non-profit, shoutout idealism

this song helped start the process of closure for a lot of things for me, I hope you all enjoy it

thanks for listening <3

cacophony [prod. idealism]

prod. me
started recording regularly like a week ago so dont expect too much lol
<3




lyrics:
i need u but its just like always
u are not around 
i believe that i will kill myself 
i cry without a sound
someone wake me up 
or i'll be gone before i leave this town
i cant live without the drugs
now watch me falling to the ground

i hate my life
i hate my life 
i hate my life
i hate it

i need u but its just like always
u are not around 
i believe that i will kill myself 
i cry without a sound
someone wake me up 
or i'll be gone before i leave this town
i cant live without the drugs
now watch me falling to the ground

hatemylife

No Algorithm - Greed Or Lust? (prod. rx808)

Lyrics:
Oh, can you let me fall
Can you let me know
Will you care at all
If you let me fall

Can you let me fall
Can you let me know
Will you care at all
If you let me fall

If it were about you
Nothing that i can do
Suffocate me dearly
Let me feel the pain now
I don’t wanna win this
I just wanna lose myself
Gimme what i get
This is all that i could get
Tell me why that i must compare
All the thoughts that are in my head
For the days that are lost that year
Can i ask why i have to be this way
This was nothing more than personal
Why’d you make it all so difficult
For me to surpass my daily damage
That is brought within my broken mind

Oh, can you let me fall
Can you let me know
Will you care at all
If you let me fall

Can you let me fall
Can you let me know
Will you care at all
If you let me fall

Today, I Meet My Flatline

Let Me Fall (prod. xmichaelwarren)

On and on it goes...

MIXED: ARI 
MASTERED: ARI
PRODUCED: GRAYSKIES
WRITTEN: ARI VEGA 

lyrics:
Greyskies
Up all night
I’ve been by myself for a long time
I see you
Walk around
Something bout this just feels so right

I don’t think you know how much I need you
Yeah she put her fangs in my neck, and I do
Love it when she feeds on my blood & shine through
Making love in the moonlight and so…

On and on it goes
On and on it goes
Make me one of you
Can you love for two?

I’ve been by myself for a long time 
Everybody knows it’s just you and I 
Staying up all night just to pass the time
Waiting for your call by the moonlight 


I don’t think you know how much I need you
Yeah she put her fangs in my neck, and I do
Love it when she feeds on my blood & shine through
Making love in the moonlight and so…

On and on it goes
On and on it goes
Make me one of you
Can you love for two?

Kyo, come on
think about it
who's the real villain here?
who really dragged her into this?
who?
it was me...
that's right

MY CURSE PROD. GRAYSKIES

idk :/

lyrics

drown 
i have these fucking feelings every now
and then but i just swim in circles waiting for the world to fucking end

ocean waves
passin days
it happens all 2 quick i cant remember my own face

swimming deeper and deeper each day
in the sea but the sand where u lay
do u see me like i see you do u see me
coz one day ill go too far, 2d33p

u might think that im right, in your reach
dont take for granted, u might lose me in ur sleep
the seeds been planted
ofc i dont wanna weep
but its so hard when ur not the person they believe

 u r

left so many ppl on a missed call
I dont wanna write all of these dark songs
im working so hard but what fr

2d33p (ryino beats)

shoutout zbee for the fire ft, he absolutely killed it in like no time (@heyzbee)

deadspyro beats r so chilll

lyrics

mæsk
i see it on ur face 
(someone told me it sounds like "i sit on ur face" and now i cant unhear it :/)
i see it every other day
i wish u were more present but u never wanna stay 
u looking way out there
can we lay right here

baby its not in our control
im not tryna plant the fear
u dont have to worry 
the stars are always there 
can we stop and stare
we can lay right here

its feeling off
i think the wheels are coming off
the sparkz were oh so bright but now i see they’re almost gone

drowning with all this liquor in my head
baby take my hand b4 i fucking sink again

i know that these times and what we know is just confusing
please dont think about to hard lives will just be ruined
push to start will move it
while making all this music
to tell u what im thinking coz i feel so fucking useless  

ooo
how many more times before i lose u
going thru the motions b4 i knew u
now i know that ur the one
losing sparks is never fun

never fun
every time i hear ur name my mind goes to shock 
i dont wanna and say u really r the one
but i think ur the one
if im being honest baby this partys no fun

yeh we been dancing all night long
and i think this drinks too strong
but i think we gon make it tonite
coz baby tonite's ur nite

baby we can go until we cant feel anything
honestly i dont even mind as long as ur with me

run away with me
we dont need anyone
as long as u 
i think we're having fun
sparkz fly by when ur with me
sparkz fly by when ur with me
sparkz fly by
sparkz fly by
sparkz fly by

sparkz ft zbee (deadspyro)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

@evertheghost

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half 

You try to invite him over 
Got 3 screenshots from last October 
Don’t lie to my face 

you know you ain’t right
You know you ain’t right

I exercise my full right 
To keep on dying inside 

Please take your stupid thoughts
And shove them right up your ass 

Your always so full of shit 
I tried my best to make things right 

You fill my head with harmful thoughts 
And act so innocent in the dark 

I’m so tired of falling 
I’m so damn exhausted 

I cry so damn often 
My life keeps on falling 

(Ever The Ghost)
no peace
no remorse
only a flame to devour a forest
no remnants of life
captivate me on a fast decline
opening portals
unlocking powers
restless souls
all figure out after hours
lost and searching for my soul as it roams
got me backed in a corner
I just want to be alone

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half

Captivate [+ sogimura]

Maybe he'll see it if yall run it up enough :3

Gift me closure
But how long I gotta wait for an answer
I guess we never change ur a monster now
Be honest u had never put in Effort
And it hurts me

Im at home here
My tears will wash away as I mold here
But if life had stayed the same I would’ve rot here too
So what’s the harm in giving me the closure from u
Im so alone here
Its so cold inside my place with the ghosts near
But Baby please dont be afraid I will hold u
It doesn’t No matter what they say they cant control u
And yet they own u
Fight back
U taught me how to harm try that
I see in my dreams but ur all but my friend
Tell me how the fuck u got in my head
Huh
Velvet
My hands come out my head coated in a bright red
But the pain feel amazing the more that I bled
Painting every time her shoes tread

Im at home here
My tears will wash away as I mold here
But if life had stayed the same I would’ve rot here too
So what’s the harm in giving me the closure from u
Im so alone here
Its so cold inside my place with the ghosts near
But Baby please dont be afraid I will hold u
It doesn’t No matter what they say they cant control u
And yet they own u

Gift me closure
But how long I gotta wait for an answer
I guess we never change ur a monster now
Be honest u had never put in Effort
And it hurts me

CLOSURE - Sewerperson (REMIX)

lyrics:

Woke up and my eyes hurt
Wanna feel but i’m so numb
Broken hearted till the end
With all these thoughts of you
I’m stuck between loose ends
Just losing all my ways
Forgetting who i really am
And caught up in a blur


I’m here singing all these songs to cope with the pain
I can’t endure this, when can my heart break
Why’d you want to hurt me so bad, that i can’t talk
And i just want to know when can my heart break

I know i feel alone
My only friend i are shadows
A fractured image of myself
Broken paintings left in scars
I’m weeping deep inside
My thoughts are in disarray
I’m hurting can’t you tell
I promise i'm so well

I’m here singing all these songs to cope with the pain
I can’t endure this, when can my heart break
Why’d you want to hurt me so bad, that i can’t talk
And i just want to know when can my heart break

No Algorithm - Greed Or Lust? (prod. rx808)

No Algorithm.