in flowers

soft illusion

drowning

sounds of bpd

tlnos

get your mind ready for work

lostlost

quite a lot of thoughts fill me now, but they are so indistinct and chaotic that it would be more accurate to classify them as feelings. i am nothing of myself in music, and i am unlikely to be able to achieve something. no, it’s not “something” that i am unable to achieve, i will never be able to get close to what impresses me so much. i am no ravel or satie, and, despite the fact that music is the main thing, if not the only thing, that i sincerely paid attention, time and effort to in my life, my efforts are insignificant. music will always be “just a hobby”. i myself have always refused to make it something bigger.
when i see falling snow lately, for some reason the loneliness weighs heavily on me, although now things have just begun to improve with my socialization, it seems... i don’t understand anything, but maybe it’s for the better.
tomorrow is already 2024... let's see what it brings us. i don’t see the point in hoping for the best, so I will try on my own to make this year better than all previous.

when have i forgotten about achieving grand goals?

still

00604aa

demos i really wanted to finish but i can't anymore. i want to write new music, live a new life and not be imprisoned by my past self.

evening

frozen stars on silent skies

take230212

contempt

simulatization of others or maybe even your own self

decaying sincerity

here-everywhere

whatever

not form nor content

maybe i'll post more throwaway demos like i used to

ehhh... umm.. idk

maybe someday something will change

a walk outside (i post more improvisations on youtube now)

fuck you type beat

tomorrow

after we say goodbye to each other, will you remember me or will i remain unnoticed, as if i died or never even existed?

nihigo

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