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there are reasons that i can't stay 
i counted them all myself 
but i will always keep awake 
searching for how it felt 
because all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if it'll ever come 
as easy as us giving up 

if this could stop 
i don't think i'd want it to 
i built my life around watching everything you do 
it still feels like you can hear me when i talk to you 
you just don't respond 

and all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if you're having fun 
i wonder if you're having fun 

all i want is to find myself in anyone 
and i wonder if you're having fun 
in that empty space where we used to talk

you wanted to look for help, i wanted to sit and wait to be rescued

here's a new song I wrote, i want to add some vocals and harmonies and stuff so i'll probably regret posting what is probably an unfinished product but I just wanna show my friendzz , here are the words! :

Tell me honestly, did it even cross your mind
to pace yourself?
to trust your instincts 
and hold yourself back
to keep from failing?

well i can tell you now
i'm not going down
without a fight or
some say in this
ill let you know
if i've lost interest

all lack of self respect
in my room
you're undressing
why must you be so condescending?
you've been found out.
i've my doubts regarding the future
you've skinny legs
short in stature.

an early morning toke
clears your head
dulls your senses
i ponder death
you crave attention

you have my attention.

feral intentions and blatant disregard
for anyone other than the two of us involved
i like to think that i'm courageous
i like to think i am a lot of things
i'll never be the man i was made to be.
it happened out of loneliness and distorted sense of self.
all because we liked the way it felt.
just because we like the way it feels to fall apart.
now i think i see the person that you truly are.

you have my attention.

a new demo of a song without a name

nicholas stutsman