Message (Ft. Big Jeezy)

Deep End (Ft. NJrealmusix) -Lecrae (REMIX)

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The Words I Should Have Said (ft. Brxeboy)

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Watching The Stars With You (w/ Lxst Boy, Edts, Isaiah Bren, Trenton)

Keep You Warm On The Cold Nights Of December

Tell Me If This Is Real

I stopped caring a really, really long time ago (lxst boy x lxser x NJ)

(NJ)

Yeah sneaking out the backdoor at night
Cuddling at my house while watching a movie
I look into your eyes they glow so bright
Girl your my world I love you so much
Your more than just a crush
When I took you on that dance
I'm so glad you gave me that chance 
When your down I promise to bring you back up
You got mine I got yours 
I wont let someone put something in your cup
If you ever leave me I would be so lost
I care so much
I hope that day never comes crossed 
Day and night I think about you
I wish you could see yourself in my point of view

(Joroll)

2am the door is open 
I see you’re eyes are glowing 
Moonlight shines apon your body l think you the magnum opus
Dissipating hate this world is better now that I can focus 
Lifted by the air im floating sorry if I seem I’m choking 
I’m just nervous 
I can’t loose the only human that gives me purpose 
Flowers grow in paths you make it’s beautiful I’ll gladly serve ya 
I don’t think I  understand your skin and bones will warp around me 
I fell deep asleep if this a dream I’m glad you broke the surface

(Yami,)

yeah, I'm holding you tight
laying underneath the sky
watching the stars in your eyes
your making me feel fine, I'm alright with you
with you I have meaning
without you my wrists are bleeding
you complete me girl
runaway just to explore the world
but i don't wanna die alone
so hold me close
I don't wanna watch the world explode by myself here alone
seeking out at night at night
just to see you
(sneaking out just to see you)


sneaking out with you (ft. Joroll, Yami,)

Moving On (feat. handwritten letters)

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NLCC RAP (ft. The Ske, Big Sexy)

Watching The Snowfall (w/ Joroll)

God is on my side (ft. JrMasc)

laying out on the floor (w/ Enfekid)

Wake up at 7 am and stumble out the door 
Recovering from last night's break down on the floor
Happiness in a song is just too hard to do
Hard when I can't make my own decisions when I know I should listen to you 
Grab my school bag and rush to the bus 
Mom and dad's fighting again it's always a fuss 
Dragging my feet to school not wanting to see anyone and put on my fake face on and say I'm okay
Heading over to grandmas house after school she always had the special spot in my heart she's gone and now I'm torn apart
I know I'm not okay
Such a small kid in this big world 
Little kid has the dream of being in a sport and going pro
Parents broke his dreams and tell him to go and be a kid and enjoy this world 
He doesn't know what'll hit him in the future and what his mom will grow up to be
Now he's thinking that his life is the worst that It could be 
When you get older as time passes, your mom's fine she left 
Drugs gotten into her head 
Dad's got a new wife and a new job 
You'll think your step mom has everything against you because she always wants to start a fight 
You still can't find that happiness in sight 
You want to end everything till you thought you found a girl that could fix all your problems and make you happy
She left you, now you think your life's all crappy
People all around praying you'll be okay 
As times pass you just want to run away
Watching the rainfall in your little window while you live in regret seeing other guys happy while your inside living the bad life crappy 
Praying every night 
Putting up with Satan's fight 
Praying I'll find the light 

My Life


*THIS IS A NF COVER/REMIX TYPE THING*

Searching for a reason 
My heart's bleeding 
Looking through every season 
Will I find this reason 
To keep pushing through every season?
Praying to God to find the map of hope 
This music is the way that I cope
How can you tell me a ain't got nothing
I came from nothing 
Like How could you call me unskilled?
That's like lookin' at Mount Everest and then calling it a small hill
Not at all thrilled, I'm in awe still
Tryin' not to laugh, but it just spills
I've been improving a lot but I still feel
I have room to improve
Writing these songs while I'm stuck inside of this dark room 
Yeah that's what I figured
They cover they heads up whenever I drop
Shake the whole industry, put 'em in shock
Come out the clouds like a meteor rock
Then land on the earth like "Ready or not?"
Ain't no one like me, the cream of the crop
Don't even front better, give me some props
I pick up your body and throw it a block
Ok I admit it, that's over the top
When I think of a rhyme and I have to record it
But know if I don't, I'll wake up in the mornin'
And question my life again, always avoiding
I hate to be different, but hate to be normal
It's hard to keep my lid from poppin' off, but I prevail
If I'm bein' honest, last year I was in a bad place
Wouldn't say I'm out of it, but don't feel like I can't be
Who you know droppin' clean records, but they nasty?
I was made for this, I could tell when mama had me
I hopped right off the table, told my doctor, "I ain't average"
He asked me, "What does that mean?"
I told him, "Get the pen and pad, please"
Who'd a known I'd write something that could change lives?
I don't think y'all fully understand the way you changed mine
I look at the future that's in front of me with both eyes
Three records, three years, I don't like to waste time yeah 
I mean everything that's coming out of my mouth
Tried to tell me, yeah, I ain't had the right sound
Oh, yeah, well
Tell me what you think now
Three records in the bag, I ain't done, though
What's coming next year?
Let me hear the drum roll
Don't flow, anybody wanna be the one to make an issue out of nothing?
I'mma hit you with my iPhone
I know I'm a little out of hand now
I ain't looking for a handout
You didn't like what I was doing last year
Which is funny 'cause you lookin' like a fan now
Are you a fan now?
Yeah
Do not treat me like some adolescent kid
I am praying to the Lord with the book of James
Hopin' he gon' add my testament
This dark cloud, that's my residence
Demons knockin', I don't have to let 'em in
I done made mistakes, day to day, you probably can't relate
Aye

