NIXXIU

prod nixxiu ♡

> lyrics <

tell me what u want
tell me everything about me
idek myself
it's all just a bad dream
wake up feeling tired
why's it 7 in the morning?
feeling like i'm dead
need to down all of my caffeine

said i'm feelin' sleepy
look into my eyes and tell me that i'm looking dreamy
i don't feel like talking so i lie and say i'm busy
wonder when i'm gone if u even think about me
wonder if u miss me
said i'm feelin' sleepy
look into my eyes and tell me that i'm looking dreamy
i don't feel like talking so i lie and say i'm busy
wonder when i'm gone if u even think about me
wonder if u miss me

wonder if u miss all the nights when u can't sleep
always hit my phone, always pick up on the first ring
need someone to tell me when to stop overthinking
sorry that ur gone, i'll just leave my message at the beep
she's in a taxi, in the backseat
i'm driving down backroads going 60
she don't even give one god damn about me
i would risk my life for her safety
i can feel ur blood it's rushing
thru my veins but god i love it
she don't wanna keep me breathing
something that we can relate in
(i can feel ur blood it's rushing
thru my veins but god i love it
she don't wanna keep me breathing
something that we can relate in)

said i'm feelin' sleepy
look into my eyes and tell me that i'm looking dreamy
i don't feel like talking so i lie and say i'm busy
wonder when i'm gone if u even think about me
wonder if u miss me

sleepy

prod. nixx ♡ x michael harrison

> lyrics <

the weight on my back
i grit thru my teeth
i can't find my home until ur next to me
the words that i write and that u say to me
they're stuck in my head, i project to release

u found me
when i was stuck in hiding
i didn't want nobody else
cus my <3 had fell
and i question if i'll make it
cus ik my feelings not worth saving
i need a casket
i'm feeling broken
and i forgot how to control my emotions

before u go i need to know
if i'm taken as a joke
musics all that helps me cope
from this pain i hold so close
i sit here impatiently
waiting for my chance to breathe
don't let go just take my hand and walk me thru this lucid dream

sick of only talking when u want to
when i would give up every single thing to see u
now i isolate away inside my bedroom
thinking bout what we used to do
NOW I STAY AWAKE PAST 2
CLEANING BLOOD FROM MY SHOES
HE WAS JUST A PREVIEW
NOW IK UR SEE-THRU
WISH I MET THE REAL U
NOT THE ONE U USED TO
PLAY WITH MY EMOTIONS
LEFT ME FEELING BROKEN

wish i met the real u not the one u used to
play with my emotions
wish i could go back to when we never spoken

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

ivis

is it my fault?

if only

back2life (ft. betterluckmason & sodistilled)

be with you

prod. nixx ♡ x michael harrison

> lyrics <

wanted u to stay but u don't wanna talk
all this damage on my brain its really getting off
bloody bruises on my face covered in makeup
cutting pieces off my skin its time i rip it off
fucked up, feeling dead
now i'm stuck on all these meds
put a bullet in my head
its not like you'd pay attention
god i'm so upset
crying all over my bed
rip my heart out of my chest
u wouldn't care for a second

i don't wanna talk i don't wanna fucking say it
bruises on my face and blood is dripping off my bracelet
never be alone thoughts in my head never quiet
maybe i should go to sleep hoping i don't make it
feeling like i'm depressed
feeling like i'm repressed
always getting obsessed
mind is never suppressed
holding onto secrets
swimming in the deep end
blood all over my hands
clothing splattered in red

hate it when i'm fighting
i'm so sick of trying
tallies on my arm that signify when i'm reminded
i cant take this distance
everything is different
i don't wanna talk and frankly u don't wanna listen

wanted u to stay but u don't wanna talk
all this damage on my brain its really getting off
bloody bruises on my face covered in makeup
cutting pieces off my skin its time i rip it off
fucked up, feeling dead
now i'm stuck on all these meds
put a bullet in my head
its not like you'd pay attention
god i'm so upset
crying all over my bed
rip my heart out of my chest
u wouldn't care for a second

bruises

prod. tattidar, wixxy, nixx ♡

> lyrics <

and i'm so confused
i'm not as bad as i used to be with u
deep inside my room
with blood stained on my shoes
in the skin that i abuse
tryna find something brand new
in this game i'm meant to lose

and ur sticking like a tattoo
but i don't wanna stay around u
walking on the site and now i'll defuse
all alone cus no one understanding what i been thru
maybe i should stay down like a recluse
tryna talk me out of myself but it's not true
i don't wanna say it right now i'm not meant to
all i know to do is shut down and forget u

