Depresion Music

Depression Is a Disease (ALBUM)

sad songs to fall asleep to

I wrote this song about my addiction to drugs which led to deep depression and suicidal thoughts. Creating my art helped me to get thru it. I'm now 7 months sober.

LYRICS

Verse 1

On the roof getting high
I got diesel in my veins
Thinkin’ bout suicide
There’s no Jesus in LA

But i still see him sometimes
Sittin’ on the Walk of Fame
Next to Jekkyl and Hyde
The voices saying…

BYE! BYE!
There’s no tomorrow
BYE! BYE!
Drowning my sorrows

Hook

Father forgive me 
I’m sorry for my sins
So tired of living 
Oh where do I begin?

The coke, the whiskey
I smoke ‘til I’m dizzy
I’m so fucking filthy
Forgive me for my sins

Verse 2

My phone’s bout to die
I only got 1 call
I almost slipped off the side
‘Til an angel broke my fall

Then we drove through the night
And we talked about it all
I thank God I survived
The voices saying…
BYE! BYE!
There’s no tomorrow
BYE! BYE!
Drowning my sorrows

BYE! BYE!
There’s no tomorrow
BYE! BYE!
Drowning my sorrows

Hook 2

Father forgive me 
I’m sorry for my sins
So tired of living 
Oh where do I begin?

The coke, the whiskey
I smoke ‘til I’m dizzy
I’m so fucking filthy
Forgive me for my sins

Guitar Solo

Hook 3

Father forgive me 
I’m sorry for my sins
But wait just kidding
Oh where do I begin?

The coke, the whiskey
I smoke ‘til I’m dizzy
I’m so fucking filthy
Forgive me for my sins

SINS!

SINS

The official track "CLOSE MY EYES" by Parker Jack and Chyde.

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PARKER JACK, CHYDE - CLOSE MY EYES

[Intro]
Step inside…
My lonely dark world…
No light, just shadows…
No sound, just echoes of pain…

[Verse 1]
Every corner hides a fear I can’t face,
Every mirror shows a hollowed-out place.
Silent screams trapped behind my eyes,
Drowning in my own storm, no disguise.
No hand to hold, no voice to hear,
Just me and my demons, always near.
I walk alone through the endless night,
Every step a battle, every breath a fight.

[Pre-Chorus]
You can’t save what’s lost inside,
You can’t break the chains I hide.
This world’s a prison, no escape in sight,
Just me and the darkness I fight.

[Chorus]
My lonely dark world, it’s eating me alive,
Every heartbeat’s a war just to survive.
I’m screaming at the void, but it never replies,
My lonely dark world, where hope dies.
I’m fighting shadows that claw at my chest,
No light, no mercy, no moment of rest.
This pain is mine, it won’t let me go,
My lonely dark world, it’s all I know.

[Verse 2]
Friends fade, smiles lie, I’m on my own,
Building walls from the pain I’ve known.
Every laugh, every touch, just a distant dream,
Trapped in a nightmare with no escape scheme.
The night whispers lies I can’t undo,
Telling me the world is through.
But I keep moving, fists clenched tight,
Through my lonely dark world, I’ll survive the fight.

[Pre-Chorus]
You can’t fix the hollow I’ve become,
You can’t outrun what I’ve done.
This world’s a cage, but I bear the scars,
I’m fighting my demons beneath the stars.

[Chorus]
My lonely dark world, it’s eating me alive,
Every heartbeat’s a war just to survive.
I’m screaming at the void, but it never replies,
My lonely dark world, where hope dies.
I’m fighting shadows that claw at my chest,
No light, no mercy, no moment of rest.
This pain is mine, it won’t let me go,
My lonely dark world, it’s all I know.

[Bridge]
I’m alone… but I’m not weak…
I feel every cut, every leak.
The darkness grips, but I resist,
I’m alive in the pain I’ve kissed.

[Final Chorus]
My lonely dark world, it’s eating me alive,
But I claw my way through to survive.
Screaming at the void, I’ll make it hear,
My lonely dark world, I won’t disappear.
I’m standing tall in the blackest night,
Every scar a badge, every wound a fight.
This pain is mine, but I won’t fold,
My lonely dark world, I’m still bold.

[Outro]
Step inside…
My lonely dark world…
I survive…
I fight…
I exist…

My Lonely Dark World

[Intro]
Six feet under… that’s where my mind’s been.
Digging my own grave with the pain within.
I’m still breathing but it’s all going numb,
Choking on the dirt of what I’ve become.

[Verse 1]
Every night’s a shovel, digging in deep,
My demons don’t rest, they never sleep.
This world’s been feeding on my broken soul,
I’m falling apart trying to stay whole.
No one hears the screams behind my eyes,
I’ve been living in a coffin built from lies.
This weight on my chest, this hate in my head,
Feels like I’m dying but walking instead.

