Van Meurs Van Peppen - Whispers From Lhasa

@nothingnowheremusic
https://twitter.com/N0THINGN0WHERE

If you are reading this, you have been in a coma for the past 20 years. I don't know where this message will end up in your dream, but I hope it works.

Please wake up . . .

Astari Archives - Volume 1: The Awakening

2015

Thank you to all my friends who put their trust in me & helped put together the first volume of the archives.

& shout outs to all of my amazing supporters out there listening to this, w/out you none of this would be possible & I wouldn't be where I am & who I am today w/out the love & support you all continuously show me. 

Thank you,

I hope you all enjoy the tape.

Cover art done by: @denzelsterling

nothing,nowhere. - tough luck

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first vocal track released as 'cabe' so tell me what you think. there will be more next year...
other vocals and beats @kryptik_official

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instagram: yung_kryptik

lyrics:
it started with a sweet kiss . i guess you were my weakness...
somethings on your mind. tell me why
all the love was sweet bliss. red roses with the cheap tricks
somethings on your mind. tell me I'm the reason why
i never felt from the start, just numb
tell me I'm the fucking reason for this outcome...
all these feelings i can't outrun...

yeah.. 
i saw that you called...aye...
fuck that shit guess i'll miss them all... girl,
i thought you was the best of them all... but...
i was the dumbest one of them all... yeah...
fuck it pack another bowl... yeah...
all i have to do is make a call... aye
ring ring ring thats her on the phone... 
knock knock knock on the door now its on...

from the start (prod. nadiak)

not my song

nothing,nowhere. deleted this.
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nothing,nowhere. - fortyfive on my vespa (w/ vassh)

its been a while so i'd thought id share this. new project soon. hopefully some videos 

produced by reaper - https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
picture - https://soundcloud.com/nova1599

Lyrics:
Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling
We're sad but balling

These days i wake with an attitude
She's like why you mad at me?
Baby I'm not mad at you
I just hate the world and all the things that I've had to do
Bad decisions with some bad intentions 
Oh baby I'm bad for you
But you're good for me
Fuck it we'll call that chemistry
You want us to grow old together like an oak tree
But baby I'm growing tired and I'm only twenty three 

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

I'm living in the now why the fuck you stalling?
Been making money ever since star shopping
I got smile but inside I'm sobbing
You can hate on me but the money keeps coming

Vices got me falling
My plugs' calling 
Orange  bottles full we're sad but balling
Young dumb boys making money thats appalling
If we grow old we'll have trouble recalling

vices got me falling (prod. reaper)

u can kill me, it's our secret. (+ hallowsdeath)

spotify/apple music

U Can Kill Me, It's Our Secret. (+ｔ ｅｅｎ ｐｒｅｇｎａｎｃｙ. )

Nothing,nowhere. - Absence

https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

whip broke again and i still aint shit
you don’t what id do to fucking make this
you don’t know the road I’ve been down
just to stay here
pick it stick it flip it then erase it
check back try to relax 
dont mistake this as me coming clean
i aint sayin shit filler for an empty room

just to ease the pain in
roll a couple light em get up
for a minute now I’m changing
every line i right
i despise em all
i can’t stand this
delete another song
write another bar
just to hate it
work another day just to make enough
to get what little i want
that aint doing shit but rearranging
every fucking  thought 
i should have pushed way back
I’m just hanging by the thread 
we’ve sewn together
to make this bed
that we now lay in
have you even been
listening to a word I’m saying
so many delays
I’m losing count
tractions fading
I’m blasted in the black
lustful wishes
giving me a fucking
heart attack
this the tenth joint
I’ve smoked
in the past hour and
a half
fuck a fucking show
i just want my money back  

hop up in it
oh we back again
round for round
i be smacking hits
know you lames
all fuck with this
y’all be dropping duds
but they fuck with it
don’t you care a bit
change things up
maybe try to switch
sticking to the script
seems to work the best


putting my heart in to be washed away
waking up checking the fucking plays
lets see who aint gone respond today
another blog posting all the shit that i fucking hate
what the fuck is it gonna take
i love it and hate it all so much
i need a fucking break
watching the people move up 
who i want to cave
negative energy is all i can muster myself
to fucking bring
i don’t see why i can’t even think
a positive thought long enough
to keep me sane

still aint shit (prod killedmyself)