feeling like i can't breathe
i'm too used to feeling sadness and anxiety
lay down but i can't sleep
phone glow on my face and feel that tears are falling down my cheek
lately i'm not like me
don't know who controls me
don't know where my heart went
think that shit just left me
feeling empty
broken bones inside of me
don't know who i am because i threw out all my memories

underscore

breath this time 
fall in love 
why do i always 
fuck it up 
x2

skin cold and damp
cuts on my hands 
grip who i used to be 
making me crawl beneath ur skin 
i’m wanna make you bleed
fuck till you lose the thought of him 

breath this time 
fall in love 
why do i always 
fuck it up 
x2

breathe

prod. softscars

> lyrics <

i knew u would
break out
from my arms
i didn't want
to let u in
my heart
tell me what you saw
when u looked at me
was i everything u wanted me to be?
lost every piece
of what once was me
trying so hard to be just what u need

we didn't work out
guess ur happier now
beating my eyelids as my tears fall down
our love is up in the clouds
the silence speaks so loud
need to escape the thought of u somehow
when u start to walk away from me
i can't breathe
i only see u with me
send me down and i will fall

i knew u would
cause i knew u
u pushed and pushed
when u asked me
if i loved u
remember when
u didn't wanna leave my bed
i won't forget
all the pain u nailed inside my head

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

i'll die before i see u again

prod. injury

> lyrics <

blood on my face
you've taken away from
everything i gave
u want me to change
while u still are the same and
i can't explain how
i fell for who u were

i fell into
this world again
now i'm stuck in solitude
everything i have i rip apart in two
miss myself and who i was before you
excluding myself
from u

blood on my face
you've taken away from
everything i gave
u want me to change
while u still are the same and
i can't explain how
i fell for who u were

wither

ethers

w/ @eternalrin

prod. injury

> lyrics <

take me away to where i lost u
tears are falling down my face
don't know where to begin
i just miss ur touch on my skin
say my name, and i'll come to u
crying out for u once more
i can't find u, my dear
feel lonely without u here

i slipped away
without u everything feels grey
and u tried to make me stay
to stay

u jumped in me, ur escaping dreams
and i hate that u needed to leave
everything was only anything you'd need

maybe we, we could be
something more than memories
pull me in too deep
press ur hand on my cheek
girl, ur so pretty cutting into me

take me away to where i lost u
tears are falling down my face
don't know where to begin
i just miss ur touch on my skin
say my name, and i'll come to u
crying out for u once more
i can't find u, my dear
feel lonely without u here

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu
https://linktr.ee/eternallyrin

without u here

prod. gusuck

> lyrics <

you are everything i hate
i'm not anything u say
u tried to bury me six feet
now i'm who i wanted to be
(who i wanted to be)

do u think u were right to
leave me to bleed?
and u know, that ur to blame
blood on ur teeth
cuts on ur sleeves
bruises on ur knees
making sure i can't see

you are everything i hate
i'm not anything u say
u tried to bury me six feet
now i'm who i wanted to be

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

bleed

prod. cristalbeach

> lyrics <

u are there so far
bite into me
craving ur touch on my face
ur hand on my cheek

take my hand and tell me that ur mine
while i bite ur skin
ur eyes, ur touch, and how our lips collide
girl, come take my hand
need u here, i'm done wasting my time
ur mine until the end
cut u deep, i'm holding u tight
there's only u and i

come show me how much u miss me
girl, i feel empty without u here
ur eyes are so deadly
sitting on ur knees
looking up and smiling at me
i'm sitting on wasted time
without u in my life
hold u close and mark u below ur chin
tearing me apart while u kiss the scars on my skin

take my hand and tell me that ur mine
while i bite ur skin
ur eyes, ur touch, and how our lips collide
girl, come take my hand
need u here, i'm done wasting my time
ur mine until the end
cut u deep, i'm holding u tight
there's only u and i

while i bite ur skin
girl, ur mine all mine

https://linktr.ee/nixxiu

bite ur skin

This is a beautiful and sad song about love, sounding with melancholic guitar chords and gentle, slightly wistful synthesizers. It breathes with an evening mood, when the sun slowly sinks beyond the horizon and the air is filled with longing. This is music for a slow dance at sunset, for a long silent waiting for each other, when hearts speak louder than words.

bruises

nixxiu

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