Props to the philaflava troy forums, adelph for the ID, and whoever ripped this particular Stretch and Bobbito Show.  And of course props to the wonderful lady Apani B for making such exquisite and lyrical music.

Apani B - Unknown Demo - 1995 - Stretch and Bobbito (Queens, NY)

Group Home - East NY Theory (Brain Sick Mob Mix) (1996)

Mic Rippa -  96' Cream Hunt

Werd Of Mouph - Show Da World  4 Da Streets

My Brother's Keeper

Original song by Matlock: https://matlock.bandcamp.com/track/cursed

POV: You wake up with no income, broken teeth, TMJ pain, transphobia, and threats of eviction.

Lyrics:
Born under a bad sign
Headed for a breakdown
Hardships been following me forever and a day now
World's got me crazy 
Is this my fuckin fate
I'm feeling cursed
(I got the worst fuckin' luck on earth)

And I've been struggling for too long
Not feeling safe at home now 
Bad news been crossing my feed every time that I scroll down
I'm scared that God might hate me
There's not much I can take, I'm feeling cursed
(and every fucking day the shit gets worse)

Swear to God if I wake up to another job rejection email
Or dickhead in my mentions saying "I'll never be a female"
I'm so close to just snapping throwing people on the third rail. Other people get rain I'm getting tennis ball sized hail. 
Imprisoned in this body, no parole and fuckin' no bail.
Can't console me in a game that's set us all up to fail. 
The pain is like a reverb with an excessively long tail. 
Just dragging on too long, may as well just send my ass to hell.
Didn't ask to be born, wasn't warned about existence.
I'm just shat out into the  world with all these other trauma victims. I'm not trying to hear it. I'm the one that's had to regulate and tolerate people's tantrums while I'm sittin' filled with hate. I can't even masturbate, I'm getting fucked already with a ghost pepper lube reach around that's stroking steady. I'm so ready to die and let the world quickly forget me. 
But I didn't take enough pills so I'm groggy AND I'm angry.

Born under a bad sign
Headed for a breakdown
Hardship been following me forever and a day now
World's got me crazy 
Is this my fuckin fate
I'm feeling cursed
(and every day this shit is making me berserk)

And I've been struggling for too long
Not feeling safe at home now 
Bad news been crossing my feed every time that I scroll down
I'm scared that God might hate me
There's not much I can take, I'm feeling cursed
(and my motherfucking jaw still hurts)

Cursed Verse

Ive been shedding the old me lately. 
Growing into the new man, im meant to be.

Big thanks to FL for being a place where I can sit and heal.


Apani B - Unknown Demo - 1995 - Stretch and Bobbito (Queens, NY)

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