take my heart <3

v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

music video:
https://youtu.be/Ck4vV7So2TY

carhartt jeans and levi boxers
i know that she still want me 
i miss my old nissan frontier
i don't miss you baby

i don't think i'm brave enough for this
i'm not used to paranoia
you couldn't pay me nothin' to stick around for this
what the fuck do you even take me for
i don't think i can stand my ground for this
pour one out 'cause my love is dead and gone
i'm in the land of the free and the home of the brave
but you make both harder when you come around

i don't think i'm brave enough for this 
i'm not used to anything anymore
you can't pay me to stay around for this
i don't know what you even take me for
ain't no way i'm getting down with this
bury my heart six feet it's dead and gone
i'm in the land of the free and the home of the brave
but i don't feel either one anymore

spotify

land of the free (p. jonah + hannah read)

**SOUNDCLOUD TOOK DOWN THIS SONG ALONG WITH A FEW OTHERS BECAUSE OF A BUG, AND REUPLOADED WITHOUT ANY LIKES**

prod. Boyfifty

Lyrics - 

when i walked back home
on that frostbit night
and the wind hit cold
while my chest felt tight

i was so distraught
fixating on your lies
i wrote this song
to get my thoughts aligned

amazed how I
couldn’t see the
truth behind
all your reasons

wait for a sign 
I can breathe
I’ll be alright 
if you keep me

hello?
could you please me help me dear
i know
I’m not the most sincere

below
my failing self esteem
come home
I need you next to me

(peaky blinders scene in the break)

frostbit (prod. boyfifty)

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

It's been a long day
I got so much on my mind
So many things I could say
But none of it seems like
It ever really mattered
As long as I see you after
She makes me feel better
She would swallow me if I let her
We can do this night
After night
After night yeah
Watching all the stars in the sky
Shining bright like
She makes all the pain go away
Tell the doctor
I just want to vent to her
I'm afraid that she's an imposter

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

Babygirl
You got me fucked up
Fucked up
Got me thinking about what's love
What's love
Like what's love got to do with this
Cupid and his foolishness
Self sabotaging tendencies
It tends to get ahead of me
Does it stretch beyond horizons
Can I put it in autopilot
Is it really unconditional
Does it seep into your subliminal

Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin
Your skin is like medicine
Warmer than the sedatives
Late nights in your bed again
Melting in your melanin

herloveisadrugfromthefuture

A bootleg of Moonbeam by Goldielocks.

Check out the original here!
https://soundcloud.com/goldielockstunes/moonbeam

GOLDIELOCKS - MOONBEAM (GUARDIN BOOTLEG)

Amethyst Apex

Fed Up (Feat. Brad Mill$)

Oh yuh w/ 2wice!

i don't need you w/ Brady Amour (prod.heartscars)

one thing i learned is

its not how you come in its how u leave

Demons In My Head When I Count My Racks

NICKISGONENOW