second album

i put like a year and a half or smth into it

i hope its aight

Through Red Water and Blue Eyes

lyric video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HaUWIxD_Q_g&feature=youtu.be

this is the first single from my sophomore album, "through red water and blue eyes." enjoy!

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lyrics

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As if a warning sign would be a red flag
When I’m with you, I’m seeing all the colors
And the “I’ll be just fine,” said through clenched teeth
Reverberating through the empty room

It kills me to say that I’ve been steering towards your shore
And as of late I'm wondering what the pain is for 

And when I hear your call
It tears me down until I'm nothing at all
But I keep listening, listening anyway
And it's stupid, but your voice makes me feel safe

When I hear your song 
The ground beneath me breaks, and I begin to fall 
But I’ll keep sinking, sinking if it means
You’re somehow closer to me

But I've been warned again and again
About the thorns on the stem of your roses
And I'm so heartbroken yet so so happy for you

Call me a fool
But It's the way you light up when you talk about 
Who you're calling out to

And when I hear your call
It tears me down until I'm nothing at all
But I keep listening, listening anyway
And it's stupid, but your voice makes me feel safe

When I hear your song 
The ground beneath me breaks, and I begin to fall 
But I’ll keep sinking, sinking if it means
You’re somehow closer to me

It's dangerous
I know the siren isn't calling for me
It's dangerous
When I know the siren isn't falling for me

I'm terrified of what the sound is
Because I know the siren isn't falling for me
Then what could it be
If the siren isn't falling for me

And when I hear your call
It tears me down until I'm nothing at all
But I keep listening, listening anyway
And it's stupid, but your voice makes me feel safe

When I hear your song 
The ground beneath me breaks, and I begin to fall 
But I’ll keep sinking, sinking if it means
You’re somehow closer to me

But when you turn my way
The ringing stops, and the worry fades away
Overthinking, everything you say
And it's stupid, but your voice makes me feel safe

When you call my name
The silence breaks, and now you’re not so far away
You’re not feeling what I'm feeling 
And I'm stupid, but you're here and I feel safe

Sirens (+ lyric video below)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHJSpFEQiBU

third single from my second album, buy link to stream it

familiar (goodbye, summer) is a song i wrote on the first day of september 2019. it's about the small things that happened that summer that impacted me, as well as about the general idea of seeing people or reminders of them in places you go. this is probably the poppiest song ive put out? enjoy!

lyrics
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A hot September day where I’ve forgotten what I made
A cliche, but I don’t want you to go away
And time flies but please, just stay
And as you pass out of my mind, I see a brand new way

The park by your house, I
Have been here a thousand times
On the rooftops, we would smile
And where we found love for a while

Oh, you’re so familiar
I think that’s the street I met her
While you over were by the water
I whispered, “Goodbye, Summer”

Associated moments with the colour of your hair
Confused your presence with the smell of the air
And I know, you’ll still be there
I’m just not sure when or where

The way to your house, I
Have been there a thousand times
Either through the red lines, or on a bike
And as you’re passing by, I see a brand new light

Oh, you’re so familiar
I think that’s the street I met her
While you were over by the water
Your shadow leaned over and asked
“Do I have to be the past?”
And I didn’t want to answer
But I leaned into your ear 
and whispered, “Goodbye, Summer”

I watched the sun set on you, alone in a park
Second year blues, I was alone in the dark
Oh, how could I forget the first time seeing stars
And though it ends soon, I’ll remember who you are

Oh, you’re so familiar
I think that’s the street I met her
While you were over by the water
Your shadow leaned over and asked
“Do I have to be the past?”
And I didn’t want to answer
But I leaned into your ear 
and whispered, “Goodbye, Summer”

But this street will mirror
All and what we had together
The long nights spent talking about whatever

Does it have to be the past?
I don’t want an answer
And if I had my way, I wouldn’t have whispered,
“Goodbye, Summer.”

Familiar (Goodbye, Summer) (+ music video below)

music video link: https://youtu.be/dNkeOL6quxk

this is single number 4 from my second album - buy link for other streaming stuff

i wrote this song after a really low point i was going through. throughout that time, i was extremely focused on trying to find the cause of my pain - whether it was a fault of my own character or the effect of external factors i would never be able to control. alchemy is a song about being stuck in that thought process, and all the fears that come with that.

lyrics
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Is it true you were doomed from the start?
Will the lead ever turn into gold?
Will it poison you into old age?
When you're dying alone and cold

'Cause screaming doesn't make a family
It only makes mistakes
But the suffering seemed to not be enough 
So it happens again anyway

If this skin, this blood, this face were any good 
Then why do i have so much left to prove?
Am I a disgrace, or am I breaking away
From antiquated ways

If this voice, this mind, these hands have any worth
Why is my future buried under dirt?
Will i know if I've learned from the holes in their logic?
Is failure just genetic?