[Pre-Chorus]
Hands covered in dirt, scars on my skin,
This is the war I’m trapped within.
No more running, no more disguise,
I’m clawing through hell just to stay alive.

[Chorus]
I’m burying myself six feet under,
Drowning in silence, drowning in thunder.
Every breath feels like my last,
I’m a ghost in my future, chained to my past.
I’m burying myself, but still I fight,
Bleeding in darkness, reaching for light.
Six feet under but I’m not gone,
This war inside keeps dragging me on.

[Verse 2]
I’ve tasted the dirt, I’ve swallowed the pain,
I’ve walked through storms, I’ve bled in rain.
They call me strong but they don’t know the cost,
They don’t know the souls that I’ve lost.
Every nail in my coffin’s another regret,
Another promise that I haven’t met.
But I still claw at the walls of this grave,
Refusing to die, refusing to cave.

[Pre-Chorus]
Hands covered in dirt, scars on my skin,
This is the war I’m trapped within.
No more running, no more disguise,
I’m clawing through hell just to stay alive.

[Chorus]
I’m burying myself six feet under,
Drowning in silence, drowning in thunder.
Every breath feels like my last,
I’m a ghost in my future, chained to my past.
I’m burying myself, but still I fight,
Bleeding in darkness, reaching for light.
Six feet under but I’m not gone,
This war inside keeps dragging me on.

[Bridge]
This isn’t a grave, it’s a battleground.
I hear the dirt fall, I hear the sound.
But I dig my nails in, push through the pain,
I won’t let this disease win my name.

[Final Chorus]
I’m burying myself six feet under,
But my heartbeat’s louder than the thunder.
Every breath’s a scream, every scream’s a spark,
I’m still alive in the endless dark.
I’m burying myself but I’ll rise again,
Breaking these chains, spitting out the pain.
Six feet under but I won’t fall,
I’m still alive and I’m taking it all.

[Outro]
Six feet under…
But I’m clawing my way out.
This isn’t my ending…
This is my shout.

Burying Myself Six Feet Under

[Intro]
Shadows creeping in, chest feels tight,
Darkness pressing down, no air, no light.
Every gasp feels like a war inside,
I’m suffocating but I can’t hide.

[Verse 1]
Every night I choke on the weight I feel,
Pressure on my lungs, pain too real.
Demons crawling, dragging me low,
Whispers in my head that won’t let go.
This ain’t life, it’s a slow decay,
My heart’s still beating but it fades away.
Every breath’s a fight, every fight’s a scar,
I’m dying inside but they think I’m a star.

[Pre-Chorus]
Hands shaking, veins filled with rage,
I’m a trapped animal inside this cage.
No escape, no space to breathe,
I’m drowning in the dark beneath.

[Chorus]
My lungs collapsing, I can barely breathe,
This pain inside keeps cutting me deep.
Choking on shadows, drowning in hate,
I’m clawing at life before it’s too late.
My lungs collapsing but I’m still here,
Screaming through silence, choking on fear.
Barely breathing but I won’t die,
I’ll burn this darkness from the inside.

[Verse 2
They see a smile but they don’t see the cracks,
They don’t see the weight breaking my back.
I’m inhaling chaos, exhaling pain,
Walking through fire with blood in my veins.
Every heartbeat’s a war drum, pounding loud,
But my chest caves in under the crowd.
I’m a prisoner inside my skin,
But I swear to God I won’t give in.

[Pre-Chorus]
Hands shaking, veins filled with rage,
I’m a trapped animal inside this cage.
No escape, no space to breathe,
I’m drowning in the dark beneath.

[Chorus]
My lungs collapsing, I can barely breathe,
This pain inside keeps cutting me deep.
Choking on shadows, drowning in hate,
I’m clawing at life before it’s too late.
My lungs collapsing but I’m still here,
Screaming through silence, choking on fear.
Barely breathing but I won’t die,
I’ll burn this darkness from the inside.

[Bridge]
This isn’t weakness, this is war,
Every gasp’s a weapon, every breath is more.
Collapse my lungs, crush my bones,
I’ll rise from the ashes, I’ll take my throne.

[Final Chorus]
My lungs collapsing, I can barely breathe,
This pain inside keeps cutting me deep.
Choking on shadows, drowning in hate,
I’m clawing at life before it’s too late.
My lungs collapsing but I’m still here,
Screaming through silence, choking on fear.
Barely breathing but I won’t die,
I’ll burn this darkness from the inside.

[Outro]
Barely breathe… but still I stand.
Crushed lungs, burning hands.
This isn’t my coffin, it’s my fight.
I’m alive in the blackest night.

