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3. SOJU FT LUCY BEDROQUE (EGOBREAK)

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Tone Deaf(snippet)

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lucy bedroque - cat’s eye (live @ ucla)

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scoring shit

rushed just she needs to know this, y'know?

(paste from lyrics notepad; some of which aren’t in song)

Hard moving on when I still wanna see her
Either dying or about to, they tried blaming my reefer
Situation’s always distant, you been saying fuck the difference
Persistence with what’s needed this time, I need someone that’s consistent

Feeling it, feeling something genuine
Never needed skin to skin
Should begin everything again
Promise you won’t lose a friend, in return, don’t owe shit but conversation
Relate in each our stories, words wove hopefully can deepen into something with some meaning

Feeling it, feeling something genuine
Never needed skin to skin to begin, we should recall everything again
Sing the same song, pretend I won’t end it like before, I’ll promise you won’t lose a friend
Hurting you, no make up could look good if we’re keeping score

Pass something to get me stuck, to suck on, pacify me with medicine
Wanna breathe again, I want oxygen
Receiving end many miles, pretend to sleep easy without resistance, please pretend and make me think that this a home
You, I, nobody else, I know it’s probably a smoked out mirror, talking to a phone
Gotta get moving out of bed, back into myself, with somebody held or alone

Since you’re the one who saw so much in nothing
Should of been you back then, yet I wasn’t ready and you don’t like rushing
There’s no chasing, running back home to the one heart that’ll keep me whole
Stole time from you, I can repay the debt with a section in my soul
Deserved then, even more now, yet these are all answers to questions you’ve figured out, I’m the maker of our mold
Grew on me correctly till I detached like I was told, taught, except he’s caught now and I want it to be old news, far rather just sit and think about you
Truth is you’re no option, you are my truth

For one who looked at me before when I was nothing
Felt fucking disgusting
Pity party ending, red face and am not blushing
Sober or not, hearts forever running since she’ll always grace me with real loving
Trusting comes natural cause our history is of nothing but me fucking you over and over again by leaving fast as I came, you don’t deserve that type of end
Still that same piece of shit you met back then in your yellow hoodie, plaid pants
Still not trying pull you into a boat that’s sinking
Let me patch this bitch up, then we can speak and maybe get to thinking of some real things, cause right now all I have is a few thoughts rarely revealing anything and also my time,
We each have our time
Know right now, want you and yours as mine, but you don’t want these current states of mind that I reside in
Dividing problems like the way I used to grind up weed, there’s now an audience
Fuck the private music, this passion deserves vision I been gassing solo since 14
Dream was queen in between bullshit I’d deal with so she fully can have my affection with her, then figure it out from that point
on, I’d suffer or prosper with you regardless
I would hold on
Life of this artist
Was then and still is
Still the kid who couldn’t glow up quick
His shine gon be right on time
Still anti yet the socials are live

Hold that against me
You’ve been patience in the flesh, except I’ve been nothing more than what you should regret
Instead every time’s the same: Warmth, comfort, less stress
Someone I want to protect
And all I’ve done is hurt, it’s not complex
Vile past actions can’t be erased, sappy words and love letters will sweeten what you shouldn’t accept
Any sorry that I give
It’s heartfelt, but your heart felt more than I did
Hurt and loved that same kid you wanted to get to a man
Now I understand and am here, boat sinking, still swearing it’s steady
Heady wine you want I can provide, it’s sweet and almost ready, give it a little time

Dreamed of making songs for my own queen
Truly the only one who ever mattered to these fucked up hands that never had to hold you to understand you can depend on, deserve a man, yet I wasn’t and couldn’t comprehend the wonderous world she commanded him to join
Too young, truthfully only knew how to hate and destroy

Regardless, you don’t deserve treatment I provided
Patient as someone who cares, willing to go the mileage
Despite this, I still was worse than the worst
First love, first one who showed me how to hurt
Know If there’s a road there then I’d walk it
Pay every fucking fee, every cost of engagement
When the speed of life caught up, I was grazing faux pastures, painted green by the ones who are still after me

Thanking everything star for your resilience
Remember birthday messages sent when we wasn’t chilling
All times you hyped the dogshit I dropped for my feelings
Each time immaturity cut you off protecting me from revealing I’m human
Perfectly perfect was how I believed you buy buildings
Only thing matters isn’t the price, it’s who fills them
Paid actor wife, some children, stinson shit, don’t believe in god, still that was never my intentions
Used to be preventing ending my own life
Came so far, and still shadows could drag me out through the night yet I’d still come back as bright, you’re hearing a certified concrete rose
Rome, no Roma cause that one’s my own
Fuck starting drama, was trying start fires inside my own home
Not a clone having a baby mama, I been a virgin back to ever since I could have known, for a fuck’s sake let the kid in her womb get grown so we can all be in the know

Thanking everything star for your resilience
Remember birthday messages sent when we wasn’t chilling
All times you hyped the dogshit I dropped for my feelings
Each time I was immature, cutting you off protecting me from revealing I’m a human
Perfectly perfect was how I believed you buy buildings
Only things matter isn’t the price, it’s who fills them
Paid actor wife with some children, I swear but don’t believe in god that it was never my intentions
Used to be preventing ending my own life
Came so far, and still shadows could drag me out through the night yet I’d still come back as bright, you’re hearing a concrete rose
Rome, no Roma cause that one’s my own
Fuck starting drama, was trying start fires inside my own home
Not a clone having a baby mama, I been a virgin back to ever since I could have known, for a fuck’s sake let the kid get grown then we can all be in the know
Until then, enjoy the show

Knowing this, in it, you’ve been my only safety
Thank you Gracie, always amaze me, forget how far you are

Still

Tone Deaf(snippet)

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