + yuko)

Written by: Lizzie Calisto
Produced by: sorrow bringer
Mix and Master by: Chris Martsolf

[LYRICS}

Prisms of violet light reflect off my skin tonight
Tiny sparkles and specks flicker in fading moonlight
I shouldn't be here, but to leave now just wouldn't be right
I hear don't eat of the apple, but I know I just might

I take a walk up that hill, the dead of night at my back
Inside there's nothing to feel, I still don't know how to act
Slivers of light shine, the whites of your eyes attack
I catch a glimpse before everything fades to black

Forbidden fruit, oh now, what did I do?
Cause all hell broke loose as I was reaching for you
And now I live with the pain of starting over again
Forbidden fruit, I should've never have eaten it

Lead me in
Play around
Fill me up
Spit me out
(I should've never have eaten it)

Forbidden fruit, oh now what did I do?
Cause all hell broke loose as I was reaching for you
And now I live with the pain of starting over again
Forbidden fruit, I should've never have eaten it

Prisms of violet light reflect off my skin tonight
Tiny sparkles and specks flicker in fading moonlight
I shouldn't be here, but to leave now just wouldn't be right
I hear don't eat of the apple, but I know I just might
(I hear don't eat of the apple, but I know I just might)

Forbidden Fruit (Prod. sorrow bringer)

sweet summer romance brings the fall over again
autumn leaves match with the same color of his skin
not even for a second did i think that this was it
teardrop on the same floor our clothes had once lived

no need for more carnage past the cardiac damage
but now that im all alone i havent found it hard to manage
no stressors in my life nobody tellin me im past this
i could live another life and id still be making music
as a bard or a knight i dont mind whatever role fits
but this time my steel plating it really got done in
these cuts on my abdomen, the wounds werent closin
he stabbed me with such force that the knife is still stuck in

i stabilize what i can, no pullin it out, just gotta tank it
on my reinhardt shit, ill shatter earth before the weed hits
i wanna know everything about her like how she feelin?
i wanna know what happened like how are you dealin?
i wanna know where you go when your ghosts are on your shoulder
n they feed off your depression n they make you so much colder

as a person, i wish you could see the you that i do
i would do whatever i could to trade eyes n see the light through

this tunnel bears a trecherous path but i promise its so worth it
i jus wanna see you happy outta anyone, you truly deserve it
i know you tried your best to see it through but i can tell your hurtin
heal from what you can n i promise ill pick up all the pieces

i want to know everything about her (prod. s0ftskeletons)

i feel like im outta my mind
way i been happy all the time
high then low like the tide
i cant change na my hands tied
homegrown pack until im fried
i could never fuckin cry
over a whore and that’s on my
love i store, passion my crime
talk your shit bitch you can try
talk your shit bitch you can—

you would never really get it
i wont pry ill jus forget it
i can tell jus from your grimace
care too much about your image
used to pain and so you seek it

all these sins that i inhibit
got cracks formin in my spirit
ash the blunt yea i jus dead it
got me, fucked up, in a minute
where you at? it’s been a minute
this life I really live it
ride with my bro in the civic
clear my mind when my hearts breakin

i just wanna heal from the damage that you caused
baby whats the deal why you actin so alarmed
if only i could steal, your one and only heart
but the damage is too far, your too far gone
2 far gone you’re
2 far gone
x4

2fargone (prod. may3ke)

Lyrics:

Long nights of just talking
u left and I am stalking
no love from you im starving
baby come back 
you are what im loving

Tell me what I should do
baby Im loving you
I can change
If you want to
I can change if you
want me    to

If you want me to. (prod. all we left unsaid)

Hello, im nheve and i create music, art and also games/projects in Godot engine.

I enjoy all the music that was created from heart, just for the love of making music and with intention of sharing and expressing your true self.
For me, the genre doesnt matter and technical quality is always secondary. If you share similar sentiment, i would love to talk to you, and im open to collab if youre interested.

You can contact me on discord through username: nheve

Already Dead

anne nheve

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