Name: hate by Nicky NUKEM
Duration: 2 min 13 s
Description: i can't think straight, my mind is a nonfunctional broken mess full of hate and anger.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33LfOIbO4hk

Beginning of the End

Photon

Someone I Could Trust

I kissed you after hours of sipping whiskey sours and told you you were my best friend
I was lying in your bedding, dreaming ‘bout a wedding when you whispered it’s the end

I begged you to explain
Please tell me what changed
Was anything ever true?
You said it’s never been you

I thought I was keeping up but you left me in the dust 
I was shiny and brand new till you put me out to rust
I’m not used to stable but I was getting used to us
And I thought you were someone…
Someone I could trust

I hadn’t even left, when you lit a cigarette,
and blew the smoke right in my face
To the door I stumbled, through my tears I mumbled, 
you’re making a big mistake 

I begged you to explain
Please tell me what changed
Was anything ever true?
You said it’s me not you

I thought I was keeping up but you left me in the dust 
I was shiny and brand new till you put me out to rust
I’m not used to stable but I was getting used to us
And I thought you were someone…
Someone I could trust

I showed up to work late, put too much on my plate
Bought new clothes and cut my hair
Found someone who adores me, always reassures me
He says he’s not going anywhere 

But I don’t know if he’s honest
‘Cause you broke that same promise 
You swore you’d always keep
And now these scars run deep 

I thought I was keeping up but you left me in the dust 
I was shiny and brand new till you put me out to rust
I’m not used to stable but I was getting used to us
And I thought you were someone…
But you were never someone…
Someone I could trust

No you were never someone…
Someone I could trust

someone i could trust

I go to Heaven

Para escuchar la versión con MV  https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/nadie-es-perfecto-feat-mv
Para escuchar la canción preparada para cantar  https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/nadie-es-perfecto-ver-texto
Para escuchar la versión original  https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/nadie-es-perfecto-version-original-ver-texto

Nadie es perfecto

Eran las cuatro de la mañana                                     
cuando medio en sueños algo oyó
en silencio fue a la ventana
y en la calle a nadie encontró.

Pero en la puerta vio a su hermano
con toda la angustia a flor de piel
le anunció con pena y desgarro
“madre muere y te quiere ver”.

En un momento duda qué hacer
pero enseguida se decide
pues piensa que si hoy existe
es gracias a quien va a fallecer.

Piensa también que son treinta años
desde la última vez que la vio
pues cuando sólo era un muchacho
las herencias ya los separó.	

Cuando se acerca hacia su casa
se detiene y mira hacia atrás
no se cree aún lo que pasa
viendo años de felicidad.

En lo más hondo de sus entrañas
siente rabia y ganas de llorar
y algo en su interior que le arrastra
casi en contra de su voluntad.

Cuando  penetra en la habitación
busca su cara en el lecho
y con la emoción en su pecho
le dice “hola, madre, soy yo”

Cuando la ve coger su mano
esforzándose por sonreír
siente que todo está acabando
pero se alegra al verla feliz.

Al ver su rostro moribundo
que lucha en un mar de sollozos
desprecia esta bárbaro mundo
de envidias, rencores y odios.

“Tranquilo hijo: nadie, nadie es perfecto
y todos nos equivocamos”
es la última voz de sus labios
quedándose mirando al cielo.

Nobody is perfect

It was four in the morning
when, half in his sleep, he heard something
quietly, he went to the window
and found no one on the street.

But at the door, he saw his brother
with all his anguish on the surface
he announced to him with sorrow and heartbreak
"Mother is dying and wants to see you."

For a moment, he hesitates,
but he quickly makes up his mind
because he thinks that if she exists today
it's thanks to the one who is going to die.

He also thinks that it's been thirty years
since the last time he saw her
because when he was just a boy
inheritances had already separated them. 

As he approaches his house
he stops and looks back
he still can't believe what's happening
seeing years of happiness.

Deep in his gut
he feels rage and the urge to cry
and something inside him that pulls him
almost against his will.

When he enters the room,
he searches for her face in the bed
and with emotion in his chest
says, "Hello, Mother, it's me."

When he sees her take his hand
struggling to smile
he feels like everything is ending
but he rejoices at seeing her happy.

Seeing her dying face
struggling in a sea of ​​sobs
he despises this barbaric world
of envy, resentment, and hatred.