Through and through you believed in the odds
That it's fate; that it's what the world wants
Is it true you gave up at the start?
Mistaking joy for the solace in art

If the places change but you feel the same 
Maybe the issue's a part of you
If they come and go and you're left all alone
What do you turn to now? 

If this skin, this blood, this face were any good 
Then why do i have so much left to prove?
Am I a disgrace, or am I breaking away
From antiquated ways

If this voice, this mind, these hands have any worth
Why is my future buried under dirt?
Will i know if I've learned from the holes in their logic?
Is failure just genetic?

Will this skin, this blood, this face ever be good?
And how much must I sacrifice so that I can prove
I’m not just a fake, or the monster that took the place
Of who I used to be

If this voice of mine will ever be heard
Then why are my questions left unanswered
Will I make the same mistakes
Or will the pain pay off someday?

Alchemy

Alchemy (+ music video below)

lyrics 
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It takes a hike through a mountain and a valley
To understand the weight of the whole package
Keep yourself seated for the finale
It takes time to carry all the baggage

And through the roads you take, every mistake you make
You’ll get a few scars along the way

So if you feel like ending it all tonight
I won’t blame you but I have to say
It’s not the only way out of here

Scream a little bit, if it’s for help I’ll permit it
Keep on waiting, waiting for a key
‘Cause your life got locked in a cage, and I’ll admit 
It’s a waste to walk down a path you can’t see

It gets a little easier every day
Put the pills away, walk off the pain
Five five six - the days passed, you’ve awakened from 
That hospital bed for the last time

And through the roads you take, every mistake you make
You’ll get a few scars along the way

If you feel like ending it all tonight
I don’t blame you but I gotta say that
There’s another way out of here

Scream a little bit, if it’s for help I’ll permit it
Keep on waiting, waiting for a key
‘Cause your life got locked in a cage, and I’ll admit
It’s a waste to walk down a path you can’t see

Show, don’t tell, you’ve gotta learn to commit it
Through discipline, not some escapist fantasy
Oh, I was thinking the same, and oh, but you said it
But there’s a way to leave without taking the exit

"Wouldn't it be easy if I just had a gun 
And the guts to pull the trigger?" he said
Leave it to the fate of a coin flip
And the strength of your index finger

"Cross the road and get to the other side"
And other ways of saying "I want to die" 
Romanticize and fantasize your method
It’s morbid, I know it

So you scream a little bit, if it’s for help I’ll permit it
Keep on waiting, waiting for a key
‘Cause your life got locked in a cage, and I’ll admit
It’s a waste to walk down a path you can’t see

Show, don’t tell, you’ve gotta learn to commit it
Through discipline, not some escapist fantasy
Oh, I was thinking the same, and oh, but you said it
But there’s a way to leave without taking the exit

The Exit

lyrics
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A waste of color, a waste of space
I want a lover, I want an escape
Looking for silence, looking for home
An empty apartment, you’ve been all alone

So you live and die the same that you’ve always been
You’re always in a constant state of dreaming
Is it fate or is it seeming?

And I thought I saw it shimmer through the pouring rain
But the glow grows dimmer, as my hair grows thinner
And I know, there’s gotta be something at the end of this road
Oh, I hoped
And I thought I saw its shadow in a distant place
But my eyes went out of focus, as my soul begged for atonement
And it’s only silver, never gold 
At the end of the rainbow

Half a person, a skeleton
Half together, never listen
I want to travel, I want to run
My mind unravels beneath the sun

Changing seasons, changing shape
Lack of reason, another mistake
Cannon fodder, like a lamb
To the slaughter,  and I'm trying to be okay with who I am

Is it too much of me to ask for you to clear the overcast?
I’m at the top, and my head’s in the clouds
But I’ll keep looking down

I thought I saw it shimmer through the pouring rain
But the glow grows dimmer, as my hair grows thinner
And I know, there’s gotta be something at the end of this road
Oh, I hoped
And I thought I saw its shadow in a distant place
But my eyes went out of focus, as my soul begged for atonement
And it’s only silver, never gold 
At the end of the rainbow

violin interlude

I’ve played out all our lives
And I'd want to be the first to die
Maybe this is something
But I'd rather I be nothing

When you leave next July
And you leave me behind 
Will you finally leave my mind? 
Or will you take the rest of my life 

When you come back in December
You’ll taunt the ash of our remainders
I’m afraid of having heart
And I’m unsure of where to start

I thought I saw a glimmer in the pyrite stain
The one around my finger, it turned out to be a splinter
And I won’t keep dragging through the mud when there’s nowhere to go

And I thought I heard your echo from a mirrored space
I'll stay forever broken, but I believed you for a moment
But the silver rusts and you lied, no pot of gold 
At the end of the rainbow

At the End of the Rainbow

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