Barely Breathe

[Intro]
Dark thoughts creeping, I can’t escape,
The mirror shows a stranger, my own face.
Trapped inside this storm, can’t find my way,
Save me, baby… before I decay.

[Verse 1]
Every night I fight the demons in my head,
Lying awake with the weight of the dead.
I’m tearing at my soul, ripping my chest,
Every heartbeat a war, never a rest.
I scream for help but my voice is gone,
The darkness keeps pulling, dragging me along.
I see my reflection, it’s twisted and vile,
I’ve been losing myself for a long, long while.

[Pre-Chorus]
I can’t escape this pain I create,
Every thought a chain, sealing my fate.
I need your hand, I need your light,
Before I fall completely into night.

[Chorus]
Save me, baby, from myself,
Before the darkness swallows my health.
Every scar, every tear, every lie,
I’m breaking inside but I won’t die.
Save me, baby, don’t let me fall,
I’m screaming, I’m bleeding, I need it all.
Hold me tight, pull me through,
I can’t do this fight alone without you.

[Verse 2]
Mind’s a battlefield, chaos in my veins,
Every thought is fire, every thought is chains.
I lash out at shadows, I lash out at me,
Caught in a war that I cannot see.
Your voice is a beacon cutting through the haze,
A light in the pit of my endless maze.
I’m clawing, I’m bleeding, I’m screaming for more,
Don’t let me drown on this cold, dark floor.

[Pre-Chorus]
I can’t escape this pain I create,
Every thought a chain, sealing my fate.
I need your hand, I need your light,
Before I fall completely into night.

[Chorus]
Save me, baby, from myself,
Before the darkness swallows my health.
Every scar, every tear, every lie,
I’m breaking inside but I won’t die.
Save me, baby, don’t let me fall,
I’m screaming, I’m bleeding, I need it all.
Hold me tight, pull me through,
I can’t do this fight alone without you.

[Bridge]
Save me… before I break,
Save me… for your sake.
I’m a storm, I’m a fire,
Pull me from this funeral pyre.
I need you now, I need you near,
I can’t face this monster here.

[Final Chorus]
Save me, baby, from myself,
Before the darkness swallows my health.
Every scar, every tear, every lie,
I’m breaking inside but I won’t die.
Save me, baby, don’t let me fall,
I’m screaming, I’m bleeding, I need it all.
Hold me tight, pull me through,
I can’t do this fight alone without you.

[Outro]
Save me…
From myself…
I’m reaching…
Don’t let me go…

Save Me From Myself

[Intro]
(whispered)
Jesus… God…
Why’d you take them all…
(screamed)
WHY’D YOU TAKE THEM ALL?!

[Verse 1]
Empty rooms, cold halls,
Ghosts of the ones I loved on the walls.
I’m choking on prayers, bleeding in shame,
Trying to call Your name but it’s all just pain.
You said there’s a plan, but I don’t see it,
I’m down on my knees, but my soul won’t believe it.
The graves are fresh, the flowers all rot,
You left me screaming in a place I forgot.

[Pre‑Chorus]
My faith is breaking, my hands are fists,
I’m spitting out psalms like venom from my lips.
I wanted light, but I’m trapped in the dark,
You ripped out my heart and you left me these scars.

[Chorus]
Jesus, God, why’d You have to take them all?!
Now I’m screaming, broken, beating on Your walls.
Every prayer feels like knives in my chest,
I’m drowning in loss, I can’t find rest.
Jesus, God, why’d You leave me here alone?!
Shouting at the sky with a voice of stone.
Take my pain, take my soul, hear my call—
Jesus, God, why’d You have to take them all?!

[Verse 2]
I claw at the air, I tear at my skin,
Trying to find where my people went in.
You call it heaven, I call it theft,
You left me with shadows and nothing left.
I’m cursed with the memories, cursed with the fight,
I’m cursed with your silence in the middle of night.
I’d trade my life, my breath, my years,
To bring them back, to erase these tears.

[Pre‑Chorus]
My faith is breaking, my hands are fists,
I’m spitting out psalms like venom from my lips.
I wanted light, but I’m trapped in the dark,
You ripped out my heart and you left me these scars.

[Chorus]
Jesus, God, why’d You have to take them all?!
Now I’m screaming, broken, beating on Your walls.
Every prayer feels like knives in my chest,
I’m drowning in loss, I can’t find rest.
Jesus, God, why’d You leave me here alone?!
Shouting at the sky with a voice of stone.
Take my pain, take my soul, hear my call—
Jesus, God, why’d You have to take them all?!

[Bridge]
You say there’s mercy… show me where!
You say there’s love… I don’t care!
I’m standing in ashes, burning inside,
Nothing but questions and rage to confide.

