Track from "The Mandii Mixtape." This is definitely my favorite song I've written in terms of being "catchy," or targeted for an audience that listens to music on the radio. My tunes are always a bit odd, but this one seems pretty straight forward. Move to it if you have to, it always helps me. N'Joy!

LYRICS
I wish I could renew, and feel my youth again.
Maybe I'll tell the truth. Deny my former sins.
And if I fall for you, don't set your hopes too high.
Something has got to give, before we up and die. But-
Apathy, apathy, oh, it feels so good...
I'm doing some shit but never the things that I should...
I'm staring at TV screens. All the characters live in me.
I don't know if they're bad or good.
So, apathy, apathy, what's it done for you?
You're tossing and turning until your face turns blue.
We're crying and fighting with all our might, we're igniting. 
But I don't know if we'll win, or lose...
So did we lose our touch? Or did I say to much? 
Thinking I have to sell, more items just to bail.
We lost our place in time... it's cool... it's great... it's fine. 
Just sit tight 'til we find, a cleaner state of mind.  
But apathy, apathy, oh, it feels so good.
I'm doing some shit but never the things that I should.
I'm staring at TV screens, all the characters live in me. 
I don't know if they're bad or good. 
So tell me... apathy, apathy, what's it done for you?
We're tossing and turning until your face turns blue.
We're crying and fighting, with all our might, we're igniting. But I don't know if we'll win or lose. 
Your foolish persuasions, and all your constant predictions...
You've got me feeling like it's just a time when I go slow.
Your foolish illusions forced on my skin like contusions.
You've got me feeling like it's just a time to sink real low. X2

Apathy.

I am a poet, artist, knowledge seeker, lover of music and all things creative. My art looks for and attempts to reveal the beautiful in what is often seen as strange or ugly. I like to find the light buried beneath.

"I like to play." -Garth Algar
Just as Garth Algar enjoyed musical expression, I use this page as a sort of online journal that I get to keep track of, and because I wrote and record each day, and also because I prefer to freestyle my lyrics and vocal harmonies rather than write out meticulously crafted vocal arrangements, I get to listen back to my songs and try to decipher not only what I'm saying, but also the meaning hidden within each line that I've ad libbed in the moment... it's the most therapeutic activity I can think of... I'm addicted to it. And maybe others will enjoy the music at some point as well. For now it feels like it's mainly just for me.

Apathy.

Baby Nala