[Verse 1]
I used to count the shadows, pray the night would take me whole
Hands shaking, chest aching, demons carved out every soul
Every reflection in the mirror whispered I was done
Every heartbeat a reminder that I could never outrun
I walked the streets like a ghost, invisible, ignored
Hurt like a sermon I’d never heard, love like a locked door
But somewhere deep in the static, I heard a voice scream clear
“Your mind’s a weapon, kid — it’s time to draw the fear near”

[Pre-Chorus]
I ain’t healed, I ain’t clean, but I ain’t dead tonight
I made a deal with my darkness — told it I’d fight

[Chorus]
I used to be suicidal, drowning in the night
Till I learnt to manifest my mind and summon all my fight
I turned my scars into armor, every nightmare into flame
I ain’t the same broken boy — I’m the storm with my own name
I used to be suicidal, but now I craft my fate
I walk the haunted alleyways, but I decide the gate

[Verse 2]
They don’t see the nights I screamed at God, at life, at pain
They don’t know the weight of silence, the cage inside my brain
I saw angels in the chaos, devils in my mirror glass
Every tear I shed was gasoline to burn the past
I played with thoughts of endings, danced with the idea of none
But the louder I was screaming, the more I realized I’d won
Manifestation isn’t magic — it’s a war within your skull
Every vision, every choice, makes a haunted mind feel whole

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I ain’t cured, I ain’t peaceful, but the hunger keeps me right
I sharpened all my madness, now I’m ready for the fight

[Chorus]
I used to be suicidal, drowning in the night
Till I learnt to manifest my mind and summon all my fight
I turned my scars into armor, every nightmare into flame
I ain’t the same broken boy — I’m the storm with my own name
I used to be suicidal, but now I craft my fate
I walk the haunted alleyways, but I decide the gate

[Bridge]
Every shadow tried to claim me, every whisper tried to lie
But I drew lines in the darkness — told the fear to say goodbye
I built a palace in my skull, room by room, brick by brick
Every thought a hammer, every dream a candle lit
I ain’t happy, I ain’t healed, but I ain’t gone
I’m the storm, the chaos — but I still carry on

[Verse 3]
They called me broken, called me lost, said I’d never see the day
But I manifest my fury, turn my nightmares into play
I walk with shadows on my shoulder, but I lead the way
I am the haunted soldier in the war I’ll never betray
Every scar’s a map, every tear’s a lesson learned
Every sleepless night a candle, every fear a torch that burned
I used to be suicidal, but I’m alive to redefine
Every curse, every threat, every echo of my mind

[Final Chorus]
I used to be suicidal, drowning in the night
Till I learnt to manifest my mind and summon all my fight
I turned my scars into armor, every nightmare into flame
I ain’t the same broken boy — I’m the storm with my own name
I used to be suicidal, but now I craft my fate
I walk the haunted alleyways, but I decide the gate

[Outro]
I ain’t done with darkness, it’s part of who I am
But I learned to summon power, to take back what I can
I used to be suicidal — now I manifest my mind
And in the echo of the haunted night, I leave the fear behind

I Used To Be Suicidal Until I Learnt To Manifest My Mind

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I Used To Be Suicidal Until I Learnt To Manifest My Mind

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