enjoy <3

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<3 LYRICS <3

and so as it seems no one wants me around
so i’ll pack up and leave and not come back to town
you’ll forget about me and hold feelings u found
it’s a burden on me but i still think about
my old house where my demons live
my old room i used to do acid in
if there’s one thing i’ve learned from all of this
its that getting older jus means u hate shit

and so as it seems i’m a nihilist now
everything bothers me without making a sound
hollow chest broken heart i wake up feeling doubt
i just want it to end can u please help me out
i just need u
to guide me thru
this stupid thing that’s in my head
i’m going thru
i feel betrayed every day i’m awake
i just want it to end is that too much to ask 
for fucks sake


and so as it seems no one wants me around
so i’ll cut both my wrists til i fucking bleed out
leave my body to waste in my room where u found
me lying there when u promised u would help
but it’s too late
i’m near the light
my body aches
and honestly i’m terrified
but one things for certain i’m glad that it’s over
and as my life flashes by i spent none sober

and so as it seems i wish i could relive
all the moments i wasted jus shooting the shit
with myself in the mirror on drugs as a kid
i’ll miss u my dear but don’t cry not one bit
i’m sorry
i hate me too
i can’t go back
i should’ve stayed alive for u
and now that it’s over i hate this decision
can u hold me closer i’m losing my vision 
:( ripp

a song about dying *p. sorrow bringer*

yung van - @itsyungvan
IG - @yungvan
TWIT - @itsyungvan

trechor boy - @trechorboy
IG - @trechorboy
TWIT - @trechorboy

MAKE U CRY <//3

(EMO FRUITS)

u can tell me all the things that make u cry
u can tell me all the reasons u get high
baby wanna hold me down
i dont know why
u just need someone around to warm your night

every red light i hit
im gettin tired baby
u dont wanna feel the spark
feel the fire baby
i dont trust it at all
but im gon try baby
i can tell we the same
its in ur eyes baby
every redlight i hit
im gettin tired baby
u dont wanna feel the spark
feel the fire baby
i dont trust it at all
but im gon try baby
i can tell we the same
its in ur eyes baby

(YUNG VAN)
warm your night
ima make u mine
yeah u can take my hand
i will treat u right
u dont have to fall
if u wanna lie
tell me that u love me while u look in my eyes
no i dont wanna cry
but every time u say u love me its a lie
u only love me when u lonely gettin high
you've got me fallen
even tho ur my demise
.
.
.
-emo fruits aka yung stay hydrated kids pls protect urself and the earth

make u cry w/ yung van (prod. trechor boy)

After over a year its finally here thank you for your patience, love, and support. Here is a piece of me for you. -✦✦

producers:
1. @808gila
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2a4MbzmNLr59O7ryeFLf-Q/videos?view_as=subscriber

2. @jtpark
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-4r-CQERjH2Yf3z8OZ0qxQ
IG: https://www.instagram.com/prodbyjtpark/
TW: https://twitter.com/prodjtpark

2, 3, & 13. @user67beats
TT: https://traktrain.com/user67
IG: https://www.instagram.com/user67beats/
TW: https://twitter.com/prodbyuser67

4, 5, & 15: @prodby2k6
TT: https://traktrain.com/2k6#398704
IG: https://www.instagram.com/prodby2k6/
TW: https://twitter.com/ProdBy2k6

6, 7, 10, & 11: @Kcaaz
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXAzzCItZ91iCEUJbWqrAgA
IG: https://www.instagram.com/kcaaznc/?hl=en
SPOT: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5evZsbAa7rBuUzmrrSyBIe?si=iUEGtukVT_mLxO_UvHJ7DQ

8. @wavkid90
WEB: https://wavekid.infinity.airbit.com
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCePpyk8hUD8NjwnuDXtHmYQ
IG: https://www.instagram.com/liltutur/

9: @lilbearshawty
IG: https://www.instagram.com/lilbearshawty/
TW: https://twitter.com/lilbearshawty
SPOT: https://open.spotify.com/artist/7hkeWsaD98uWlpKLukw0qK

12: @young-enzo
YT: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVEQ2aSgBXJUVcaK-W-VBcA

14. @shanikai
IG: https://www.instagram.com/shanikai/

nothing,nowhere. - fortyfive on my vespa (w/ vassh)

n,n.forever