I've been thinking a lot 
About if I should drop or not
Thoughts of murdering this beat cross my mind
My happiness is just so hard to find 
Feel the ground shake on the industry coming out blow out the block
Put everyone in shock 
Destroy the beat with my bars
Lord knows I'm going far 
Don't get me mistaken
 I know mount Everest is a big mountain
 if you think I can't climb
 it I'm gonna prove you wrong
 I'm gonna be at the top 
proving all of my haters wrong 
this is what I do best 
proving all my haters wrong 
at my lowest you think you're at your highest yea yea
Writing in this dark room 
When you call me out I'll hit you in the back of the head with this broom 
Yeah
I'm lookin' like I'm gonna get it, you probably don't get it
I come in your house with a microphone
Lookin' like I'm about to set up a show in your kitchen
I'm outta my mind but I feel like I'm in it
If I never make it, don't make any difference
I'm still gonna kill it
You know what the deal is
Ain't never no chillin' when I'm in the buildin


SEARCHING

There is a light 
That I know where my god is 
The battle I still have to fight 
Strength in my mind 
Is a weakness
And is too hard to find
I know you have been praying for my soul to heal
I know my kindness isn't always the easiest I appeal 
I'm fighting
I'm praying
Searching for that lighting
I know somewhere there is a light in this darkness 
I know God would never harm us 
I will never go on the Darkside
I promise 
For the past years I've been full of hate 
Writing something I hope you could relate 
Now I'm thinking it's time to make a change
Something no one can make 
It's so out of range 
My album 
"THERE IS A LIGHT"


Never letting my thoughts get to me
(You'll never be Great)
When there is no hope left 
Just to pray 
I know God is never leaving, he is here to stay 
When hope is down the drain crying inside of my pillow case
Sadness and pain and giving up just isn't the case 
Finding the right and passion to never give up when it's hard 
Whenever you fall down and quit I know it's hard 
Been through this journey all of my life 
Pain and struggles of feeling loved 
Being stabbed in the back and being shoved 
You gotta keep grinding when your told to quit 
Using all the hate as motivation when they just tell you to quit
My strength is using this disrespect to create something that no one else can create 
I've been so lost for over 15 years 
Filling all my life with regret and tears
Yeah Filling all my life with regret and tears
I'm fighting these demons in my head
It's time to make a change 
Thinking about my life while I'm lying in my bed 
No more depressed guy
I'm the type to make a change guy 
I'm on my journey to find the right to hope
To find the light 


I've been on this journey too long 
Hanging on too long 
Can't let go
Need to let go
Time to move on and find the map 
And find my light 

Those nights with those breakdowns
Helped me learn more about life 
Tough nights feeling down
Don't trust many people to tell you what to do
Get your head right and let God tell you what to do
I'm a great example of what it looks like to not accept defeat and have to face all of those demons 
Took me years to realize you can't always just listen to those voices in your head 
Thinking about my choices while I'm lying In bed
But if I never hit rock bottom would I be the person that I am today?
I didn't think so
Look what I have built from sharing my pain in my life man 
Mental breakdowns people say are negative things and yes I can agree but sharing my problems brought me here 

I wake up everyday hoping I'll feel great 
You'll never feel the feeling of fate 
You'll always feel hate 
Never giving up when I'm low
Mama I forgive you for everything that you did 
I don't want to grow up and end up like the path you went to
I want to wake up everyday knowing I did something right
Not waking up thinking I always have to be put into a fight
15 years of searching for the light
15 years of being in Satan's fight
15 years of thinking I'll never be Great
 15 years of filling my life with hate 
 15 years of sorrow 
 15 years of (Noah give up your too late)
 I know I'm greater than my past
( Your not enough just keep giving up) 
Not letting go on my loved ones
Not running away from my problems and following through
(Stop even trying your weak)
Not listening to your voices in your head 
Not letting opinion get to you 
(Hey!)
(You'll never succeed)
I know with God I can change
(Try)
I'm taking the respect
(It's mine)
Moving on finding the light


THERE IS A LIGHT

i got u (ft. JrMasc)

Drifting Away (ft. Kai2Sadd)

THERE IS DARKNESS

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