"Calm down, son: no one, no one is perfect
and we all make mistakes,"
is the last voice from his lips
as he stares up at the sky.

Nadie es perfecto AC

i can't think straight, my mind is a nonfunctional broken mess full of hate and anger.

hate

Bolera

BOLERA

musique pour le sexe

Ça m'excite

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/
THE LOTION — Part Four: an Essay //
meets Lo-Fi Vol. 1 by Tomas Peiretti
/**
music: Track One, Lo-Fi Vol. 1 by Tomas Peiretti
lyrics: The Lotion, fictionalive
/**

An alternate take of the suppressed original:
https://soundcloud.com/fictionalive/the-lotion-it-all-starts-here-rub-yourself-with-love-4thediscontent-mix?in=fictionalive/sets/the-lotion-revisited-voice

Our previous and first collab—a dream come true:
soundcloud.com/fictionalive/sets/the-beauty-of-a-collabs-over
/**

visit Tomas on Soundcloud here @tgpeiretti

/

The Lotion: It All Starts Here – Rub Yourself With Love // Billion Lotions
/**

Hidden Story:

“The Lotion” started with a gust from the SoundCloud algorithm—163 plays, flagged as “Recommended.”

Then, without warning, the wind vanished. No reason given. Maybe “revo-LOTION and love” was one revolution too many.

The Enigma floats where machines pull anchor. So:
We multiply. We remix. Every alternate take is an act of resistance.

Want to make history? Float your own Lotion.
DM to join the wave. @fictionalive

Let love slip past the unseen hand.

/

What’s a “new alternate take”?

It’s a fresh version of a song—different vocals, mix, mood, arrangement, or interpretation.

Not a finished remix; usually, it’s raw, experimental, open to further evolution.

Think: What if the same story is told with a twist, a new voice, or a secret ingredient?
/

THE LOTION — Part Four: an Essay // meets Lo-Fi Vol. 1

Para escuchar la versión con Martin T.  https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/no-quiero-verte-feat-martin-t
Para escuchar la versión original  https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/no-quiero-verte-version-original-ver-texto
Para escuchar la versión instrumental https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/no-quiero-verte-version-instrumental
Para escuchar la versión con Dazz Deva https://soundcloud.com/juan-fco-bueno/no-quiero-verte

NO QUIERO VERTE

Somos como dos pajarillos
viviendo en un plácido nido...
sin apenas conocerse;
somos unos desconocidos
jugando a cambiar de camino…
con el riesgo de perderse.

Y es que somos a la vez
carne y uña, risa y llanto:
dos que no se pueden ver...
¡pero que se quieren tanto!

Estribillo

No quiero verte porque sé que te adoro
no quiero verte porque sé que luego lloro
y no puedo estar sin ti;
te diría que te quiero como un loco...
pero sé que en tu vida yo no soy
ese amor que sabe a poco
y prefiero estar sin ti.

-----------------

Somos como dos enemigos
luchando en eterno conflicto…
pero que no han de matarse;
somos todavía dos niños
buscando el juguete perdido…
y es hora de despertarse.

Y es que somos a la vez
mar y arena, nieve y menta:
algo que no puede ser...
¡si primero no se intenta!

Estribillo

I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOU

We are like two little birds
living in a placid nest ...
without hardly knowing each other;
we are strangers
playing to change the way ...
at the risk of getting lost.

And it is that we are at the same time
flesh and nail, laughter and crying:
two that cannot be seen ...
But they love each other so much!

Chorus

I don't want to see you because I know that I adore you
I don't want to see you because I know that I cry later
And I can't be without you
I would tell you that I love you like crazy ...
but I know that in your life I am not
that love that knows little
And I'd rather be without you

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We are like two enemies
fighting in eternal conflict ...
but they are not to be killed;
we are still two children
looking for the lost toy ...
And it's time to wake up

And it is that we are at the same time
sea and sand, snow and mint:
something that can't be ...
If you don't try first!

Chorus

No quiero verte AC

All songs labeled (NNLF) = lilxflirt and Nicky Nukem 
Logo art, timeline art, and all cover art labeled NNLF made by lilxflirt
All ambient tracks and instrumental tracks made by Nicky NUKEM
My music is all over the place. I recently found out I have low T, which explains the swings in themes and moods throughout my work. 
Also, I'm trying to be entertaining, don't take the artwork or lyrics or titles too seriously.

hate

Nicky NUKEM

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