[Final Chorus]
Jesus, God, why’d You have to take them all?!
Tore out my roots, now I’m ready to fall.
Every prayer feels like knives in my chest,
I’m drowning in loss, I can’t find rest.
Jesus, God, why’d You leave me here alone?!
Shouting at the sky with a voice of stone.
Take my pain, take my soul, hear my call—
Jesus, God, why’d You have to take them all?!

[Outro]
(whispered, broken)
Why’d You take them all…
Why’d You take them all…

Why’d You Have to Take Them All

[Intro]
Would it be better… if I wasn’t born?
Would it be better… if I was never torn?
I scream at the mirror but it won’t scream back…

[Verse 1]
Every day feels like a war in my head,
Breathing feels heavy, my soul feels dead.
I drag these chains, I bleed in the dark,
My mind’s a battlefield, my heart leaves a mark.
Questions keep cutting, ripping my skin,
I’m fighting my demons but they crawl within.
Is this existence just pain on repeat?
I’m burning alive while they’re watching me bleed.

[Pre-Chorus]
Would it be better if I never drew breath?
Would it be better if I vanished in death?
The thought claws my chest, but I won’t give in,
I’m breaking this curse, I’m burning the sin.

[Chorus]
I ask myself, would it be better if I wasn’t born?!
Would the world even notice if I was torn?!
But my rage is my fuel, my pain is my flame,
I won’t disappear, I’ll rise through the shame!
I ask myself, would it be better if I wasn’t born?!
But I fight like hell, I will not be gone!

[Verse 2]
My scars tell stories, they’re carved in my veins,
Memories like storms pounding my brain.
I’ve stood at the edge, staring down the abyss,
The void stares back with a venomous hiss.
But through the fire, I find my roar,
I’m more than a body, I’m a soul at war.
Even in darkness, my fists still swing,
I’m alive, and that’s my sting.

[Pre-Chorus]
Would it be better if I never drew breath?
Would it be better if I vanished in death?
The thought claws my chest, but I won’t give in,
I’m breaking this curse, I’m burning the sin.

[Chorus]
I ask myself, would it be better if I wasn’t born?!
Would the world even notice if I was torn?!
But my rage is my fuel, my pain is my flame,
I won’t disappear, I’ll rise through the shame!
I ask myself, would it be better if I wasn’t born?!
But I fight like hell, I will not be gone!

[Bridge]
This darkness won’t own me, this pain won’t define,
I’m more than the thoughts that poison my mind.
I’m the storm, the shadow, the blade, the scar,
I’ve come this far, I’ll go that far!

[Final Chorus]
I ask myself, would it be better if I wasn’t born?!
But my heart’s still beating, my soul reborn!
My rage is my armor, my pain is my steel,
I’m here, I’m alive, and I’m learning to heal!
I ask myself, would it be better if I wasn’t born?!
But I rise through the fire, I refuse to be gone!

[Outro]
Would it be better…
If I wasn’t born?
No.
I’m still here.
I’m still breathing.
And I’m not done.

Would It Be Better If I Wasn’t Born

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KILL YOURSELF (Part III)

Versace pip boy stuntin on ya old boy
Kepler 88 about to be my home boy
Art of mackin with my starter jacket blue x gold
White Reeboks daddy rocked back in 94'
You a hoe boy bitch you ain't a dough boy
Fake chain you a lame quit the show boy
Ima schema only kick it witta schema boy
Don't respond to beef spit from a chicken boy

Nobody beefin with me
I am too busy with me
Livin out all of your dreams
That's why u hatin on me
Mackin them bitches you think
Want you they really want me
They want in my torture machine
But they get nothin from me
Used to be knocked out cold
Now all the sudden you woke
Hittin me up for your song
Go to sleep like before
Bitch I don't rock yo clothes
That designer shit for hoes
I'm tha Ghoste reppin starter like it's 94

Versace pip boy stuntin on ya old boy
Kepler 88 about to be my home boy
Art of mackin with my starter jacket blue x gold
White Reeboks daddy rocked back in 94'
You a hoe boy bitch you ain't a dough boy
Fake chain you a lame quit the show boy
Ima schema only kick it witta schema boy
Don't respond to beef spit from a chicken boy

I'm gone I'm gone I'm gone
To Kepler 88

I'm gone I'm gone I'm gone
To Kepler 88

I'm gone I'm gone I'm gone
To Kepler 88

GHOSTEMANE - STARTER JACKET

I'm A Sigma 🐺 stay strong 💪 folks find your 👑 and keep pushing 💯  

i will always be here to try to help heal you through sound! 🤍🩶🖤🤎💜💙🩵💚💛🧡🩷❤️

this has been an amazing adventure into my journey and i thank every one of you for all of your support and love you have provided during this journey

Would It Be Better If I Wasn’t Born

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