i’d rather die than live like this ft.cutdeep (afterlife)

empty on the inside

music video:
https://youtu.be/iqHRw1GXgO4

Lost myself
Changed my timezone for what
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still

I was high
I was in Sacramento
Baby I'm fine
Baby I'm too much probably
That's what they all say about me
That's what they all say about me

Lost myself
Changed my timezone for what
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still 
I just wanna still

Fuck the way I feel I'm melting 
Just one more pill I'm helpless
Your words don't heal they selfish
I should think about myself but
You got my ring on your necklace
Just wanna be still
I just wanna be still
The Ativan don't work no more
I'mma bleed out on the floor
Hope I'm sad enough for you
I don't have no more drugs to do
This cocaine got me sick yeah
I heard from your friend that you skipped town
This cocaine got me sick now 

Lost myself 
Changed my timezone for what 
Bitch I'm here
I wanna kill my vitals
I just wanna be still
I just wanna be still

spotify

stagnant demo (p. nature walker)

mix. @ztope

(prodnxku) 

-non profit-

lyrics -

aye sinking
help me find my meaning
your the only one in
my life not deceiving
girl im barely breathing
i cant fight this feeling
why does everything feel
so fuckin unappealing
everyday i wake up
starting at the ceiling yeah its
just another day i wont cope
with these feelings i
ant fuckin healing i
need time to my self
how appealing never mind
ima die can feel it?
tell me do you feel this?

cuz no one cares
about whats going on
yeah i need help
why cant you tell?

deceive (prodnxku)

(GhostBxy)

Lyrics

3 am lost in my head
Questioning my existence
What is my purpose
Am i even worth it

Tell me baby what do you see
When you stare directly at me
Do you see a soul
Within the hopeless ghost
Nothing but a ghost


Your hands are a bit numb
I'm sorry my hands are so cold
You ask what ive become
Well haven't figured it out because
I'm lying to you and myself all the time
I've been trying to find the cure to my sick mind
But rewind to days when it was you and i
But decay in my brain came in waves and i died

Hold me close and dont let go

It's so fucking cold
I'm out here all alone

I'm out here all alone
Crows eat my flesh and my bones
Broken sticks and crumbled stones
Could you truly love a ghost

(yungcray)
And i dont know how I feel
Can you please tell me if this feelings even real
Dropped dead again from popping all these plls
you're a ghost in the night
you're a ghost with no light
Can you please appear
Yeah we speeding down the highway
I don't really care
Lights in the distance
No I won't stop
Don't tell me to slow down cause I will not listen
Yeah we speeding down the highway
I don't really care
Lights in the distance
No I won't stop
Don't tell me to slow down cause I will not listen

(GhostBxy and yungcray)
Hold me close and don't let go

in love with a ghost

in love with a ghost w/ yungcray (prod. p4ra)

lyrics 

i been fucking w a poltergeist
u hadnt talked to me like 7 nights
i can feel it straining in my eyes
itching itchin but i feel alright 
yea i feel alright 

uh uh
lemme go
lemme hold on
hit the train
down to eltingville
i hold off
from telling u
whats on my mind
im southbound
im home now

in time 
ull find
what u 
hold dear
but i
ill find
my life
from here

im in the mood to erase ur life
but sometimes its better just taking mine
the spirits in my room can hear me cry
they reach out and they brush off my teary eyes
im sorry for letting u down 
i heard who ur talking about 
under this weight i could drown
but its better me hearing u out

i been fucking w a poltergeist
u hadnt talked to me like 7 nights
i feel like im a parasite
itching itchin but i feel alright 
yea i feel alright

self erasure

joe's (p. ryan ansel)

produced & mastered by tiedforsilver
preformed & mixed by epitomeoffailure
intro from Steins;Gate

lyrics:

ash grey clouds above me
snow falls on your face
foreign lands surrounding 
put me in my place

she stands there horrified 
of what she’s discovered
the snow blankets and covers
a face born like no other 

he wishes they’d normalize 
but their looks sting like torture
he cry’s at home under the covers
with no one there but his mother

and she won’t help cause she’s no good at all 
she cared when only he could crawl
since then theres not much to call, love
broken down and cursed from up above 
is what he thinks now because 
his wants and needs go untouched

ash grey clouds above me
snow falls on your face
foreign lands surrounding 
put me in my place

wait hold on still
your breath draws me in
here in my landfill
you saved me from within 

she to blind to see what’s in front of her
no mouth to eat but my stomach hurts
this leech draining me of all that i’m worth
and i just watch it work 
though the pain gets worse

cause i know she’ll look if im close to death
her only baby boy his soul soon to rest 
underneath the snow that lies on his chest
lays a broken soul cast out like the rest

empty on the inside

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