why you always gotta put me on a bad moooood

2soon w/ skele (lil biscuit)

prod xona

-lyrics-
and I can’t wake up today
where I can’t speak, you’re in my way
I got bad thoughts all again
and I wish these things would end 
I’ll get everything you wish and ever wanted
I’ll tell you that I love you and I’m being honest
and I have thought of you since of august
so don’t look at me and leave me with no comment

and you put me through a circle 
feelings are vast, it abused my mental
and I envy many people, I see you through the evil
talking like we’re meant to be but I know it’s just lethal
yeah, I fucking hate everything but I’m obsessed 
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn’t guess 
and I’m tired of this feeling of regret
I’m fucking up and it burns me to my chest

I don’t want to hear your name 
I roll my eyes and I tend to look away 
I should’ve told you what’s the matter from that day
and I don’t feel okay with your name
I can feel it through my bones and it aches
I try and I try to pour the blame
and I wish you could’ve came my way
I find it funny that you see this as a game

and you put me through a circle 
feelings are vast, it abused my mental
and I envy many people, I see you through the evil
talking like we’re meant to be but I know it’s just lethal
yeah, i fucking hate everything but I’m obsessed 
I fucking love you, bet you wouldn’t guess
and I’m tired of this feeling of regret
I’m fucking up and it burns me to my chest

pessimist

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prod by xona<3 this beat sucks im sorry(,:

thank you to all the ppl that help me make this ily (all in order)
@reesoo
@heylog
@hovis
@moodyriley
@quannnic
-comet
@1vil
@uglysneaker
@valerii

avoid

avoid w/ reesoo, heylog, hovis, moodyriley, comet, vil, uglysneaker & valerii

@jolst
me and vaeo tapped this in while jackie rolled blunts in LA it was vv fun


Fallin' quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods
Fallin' quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods

Picking up the pieces stay falling apart when your not here
Looming in the distance i'm watching your shadow disappear
Forget myself, no helping hands out
Get left on the shelf, would go but I can't now

Back to the wall breaking down I don't know what you want
Picking at my skin you acting like I do it for fun
Seperate my mind from my body
Know you coming down too if you wanna try me

I'm a hostage to you just another captive
Under spells feeling better than I have been
Locked away in your gaze, so gently falling
Kick me down again until I come back crawling

See your shadows moving up and down the hallway
Always felt so plastic I thought you never saw me
Whole time wondering why I stuck around now
Stranded in the forest, no one looking for me

Out on a limb and outta options, walls caving in on a broken coffin
Dragged on the concrete in the chains i'm Locked in
It's almost hurts less than being forgotten

Fallin' quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods
Falling quicker for you than I thought I could
Haven't slept in weeks yea I know I should
Buried under trees, yea just leave me in the woods

porcelain

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luminesence w/ vaeo (jolst)

prod by xona <3

-lyrics-
oh i
hate when i see my
thoughts collecting signs
of everything i could’ve liked
but i can’t help but realize
I’m a stranger when i see
the mirror reflecting against me
many chapters i can’t read
and i know that’s all on me

love, we can run for days
and leave footsteps our way
your face has been engraved 
my memories this day
i don’t know why
i like 
my hatred in my eyes
maybe cause i
don’t lie
about me wanted to die

so it’s my own self
that i hate so much
that i hate so much oh~
but they don’t know what i look like
i feel scared of what they’ll hide

of, of what they hide

oh i
hate when i see my
thoughts collecting signs
of everything i could’ve liked
but I can’t help but realize
I’m a stranger when i see
the mirror reflecting against me
many chapters i can’t read
and I know that’s all on me

and I’m scared of who I’ll be
if they like on who they meet
i lost touch to me, i need
another week to feel free

so i can hide my face in the moment
i don’t think you understand what I’m holding
and it’s race of thoughts i can’t even focus
when everything feels like it’s 

broken
and i swear it eats me up
and i can’t change who I am 
when i really want that feel to go
go~
and i really know 
who you think i am?
who you think i am...

uh~ who do you think i am ?

who do you think i am ?

I’m a stranger when i see
the mirror reflecting against me
many chapters i can’t read
and i know that’s all on me

identity

so this is off of my old PC which broke and i lost all the files :p so if mix sounds weird that why,,..hoppeeee u enjoy(:
presave fisheye !!! ffm.to/fisheye

(shoutout @youngburial @dead4cf for gettin on <3)

codependent w/fatse & 4cf (xmichaelwarren)

prod by me           
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　　　　　| 　_　 _ l
　 　　　／` ミ＿xノ
　　 　 /　　　 　 |
　　　 /　 ヽ　　 ﾉ
　 　 │　　|　|　|
　／￣|　　 |　|　|
　| (￣ヽ＿_ヽ_)__)
　＼二つ

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(lyrics)
I sacrifice myself for you but you don't see the purpose,
sweating up a storm but you don't even seem that nervous
tired of this game we play submerged beneath the surface 
there appears to be some light that's slipping thru a crevice 


wake up and leave it
cuz you know how I get

no point in speaking
cuz I know how you get

bobbin and weavin
cuz I know how things get

lock it and throw it 
there's keys I'm not keepin

crashing and rollin
I'm killing the contest

descending I plummet
I'm crushing on pavement

bloody and battered 
all on the horizon

keepin it scattered 
dismembered and timid


I sacrifice myself for you but you don't see the purpose,
sweating up a storm but you don't even seem that nervous
tired of this game we play submerged beneath the surface 
there appears to be some light that's slipping thru a crevice (x2)

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sorry for being so inactive :') [discern & self-loathe]

winter

purpose

prod by me
thank you to @chalyre for some backing vocals <33

- lyrics -
I've been tryna get some rest but my room feels really warm
struggling to sleep cause outside i hear a storm
keeps me pacing in my head when it lingers for way to long
barely see the sun when i write all of these songs
put my hands up to my face getting ready to stand guard
oh my vision's getting blurry i can hear the ring its hard
if i never trusted words would i be in such a mess
if i never trusted words would there be any progress

i feel my lifespan getting thin
might just take it on the chin
now im trying just to win
cause i feel it in my skin

look around see a setting of a home
you see the butterfly see em when they roam'
i see you blister see the brightness in ur eyes
why you smiling when you jsut saw it all die
does the vision never bother you from hope
many blurry lines that you never sought
what is life where you coming from 
what's the time
not you and i

overheard who is spoken to
"just a friend" doesn't sound so new
never honest just as i knew
brought it up and ur cover blew
what's the name of the guy that you knew
asking for closure its due
feeling dread to the guy you boozed
maybe he would like the news

hold out your hands maybe i wont be that upset
see a pattern baby ima need a cigarette
who you think you are talking like you know us
keep on lying baby maybe us wont turn to dust
keep in mind you never fought for us
see a body dead strung just a shell a husk
sing or hum do whatever that's gon comfort you
can't deny whatever will come for you
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flower petals ✾

strung

prod by me

- lyrics -
my hearts gone out of place
please just let the rhythm follow pace
has my life gone cold
since i see my walls been filled with mold

has the world been whispering to me
"your life is done there's no repeating "
a change of seasons

my blood feels so potent
but your hate  had hid like a trojan
talking id notice
how your heart had turned in the ocean

but i made a mistake
your unconditioned love showing you were a fake
i trusted every word thinking you were made for me
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flower petals ✾

2soon w/ skele (lil biscuit)

noah thomas

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