Get Back To My Roots

This song is from the time just before my father passed away one year ago. 14 03 2022

I sat in his living room and recorded in the evenings in very poor conditions. I recorded to distract myself from the fact that my father, who was lying in his bed sleeping just in the next room was dying and very soon.
I was able to help him during his last weeks in life. It was a beautiful experience to take part of and very sad too. I came him very close in the end and there was just peace between us. Father and son.

Most of the lyrics I have lent somewhere from a poem in the public domain and You can hear the sorrow in my voice I think.

I wasn't really sure of releasing this at first and now I feel like it's a part of me grieving in the song and part of me creating something vulnarable and true.

Peace...

Bernt Evert Fredriksson
Born January 31st 1945 in Mariefred, Sweden
Died March 14th 2022 in Mariefred, Sweden
My beloved father

oh Father forsaken

Oh Father Forsaken - [Requiem for Bernt]

You underestimate the scars you left
Left to rest within a sense of breath
I’m breathing yeah I’m breathing
More to adore you
And I’m breathing yeah I’m breathing
More to simply adore you
Save me from you
Save me from you
Put to rest any shame you claim
Shed the blame go on leave that pain
So I can see you
That’s all I want to do
Sitting in the darkness, I see no other end 
Seems that pretty little life you had has gone away again
Sitting in the darkness, you try and hide away
You try to leave the pain you try to find a way
Sitting in the darkness you’re falling apart
Losing you to pieces of a girl you never are
Sitting in the darkness, you’re all alone
A broken soul a broken home

I sit by myself and contemplate
Why I’m floating here under all this weight
Buried to my shoulders, I can't stand up
Everything has buried the man I once was

Break free

Break me

Buried

songs used:
    Razzi - Buried 
        https://soundcloud.com/robbie-rocker/buried
    Razzi soundcloud:
        https://soundcloud.com/robbie-rocker

    Misk Music - Misk - Insomnia (Reggaeton) 
        https://soundcloud.com/misk-melvin/misk-insomnia-reggaeton
    Misk Music soundcloud:
        https://soundcloud.com/misk-melvin
    Misk Music youtube:
        https://www.youtube.com/user/Misk2007

You underestimate the scars you left
Left to rest within a sense of breath
I’m breathing yeah I’m breathing
More to adore you
And I’m breathing yeah I’m breathing
More to simply adore you
Save me from you
Save me from you
Put to rest any shame you claim
Shed the blame go on leave that pain
So I can see you
That’s all I want to do
Sitting in the darkness, I see no other end
Seems that pretty little life you had has gone away again
Sitting in the darkness, you try and hide away
You try to leave the pain you try to find a way
Sitting in the darkness you’re falling apart
Losing you to pieces of a girl you never are
Sitting in the darkness, you’re all alone
A broken soul a broken home

I sit by myself and contemplate
Why I’m floating here under all this weight
Buried to my shoulders, I can't stand up
Everything has buried the man I once was

Break free

Break me

Razzi & Misk Music - Buried  V3 (dj Baubau Remix)

The Curve

Good Vibration

All we do is cry all we do is cry
All we do is tear each other down for nothing
All we do is fight all we do is fight
All we do is break our intent with misapprehension

Oh what a shame
I don't wanna do this no more

Whispers fill the void
Destruction we could not avoid
Where are you now
Are you alone
I bet you feel it now
I bet you fucking feel it now
Do you feel it now
I bet you really fucking feel it now
Its deep inside you

You 
Don't 
Really 
Fucking know 
What it feels like 
To hurt
Inside 
With pain

You're gonna know now
You're gonna know every little thing inside that you will feel
Where are you now
Are you alone
I bet you feel it now
I bet you really fucking feel it now

Do you feel it now

A track I created about 8 months ago. I had it posted but then removed it for more editing. Figured it was time to let it see some light...all vocals music and production done by this guy....enjoy...

When you find yourself
When you find yourself sitting alone
When you find yourself
When you find yourself sitting alone
When you tell yourself 
When you tell yourself it'll be okay
When you tell yourself 
When you tell yourself it'll be okay

And you know
And you know

When you find yourself
When you find yourself sitting alone
When you tell yourself 
When you tell yourself it'll be okay

And you know
And you know

And You Know

I wanted to create a different kind of track. Something that had a different feel and vibe than my usual dark and brooding sound. I decided to learn to play a few piano chords and this whole track came together organically from those 4 chords. My vocal tone isn't quite back to normal yet but I'm personally diggin it on this track. As usual all lyrics, vocals, music and production all done by this guy. I hope you feel it and enjoy. 

She wants a love song
The feeling of love is so foreign to me
She wants a love song
Repeatedly her words just tore into me
She wants a love song
I told her that I never felt this way
She wants a love song
I'm always trying to run 
But with her I'm trying to stay
She wants a love song

We wanted what we could not have
We separated ends of the earth
And now we've gotten what we could not have
A thousand days have passed
And we still cant quench the thirst
Everything  you always were
Everything I am
Everything we're going to be
We weather together

I don't do love songs
I'm always hating at the end of mine
I don't do love songs
Too many women speaking venom 
And straight messing with my mind
I don't do love songs
That's why it hits me any minute 
Anytime of the day
I just wanna love you 
In my own kind of way

You pulled me from the brink...pulled me from the brink

You question just how deep I go for you
And you question just how much I'm loving you
You can question every goddamn thing
Question every goddamn thing
You can question every goddamn thing
But just
Just don't question us
We wanted what we could not have
We separated to the ends of the earth
And now we've gotten what we could not have 
And we are together 
It's a new life rebirth
She wants a love song
I don't do love songs

She wants a love song

This song is from the Album “A Soundtrack To A Film That Dosen’t Exist Pt. 1” out June 7, 2024
Hope you all enjoy.

Chainsaw performance by Marcianne O’Day

Crime Scene Number 2

Soul Searchin'

A happy guy living in Sweden. Like to do music and tries to learn along the way.
Collaborations are fun and most welcome.

Oh Father Forsaken - [Requiem for Bernt]

nic

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