out on all plats now 🤞(mrdeetree on spotify)

Water You Doing Demo

another day goes by 
i wanna cry cause im dying on the inside
and you ask why
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaask
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i love you so but its plutonic and i
hug you tho although i vomit in my mouth
as the days go by im countin em up
we been together for like 6 months
it dont get better im such a chump
because this aint that real love 
real trust with them real hugs

dont ask me why im sad bitch lets just play castle crashers

Dont know how to let my tears
I got a long way from here I fear
Im getting signals and they arent clear
I dont know when Im gonna disappear

I shouldnt hold on to the past you say
I let my old friends just go away
Couldnt let my wants just go astray
Had to let myself know Im okay

Come on wont you give me a break
I got a lot of damn time that you just wanna take
I got a lot of damn songs that I just wanna make
I gotta finish in time before its too late

I gotta ruin my mind I do it day by day
If Im not doing it right then I just get crossfaded
I gotta forget everything you said
Cause even while your gone its getting to my head

And sometimes its just way too much
And sometimes I just wanna feel a rush
And sometimes I feel like Im getting crushed
But thats because of you baby

spotify

all cause of you

now I’m at this altitude
i wont come down til morning
could you please jus bring me home
but just don’t take the long way
cus i might just start crying
and talking about family
and memories no one wants to hear
but i still tell you gladly
when i was a kid no one showed up to my birthday, so i don’t fuck with parties
when i was a kid no one showed up to my birthday, so i don’t fuck with parties

🎂🎂🎂

invisibIe tears

obviously this one isnt prod me

loud & proud about my death
i hope that she wears the best dress
to my funereal i guess
i dont want you stress but
youll be crying til november 
cause ill be gone in september 
my friends all act like they love me
but i dont feel it
and im not healin
cant shake this feelin
local artist jumps n dies
and on twitter ill get fried
while my friends sit n cry cause
they didnt check up on me
ill pop another pill cause
i got more than one oxy
nobody really wants me
feel less cause they all taunt me
im rotting in this body
when i die say "come haunt me"
say my name 3 times its rami
in your dreams youll say you saw me
im a ghost ill come & go
you better hope i have a halo
cause if i dont then your alone
youll say you really like me
but behind my back call me ugly
cause you know you do not fw me
you only say you do 
in my suicide note
ill put every single one of you

another cry 4 help that u will all ignore again

prod. sickboi
i dont wanna fall back into it
dont know why i chase it i dont know why i do it
every step feels like i’m losing the ground
but i keep circling back up around


and i swore i’d quit a hundred times before
but the cycle’s got a key to my locked door

i don’t know why i chase it
don’t know why i do it
heart’s on fire and i still run right through it
same mistake, different day, can’t escape the mess i made
feels so safe in the mess i make


text unread but i stare at the screen
guess i like the static more than what it means
every red flag feels like home to me
i diffuse disaster with intimacy

and i know the ending always tastes the same
but i play it like a song with a different name

i dont wanna fall back into it

the pain is drawn out but its ok
i eat like shit and get high everyday
nothing good comes out of it anyways
if i try to say what i really wanna say
rather blow my brains out than wait another day
5 mminutes in and ive lost all hope
i just dont know where id go
im at the end and theres nothing else so 
whats the point of health

when it hits harsh

prod @maxminds

i was doing pretty fine until you ruined all of it
lately ive been getting high so i think ive forgetten it
tear myself i wear myself i try too hard to not commit
im not doing better im just better at hiding things
i passed you my note and then you ripped it up and wadded it
once upon a time i got some hope and disregarded it
i know that itss bad for me but i know that i wanted it

better

another day

Im so traumatized from those pretty eyes
I wish you would die sometimes I would be obliged
Ripping out my hair but i have too much
I was filled with lust Now im counting cuts 
theyre off you

when it hits harsh

winner